Destiny

Luca

Did you ever had a memory that you badly want to forget but it always keeps taunting you?

Olivia's POV:

'Do you really think I like you? Have you ever looked at your face in the mirror? Did you really think I have such low standards to choose a fat and dumb girl like you as my girlfriend?'

My breath became uneven. I can hear people laughing, and my heart started beating fast. I was in tears when all the memories are back. Suddenly, it is hard to breathe.

"Oli, oli, OLI WAKE UP, OLI WAKE UP DAMMIT" I can hear a voice. I want to open my eyes but I can't, this is happening again. I started crying more with my eyes closed.

"OLI PLEASE WAKE UP STOP CRYING try to open your eyes please" my body is shaking. I slowly opened my eyes. It took some time to register what's happening. I had another dream after many days. Sweat dripping on my forehead liam had tears, soph is looking worried. I slowly got up and liam hugged me tightly.

"What happened? Who did this to you?" he started crying. I tried to calm down. Nobody talked for few minutes.

After some time I started talking. It has been a year and I never told anyone what happened at the end of my high school. Everything was bottled up in me and I was scared that people might judge me.

"It was my last year of high school. You know that I had a crush on Luca since kindergarten. One day when I was eating alone in the cafeteria Luca came to me and talked. I was shocked and happy because it was the first time he talked. 

"Hi Olivia."he smiled. 

"H..hi"

"I saw you sitting alone. Can I join?" How can I not accept, I always wanted to talk with him.

"Sure" he sat beside me. Everyone in the cafeteria are shocked.

"I actually wanted to talk with you from many days but I don't know how. Finally today I got a chance to speak with this beautiful girl" I blushed. My mind repeated the word beautiful.

We ate lunch together and he talked very sweetly. I didn't talk much but he understood that I need some time. From that day he always joined me for lunch.

One day Luca asked me if I am free on weekend so that we can hangout and I said yes. He took me to a cafe.

"I really liked you but I was scared that you might reject me as this is the last year I thought this is my last chance to talk with you. You don't have to be stressed over this. First let's be friends then we will think about dating. I really like you Olivia please give me a chance" my poor heart believed everything he said. 

First it was good, we hung out alot. After Liam left me I never had a friend. I was all alone but now Luca is talking with me. I was happy and I wasn't alone anymore. He even warned people not to bully me.

After a few days he said he couldn't be just as a friend. He wants to take me on a date and be his girlfriend. I happily accepted. We went on many dates and he always made sure I was comfortable around him. I started liking him more. I was so happy but blinded by love. 

Suddenly there was news that my father died. Mom didn't take it well. She blamed me for everything because I forced dad to take me out on my birthday then he met with an accident. I thought at least Luca would be by my side but he started ignoring me. I tried to talk with him but he never gave me a chance to speak. All he said was 'I am busy'. I was beyond broken with dad's death and luca's behavior.

One day in the middle of the hallway I saw Luca talking to his friends. I immediately went to talk with him.

"Luca what's wrong? why are you avoiding me? Did I do something?" He glared at me but soon that glare turned into a smirk. I didn't understand.

"How can you be so dumb you still think I like you? It was all an act, we got bored of bullying you and it is a revenge. We came to know the little crush you have on me so we had a plan. I made you believe that I like you and whenever you smiled at me it was fun because you have no idea."

"Do you really think I like you? Have you ever looked at your face in the mirror? Do you really think I have such low standards to choose a fat girl like you as my girlfriend? Me and my friends wanted to fool you and we did it that's all. I never liked you. You are just dumb,ugly and fat" everybody in the hallway started laughing and few gave me pity looks. I was humiliated in front of the whole school, I ran out from there. I kept on hearing people laugh and Luca's words. I closed my ears tightly and wanted to stop everything but I couldn't. What's wrong with me? I never hurt anyone. I am always polite and help others. I always want people to be happy. Is it not enough to like me? Why do people hate me so much? 

I came home and went to my room and fell asleep while crying. I can't tell mom because she doesn't even like to see my face. Rebacca never cared about me, the only best friend I have in my life left me without a word I have no one to talk to. I cried till the tears drained.

I was ashamed to show my face in school but I somehow managed to go. Everyone whispered and laughed when they saw me. I closed my ears tightly. It was like hell to go to school but I managed to complete it and I came out of hell.'

Yesterday when Sam kissed me and said it was a mistake all the memories came back. 

All the words luca said are true, nobody will have feelings for a girl like me, they want to play with my feelings and have fun. I was scared by the fact that I started having feelings for sam. I guess I don't deserve anything in this world" liam hugged me tightly.

"I am sorry that you went through all these. I should have stayed with you when you needed me the most. I am a very shitty best friend and ashamed of me. I am sorry oli I should have came back to you. You are not ugly. You're the beautiful girl in this whole world with a good heart. I am sorry that luca took revenge on you because of me. I told you remember when he talked badly about you? I punched him? Because of that he did all these. I am sorry this is all my fault" he hugged tightly and cried. 

People are cruel, they find happiness in others pain.

"Livy I am sorry for what happened to you but from now we'll always be there for you. We will make sure everything is fine. That's what friends are for right?" Sophie hugged me.

"I am going to kill both luca and sam for doing this to you" liam said angrily.

"Luca is my past which I moved on and it's not only Sam's fault, I am also responsible for what happened yesterday. I didn't stopped and you can't blame him."

"You had feelings for him so you let him kiss. What about sam? if he thinks kissing you was a mistake he shouldn't have kissed you in the first place" he spat.

"I want to forget everything and time will heal me. I want to complete college without any trouble. So please leave it. I will try to avoid him. If you do anything I will stop talking to you" I said in a serious tone. Liam sighed in defeat.

"Can I atleast punch his face?"

"No" I glared.

"Where is emma? How did you guys get in?" I asked.

"Emma was by your side whole night. She said you had a nightmare in the middle of the night. She was worried and called us. We came in the morning she left to meet her mother. She said she will be back by evening" Sophie replied. I feel bad for making Emma worry.

"Let's go, Sophie made some pancakes. We will have breakfast."

"I am not hungry" liam glared and dragged me. We ate in silence, liam made sure to crack some jokes here and there to change my mood. I am happy, at least now he is with me. I am happy that I made friends like Emma and Sophie.

My phone started ringing when I saw the caller ID. I don't want to talk with them right now but I answered the call.