Destiny

Blushes and Butterflies

They say you keep lot of secrets but the thing is nobody made you feel comfortable to share anything without judging you.

Olivia's POV:

It has been a month. Soph and Liam are on good terms. Sam is still a sweetheart; he always took care of me. We had dinners together, we went on dates. He is always a perfect boyfriend. I met Aaron few times it is good to meet him again after many years. Emma and I spend time everyday she is caring and kind. I am happy to have her as a friend. We cook together, we even dance when we are bored, gossip about people and watch netflix together.

"Oli, are you busy?" Sam asked.

"No, I am free. Why?" 

"Dylan went out he will come back tomorrow evening, want to join me for dinner in my apartment?"

"Sure" I am nervous but happy to spend time with him.

"Perfect, I will be there in thirty minutes get ready" he hung up.

He came after thirty minutes and we went to his apartment. I am excited this is the second time I am in his apartment.

"What do you want for dinner?"

"Anything is fine."

"How about pizza?"

"Perfect"

I turned on netflix watching friends. Sam is on phone talking to his mom. After sometime pizza arrived and we ate while watching netflix.

"How is your assignment going on? You were so stressed to decide. Did you decide what to draw?"

"No" I lied. I decided to draw our first kiss on the beach. It is always special to me but I want to surprise him.

"Don't stress too much sweetheart just choose something and draw."

"No, I want this to be special. I want to draw something memorable" he smiled and ruffled my hair.

We completed our dinner. I am still watching friends. Sam came from the kitchen and sat beside me. He gave me chocolate.

"Thank you!" I kissed his cheek. I immediately realized what I did. My eyes widened, sure we kissed before but it is always new for me. Sam slowly moved forward to kiss and I moved back till I lay on the couch. He hovered and leaned down to kiss me. I can clearly hear our heart beats. He stared at my lips for a second and he kissed me. The kiss became more urgent and now it is rough and deep. He stopped so that we could catch our breaths. He started giving me neck kisses, he stopped at the valley of my breast, he looked at me and kissed without taking his eyes off me. He came back to kiss my lips. Suddenly something triggered and he stopped.

"It is better to stop here." he said in a deep voice, I nodded.

Sam slept beside me, looking at the ceiling thinking about my life no matter how happy I am, I always miss mom and rebecca.

"What's bothering you?"

"I miss mom and my sister" he turned to my side, placed his hand on my waist.

"You can call them or meet them right? why are you stressing a lot about it?"

"Mom and Rebecca never answer my calls. Mom hates me because I am the reason for my father's death. She doesn't want to see my face and bex never answers my texts. I am worried about her but I am excited for thanksgiving at least that day I can meet them."

"What happened to your father? Why they are blaming you?"

"It was a week before my birthday, dad promised he would take me out on my birthday. Dad never had time to talk with me so I was excited and told him I want to go out with him on my birthday to eat ice-cream like a normal father and daughter. He took me to an ice cream parlor on my birthday as promised. I was so happy that I could spend some time with him.

He parked the car on the opposite side, after crossing the road he realized he forgot his phone in the car.

"Livy I forgot my phone, you stay here I will get it."

"Okay dad" I was watching dad while crossing the road. Within a blink everything happened. 

A car came at high speed and crashed, dad fell on the road with blood flowing from his head. He is not moving. I was in shock. Everyone around came and helped to take him to hospital. Someone called the cops and they asked me many questions but I couldn't hear anything. I had a panic attack.

They checked dad's ID and called my mom. Mom and Rebecca came to the hospital. I was sitting on the bench when a doctor came to us.

"Are you Mrs.Anderson?" He asked.

"Yes, how is he?" My mother tried to control her tears.

"He is in a bit of a critical position but he will be fine" mom nodded with hope in her eyes.

Mom sent me and Rebecca home. She never talked a single word with me. She didn't even look at me.

Next day they told dad died, heart attack. Since that day mom never talked with me. She think because of me he died and it's true. I hope she will forgive me one day" Sam hugged and kissed my forehead.

"It's not your fault that your father died. It was an accident, don't blame yourself sweetheart" I can't help it because no matter how hard I try I can't forgive myself it all happened because of me.

"Why thanksgiving?"

"Father made sure no matter how busy we are we should all celebrate thanksgiving together so that we can have some family time. I am sure bex will come for thanksgiving no matter how busy she is and mom will be at home."

"Then it is solved, don't worry. You can meet them" I nodded and hugged him. I drifted into sleep. It is good to share what I feel with someone after many days. I never spoke about dad I was always scared that people might judge me.