A Good Kind of Change

Miami

"Hello..." I say in the most dry tone ever.

"Shanya..." Hello Fuckernick.

I could be so immature right now. I want to so bad.

"Yes Colin?" I say sarcastically.

He can go from bae to bruh real fast.

"Don't play Shanya..." he says aggravated. Well what the fuck ever then. I guess this is not the time to be childish.

"Yes Colin..." I say annoyed.

"I know that I've been an ass to you and haven't been giving you any attention and I've been so distant princess but-" But my ass. Don't call me princess. I'm not your princess.

I feel someone tap my shoulder and I look up to see some girl standing beside me.

"Colin, hold on..."

"How does it feel to be the side hoe? Congratulations on being a step mom to Colin Kaepernick's love child!" the girl said with a smirk and walked away.

I would go after this girl but I have no energy what so ever. I stare after her dumbfounded at what she just said.

"Shanya!" I hear Colin yell in my ear.

"What the hell Colin! Quit yelling in my ear." I reply. He gets on my nerves. I can't stand him right now.

"Sorry I just heard what that girl said..."

"Colin what have you done...You said the media wasn't gonna find out," I whisper into the phone. "You know what I swear to God..." I rush out while scrambling trying to get off the plane.

I am so fed up with him and this whole Corrine situation. He hardly talks to me, and when he does he's just so nonchalant and then he calls me out of the blue and acts all sweet, hell no.

"Where are you? I want to talk."

"Oh so now you want to talk to me. And don't worry about where I'm at..." I can't even form a complete sentence. He started to talk but I cut him off.

"Shanya just listen to me." No.

"Shut up Colin I do not like you right now."

"I love you?" Fuck you.

"I love me too." I say rolling my eyes.

"Okay smart ass."

"Don't start with me Colin. I gotta go."

"Wait I got somethin' I wanna tell you!" I don't care.

"Tell me later Colin."

"Shanya! Why are you so damn complicated? Shit..." I really don't wanna hear this.

"Me?! Complicated? I'll see you later."

"Wait, what so you mean you'll see me later," I heard him ask. I hang up the phone and make my way over to the ticket counter.

"When is the next flight to Miami?" I ask the lady at the desk.

* * *

I may or may not be pregnant, he does not want to play around with me. Who the hell does he think he is? Oh wait he's Colin Kaepernick so he thinks he has some type of privilege.

This flight is too damn long. I'm tired, nauseous, and people keep staring at me. I get on Safari and look up Colin's name on Google which was a big mistake.

All I see is "scandal", "baby momma", "cheater", etcetera.

I scroll down more and come to find out it's Corrine and she's supposedly in Miami. I literally cannot right now.

Apparently they were spotted at dinner and she was leaving his place and there were pictures of them around Miami. Okay I am so done right now.

Finally the damn plane lands and I call Crab and he immediately starts to apologize saying he didn't know anything about the whole baby momma drama. I get him to calm down and tell me Colin's address and room number cause I'm so close to killing him.

"Just go easy on my dog... For me?"

"Yeah whatever. I make no promises Crab." I say rolling my eyes.

I catch a cab and the cab driver freaks out like I'm Colin himself. I wanna go off at him but it's not his fault why I'm mad.

Soon we're on the way to his place and it's taking everything I have not to freak out. I texted Alyssa and she told me she saw everything and I catch her up to what's going on.

All too soon we are at his condo and I could make a scene but I'm not. I tell Alyssa I'll call her later and hang up.

Thank God paparazzi isn't out here. I thank the driver and I take a deep breath and head inside.

The man in the front desk immediately notices me and tells me Colin's room number and gives me a sympathetic smile. I try to smile back but it probably looks like a grimace. I don't give a care.

In the elevator I got this whole plan about how I'm gonna cuss him out and get all up in his face when I get to his condo.

Too soon I'm standing in front of his door and I'm low key scared to knock. Fuck I should have just went to Carolina. I get all scared and turn around to do just that. Coming here and cussing him out is not going to fix anything anyway.

As soon as I walk away I feel strong hands grip my waist and familiar fingers dig into my hips. Well I guess I can't run away now. I really try to though but I don't get anywhere.
I feel him let one hand go but the other just digs deeper into me and he pulls me tight against his body. I miss this so much...

"Don't even try to run away from me Shanya."

"Don't touch me Colin," I say pushing past him. "We need to talk."

He sighs and comes to sit on the table in front of me. "I know. We do," he says looking up at me. This is not gonna be good...