A Good Kind of Change

While Bae's Away

"Why is this happening?" I ask myself as I stare at my phone.

Of all the damn people to text me... Trayson does.

"What do you want?" I type but I erase it. I don't have time for this shit. I type just a plain "what..." and hit send. I immediately call Alyssa and tell her that Trayson texted me. We go through the whole what did he say, what did I say, and am I going to tell Colin. I should probably tell him but it's not the right time. It's nothing terrible it's just a bunch of bullshit honestly.

"How have you been Miss Shay :)" he texts back.

"Fine." I know after that I'm not getting a text back because he knows wassup.

I get comfortable in my bed and soon all of the memories come flooding back from a while ago. I try to fight them back but it's no use. Memories from way back then play behind my eyes and I fall to sleep trying to think of something else other than the past.

I dreamed I was in the 49er locker room in just Colin's jersey and he was sitting in front of me in just his football pants. He basically lunged at me and slammed me against the wall. We kissed frantically and he reached down and ripped my panties and threw them behind him. I reached between us and began to pull his pants down. I run my hands up and down his body. This man is perfect. Then we hear the door open and in walks Harbaugh. I look to my left and come face to face with an angry ass coach. Fuck.

I wake up to my ringing phone violating my sleep. I get over it when I see that it's Colin.

"Hello..." I mumble.

"Hey princess. I figured you were asleep when you didn't text me back earlier. But we're in Charlotte heading to the hotel now."

"Oh damn... I slept my whole life away." I say looking at the time.

"Yeah you did princess. Ain't hit me back within 10 minutes and I knew your ass was gone. Sleep well?"

"Yeah I guess. In my dream me and you were.... Never mind."

"We were what..." Colin asked in a deep voice.

"Shouldn't you be out with the boys or sum'n though?" I say trying to change the subject.

"Nooope! I should be on the phone with the princess." Colin fires back.

"Boy bye!"

"Nuh uh! Tell me!"

I gotta get him. "I'll show you when you come back to the West Coast daddy..." All I hear is him breathing on the line. I'm done.

"You lucky I'm in my room now baby doll..."

"Oh that's nice..." I say nonchalantly.

"You just wait until I get back. Ohhh you just wait." I laugh at him because I just love giving him a hard time. He laughs and I suddenly realize how much I miss him.

"I miss you!" I say trying to act all cool.

"I miss you too princess..." Colin said sounding all sad.

"Awww Colin are you sad?"

"Yes I am. I miss my pretty princess."

"Awww you'll be back tomorrow... I wish I could've went with you."

"As do I. ...I love you." I'm melting. We don't say it often, but when we do I literally die inside.

"I love you too." I hear the guys in the background and then Crabtree gets on the phone.

"Hey princess, tell ya boy to get off his ass and go out with us!"

"Crab! Put me on speaker."

"Aite."

"Hey Colin, get off ya ass and go chill with the guys. Get it together!" I hear the guys laugh on the other end and I'm pretty sure Colin is sitting there with the blankest face ever.

"Carolina how you gonna go against me like that? I thought we were on the same side."

"We are... Just stop bein' mopey and go out with the guys."

"When they take me to a strip club it's gonna be your fault."

"So help me God Colin Kaepernick if I find out you were at a damn strip club you wouldn't have to worry about the Panthers tomorrow or any other team because you will be in a fuckin' coma my nigga..." The boys are damn near howling right now.

"KAP! She got you on lock bruh. I'm glad cause yo ass was wild as hell before you met her!" I heard Anquan say.

"Oh really...?" I ask.

"Hell yeah! Have you seen who he follows on Twitter and Instagram?"

"Yes I have actually. My boy look thirsty as hell."

"Okay! Let's stop playing talk about Colin like he's not in the room." Colin interrupts.

"I'm sorry Colin. I luh you though." I say.

"Mhm. I luh you too bae" he said in the most ghetto voice ever. I'm done.

The guys are snickering on the other end at our craziness.

"Colin, seriously. Go out with the guys tonight. Do whatever y'all do, have fun. For real." I say honestly.

"Okay princess I will. I'll text you when I get back to the hotel."

"Alright. Just don't act up. Behave yourself Colin and don't let me find out you were at some damn strip club. Because you know I will."

He laughs and promises not to go to one.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow before the game. Have a good time okay?"

"I will." We say our goodbyes and hang up.

I hope he don't get into no shit tonight.

I go to the kitchen and hunt for food. I really need to go grocery shopping. I find spaghetti and quickly eat it cause I was damn near starving.

I go back to my room and I talk to my mom about life. We talk about how I'm living, my job, and Colin. She still can't believe that I'm actually in a relationship with him. I can't either sometimes. She wants me to come out to NC soon so she can meet Colin or she wants to come out here. She's not about this life so it's easier for us to go out there. I'd have to talk to Colin about that though.

I know I'm gonna be up all damn night because I slept all day. Dammit. I clean up a little bit and when it's basically spotless I lay back on my bed and look at my phone. I realize that it is only 8:30 so I get an idea and call my girl Mia.