Lost Girl, Lost Soul (SLOW UPDATES)

12.

Janet's POV

I landed in Atlanta and decided to head straight to Halle's apartment before going to my hotel. It's an early Saturday morning and I decided to use an off day to visit the girls. I don't get too many breaks when I'm touring but I have a few weeks left before it all ends.

Ever since I posted a few pictures of us on Instagram, the blogs and fans have become obsessed with Halle as the day goes on. It's been a few weeks and I don't see the blogs stopping their coverage of us anytime soon which makes me worried about Halle.

With all the focus being drawn on her, I feel like she's been pulling away from me and I don't like that. We've been making so much progress in a short amount of time, and I feel like therapy is the next step for our relationship to progress. Halle suggested it early on so it's time to act on it. I thought I made a breakthrough when she called me Mommy in New York but once she woke up, she went back to calling me JJ which confirms our need of therapy.

I've never visited her apartment before and I'm curious to see her living conditions. My driver parked and me and Joey got out. I want the girls to be safe now more than ever since all of the blogs are keeping eyes on them.

"Dang there's no elevators here?" I asked once I realized we'd have to walk up 3 flights of stairs.

"Just think of this as your workout for the day." Joey joked.

I rolled my eyes as we walked. The way this apartment complex is set up, the stairs and hallways are outside which means there's no barrier between the public and its tenants. Anyone could walk through the floors to access people and that spiked my nerves.

We made it to their floor and I knocked on their door. Ryan nor Halle knows that I was coming because I knew Halle probably would've made an excuse. I slyly asked about their off days this week and I lucked out on our days aligning.

It took some time since it was early but the door opened.

"JJ? What are you doing here?" Halle said surprised. She wore an oversized hoodie and gym shorts and had a bonnet on her head.

"Well good morning to you Halle. Can we come in?" I asked. She stepped aside as we walked in. Joey did a general sweep of the apartment before heading back outside.

"Are you surprised to see me?" I asked.

"Of course. Why didn't you tell me you were coming? I would've met you at your hotel." She said. I looked around their place and was impressed at how homey it felt. It was boho chic with a touch of modern but I'd be crazy to miss all the alcohol bottles neatly lined up at the top of their kitchen cabinets. I shook my head and looked around at the pictures hanging.

"If I told you I was coming, you probably would've avoided me like you've been doing for the past 3 weeks. Care to talk about what's going on with you? I'm really worried about you." I said. She looked down at her fingers and I made my way towards her.

"Can I give you a hug?" I asked. She nodded her head and I immediately engulfed her in the biggest hug. She nestled herself against me and wrapped her arms tightly around my waist.

"Do you feel like sharing what's going on or do you want to grab breakfast and talk it over?" I asked.

"Let's eat and then we can talk." She said. I laughed and kissed her forehead before letting her go so she can get dressed. I sat down on the couch once I heard the shower going and texted Joey the plan.

I liked a few fanpages on Instagram and responded to texts to pass time until Halle reappeared. She was dressed similar to me in a jumpsuit and her locs were neatly placed in a low bun.

"Ready to go?" I asked.

"Yes." She said. I stood up and walked out of the apartment as she locked up.

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Halle's POV

JJ brought me to a breakfast spot in the Buckhead area that I always wanted to try and we placed our orders with the waiter before she got down to business.

"So tell me, what's been going on with you that kept you from responding to my messages?" JJ asked. I sipped my drink before thinking about my answer. We were face to face in a booth towards the back of the restaurant.

"Honestly, it felt safest to avoid you because I felt like I was getting too attached to you. I felt like everything was going so good until the Instagram thing happened and even though it was my idea, I guess once it hit the fan to the public it got too real for me. I had thousands of people following me on social media and harassing me nonstop and it was too much to handle. And I felt like it wasn't fair to complain since I thought of the Instagram idea so in my mind it made sense to just avoid you altogether even though Ryan told me it was a stupid idea." I confessed.

JJ looked so sad as I explained why I've avoided her and that made me feel worse once I said it aloud.

"I'm so sorry you had to silently go through all the social media harassment but Halle, I'm not leaving you now that you're in my life. I know we have to get through a lot of my issues and your upbringing but I never want you to feel like you're a burden and can't express yourself. We've been making great progress getting to know one another and it crushed me when you stopped calling me. Knowing that you're okay is my top priority now so hearing you go through this alone crushes me." She said.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to disrupt everything you had going on tour with my problems." I said.

"Listen Halle, now that I know you're my daughter, I want you to disrupt every part of my life, do you hear me? I didn't know you for all of your life so I want to do my best making up for lost time as long as there's breath in my body. God has given me a second chance and I'm not going to fuck it up, I promise you that." She said.

For some reason, her words made me emotional and I tried blinking away the tears but that caused them to fall down more. The way she looked as she told me this made me believe every word she says because she hasn't failed me at all so far and I would hope that doesn't happen in the future. JJ got up to sit next to me and wrapped her arm around me.

"Oh honey, I'm so sorry you've had all these feelings bottled up inside but I'm here. Mama's here."