Atsumu's POV
On this special day, I am wearing a white suit and black tie. I don't exactly know how I look cause I just gelled and styled my hair on my own. Suna just said I looked kinda brighter than usual. Well, you can't really blame me... today is special, though excited, I walked down the aisle nervously.
Today is indeed special.
I kept my eyes upfront. I couldn't believe that it was happening right here, right now. The preparation was exceptionally exhausting yet exhilarating. I am very happy and thrilled with all of the things going on. I felt very delighted as this day comes nearer and nearer. I mean... who wouldn't, right?
I walked closer and closer, with the song playing in the background... Aaaah... I love this song..
I felt my eyes tearing up as I walked slower and eventually stopped as I carefully wiped the tears of joy running down my cheeks. I know I am smiling but my lips were trembling.
I'm getting really emotional!
Osamu walked beside me and encouraged me to continue walking. I did. I needed to.
And that's when our eyes met-- Kiyoomi, my Omi. I stared at him, completely bewitched again. I smiled at him and he smiled back. How could he become so handsome more and more each day?
I have been in love with him since the first time we saw each other. He's so beautiful but difficult to get along, yet I managed to be his friend. I could see him smile, and tell whether he's happy, sad, anxious, conscious, and every other emotion he might be displaying especially disgust.
When we became so close, I realized that I really love my spiker, I love Kiyoomi Sakusa..
This time, my tears blurred my vision again. I quickly brushed them off.
I have to stay focus!
Atsumu focus!! I kept telling myself.
When I tried to search for him, he's gone from his seat. Komori wasn't there as well... I want to look for him, but I can't just run off like that...
I could have just admitted before that I like Omi... that I love him... but knowing him, I'll probably just get rejected cause I know he'll never like me more than friends.
I could feel my feelings and regrets running with the tears flowing out of my eyes.
I could have just told Omi that I like him. I had too many opportunities I wasted... I could have... admitted it when we first met at the camp or when we entered the same university or when we joined the Black Jackals. Too many chances to confess, but I didn't. I run away. I thought, this is something that would eventually ruin our friendship so I just kept it to my unrequited heart. Damn it...
Why am I thinkin' like this? Today is my wedding day with my fiancé, and all I could think about is Omi!
When I reached the altar, Shinsuke was there, smiling brighter than the sun. There are like stars in his eyes, twinkling with joy and excitement.
When Kita-san admitted that he likes me, when I went back to Hyōgō one sunmer, I told myself... I probably should give myself a chance for love. And after a few months, he proposed to me, and all I could do is smile and say yes... even if it means I am pretending.
I thought it would be easy. I thought loving someone else is gonna be easypeasy for me since I like my senpai back when we were in High School.
But I soon realized that having a crush is different from loving someone.
I like Kita Shinsuke
But I love Kiyoomi Sakusa.
That's two different things.
I calmed myself down, and smiled at Shin as he smiled more. He's beautiful too but Omi--
Shit... Why am I still thinkin' of him?!
I want to see him. I wanna see Omi, so I turned my heads lightly and tried looking for him again. He wasn't around...
When the wedding vows were over, and we just kissed, I found Omi smiling bitterly at the side with Komori.
How could we say he was bitterly smiling? Well, he looks happy yet sad.. I don't know what to think of it, since I know Omi too much, I could tell that his eyes are full of sorrow right now.
It could have been him.
~The End~
