Mr. Mayhem and the Prolific Dreamers

If I Had One Wish

I hate wishing

I'd often wonder what it means to feel

Or express a strong hope or desire

For something that's not easily attainable

I'm even fearful of dreaming

Because what if that dream turns into a nightmare

And I become trapped like a genie in a bottle?

They always say at 11:11

Make a wish

Close your eyes

Throw a coin in the water

Make a wish

Pray and pray

Look at the north star

And make a wish

Wait!

How can I have my heart set on something I want

When it's not even the thing I need?

Shit, here I go in my feelings

Here I go laying this burden down on this stage

Here I am sounding like a broken record

Possibly trauma bonding in this entire poem

Looking to gain someone's sympathy and attention

Fuck it

If I had one wish

And no I'm not singing this like Ray J

I don't want this to be off key or be a key off of life

But my wish

Is to have a love that's deep

To be in love with someone who doesn't want to take their eyes off of me

I want a queen who will love faith in my body

And won't cheat on me

I've had my shares of misses

Those that I wanted to be more than friends with

Turned out to be gold digging bit...

Yeah, mama ain't raise me to call a girl that

But truth of the matter is that I want to know what it feels like

To have someone cradle my heart

Even on the days

When it seems like all the light has gone from the world

I want to be in love with a woman

Who isn't afraid to love me properly

I want to know what it feels like

To not be given up on

And maybe the future can begin

When we unwrap the world like it's a present

Burying the past

Moving towards what's ahead

Standing in love

Rather than falling in lust

If I had one wish

It would be for me to know how to love myself better

Instead of looking for people to pour into me

If I didn't put pressure

Or expect myself from others

I'd know how to stand on my two feet
Damn, That's the price for wishing right

Maybe I need to change that mentality

And talk to myself more boldly

This is where I know I can heal

In my poetry

Because wishing can be the best avenue

Of getting what I want

When I turn them into actions

So that my actions can move my wishes to the forefront

From thought to reality

So, I won't lose hope

I won't stop wishing or dreaming 

I affirm

I pray

And keep on believing

Knowing that wishes are real

Once I make them.