My eyes are always searching for you

Chapter 46

"We were really worried. Emily was crying the whole time." Alex continued as he picked up the apple from the side table and started peeling it.

Emily said, "How dare you Miss Sarah to get ill without my permission! I was so worried!" Her eyes were puffy which shows how much she has cried.

I said, "Aww." And hugged her. But then my aww changed into "Ouch" as my whole body was paining.

I looked around but couldn't find Minho. I waited but he never came to the hospital. The doctor told us that I can go home in the evening. I was relieved that Minho didn't come to see me as it will be really awkward after that date plus I am really hurt by what he did.  Maybe he didn't. He never said he liked me. It was me who was creating false scenarios in my mind. I can't seem to move on. I kept on expecting that he'll come but he didn't.

I realized that I need to tell him that I like him and then he'll reject me and I'll get over my feelings for him. Simple.

'Simple my foot' said my inner voice. First of all, you don't have the courage to tell him that. Secondly, he may pretend that he doesn't have a girlfriend and may play with your heart.
But I know he has a girlfriend. I'll tell him that and then I'll tell him that I'll get over you so he doesn't need to bother. I argued with my inner voice who was skeptical of the whole idea. But I was determined.

Yes. I can do this. I'll tell him when I'll reach home. That whole day Emily was glued to me and took care of me. Alex must be feeling lonely. Hehe.

After the discharge, when we reached home, Minho wasn't in the hall. I thought maybe he is busy with his meetings and will soon return home. I was wondering when will he come back as I stared at the empty sofa. Just then Alex said, "Oh I forgot to tell you, Sarah, Minho went back to Korea this morning."

My heart dropped to the deepest level it could fall. "What?" I exclaimed.  Just like that? He went back to Korea? Why? Was he hurt because I left him alone? Did I hurt his Ego? He didn't even bother to meet me last time? Or even say Goodbye?

Why would he? I was the one who left him. But he has someone else. I am no one. That last sentence pricked my heart.

I felt dizzy as I tried to walk back to my room. Alex ran to support me as I stumbled a bit. He called Emily and She helped me get to my room. She helped me onto my bed and sat by my side.

"I am going to stay with her today." She commanded Alex.

Alex knew it already and nodded his head in approval.

Emily brought my dinner to my room. I sat up and ate it quietly. I felt numb. Can't really understand what to feel right now? Am I sad because he left? Am I sad because he felt that he could have his way even when he has his girlfriend? Am I sad that I can't move on? I don't know anymore.

I sighed as that's all I could get out of my mouth. After I finished my bowl of porridge I stared at the wall as I wondered what really happened.

Emily hugged me suddenly as she said, "What the hell happened Sarah? Why the hell you were sick this morning? Didn't you come back with Minho yesterday? Why the hell did Minho ask us not to bother when he left? Will you explain please?"

"One minute? What did Minho say?" I quickly asked as Minho's name brought me back to my senses.

Emily explained, "So when we woke up this morning, Minho had already packed his bag. He had made some breakfast for us and said he has already eaten. He explained that his work here is almost complete and there is some important matter that he needs to deal with in Korea so he will return before Alex. I asked him to wait as I wanted to wake you up so that you can say goodbye to him but he strictly asked us not to bother you. I didn't really understand that." She put the tray from my lap, on the side table and sat beside me covering her legs with my blanket.

She continued, "I thought maybe you two fought last night as he looked really sad. After he left I went to your room as I was actually worried about you. I knew you would be heartbroken as you really liked Minho. But when I went to your room. Your whole body was burning and you were unconscious! Alex helped me to take you to the ambulance. I was really scared, Sarah!" She hugged me again.

"Okay this was my side of story, now it's your turn. What the hell happened Sarah? On that date?"
She continued as she stared at me.

I sighed. I said, "I don't know Emily! I don't know! One moment I was dancing with happiness as he wanted to kiss me the other moment everything shattered!" Tears rolled down my cheeks.
I hugged Emily as I told her everything while sobbing.

By the end of my story, we both were sobbing. Just then Alex came in as he said, "I have made some noodles, do you guys-" he stopped in the middle as he saw both of us sniffing our noses and trying to cover our tears. He quickly went back as he said, "Oh no wrong timing!"  and closed the door.

A little while later the door opened a bit and a tissue paper was pushed in on the floor and then the door was closed again. Emily stood up and brought the tissue paper box to me. It had a note on it "Be strong and have some noodles. I have put them outside your room. I won't disturb you two after this. Cry your heart out."  And a Smiley emoji.

He was cute. I giggled as I said, "He is cute."
Emily giggled too and said, "I know. He is the love of my life."

I became sad as I heard the word, Love. Emily shook me hard as she said, "Do you want me to kick that Minho's-" I closed her mouth with my hand as I said, "Language Emily."

She removed my hand and continued, "okay, but I really want to grab his hair and drab him here so that he can apologize! Who is he to break your heart huh! Just wait I'll go back to Korea with Alex and then I'll.... I'll make his life hell. He will beg you for his life. Just wait Sarah" She stood up on the bed as she declared the death penalty on Minho.

I started laughing at her dramatic speech. She sat back and said, "Sarah, there is something you need to know. I don't know what you actually heard. But don't think that he left because you left that date early. Don't feel guilty about it. I know you. You must be feeling that he left Japan because you broke his heart. That's not true. Alex actually told me that Minho got the call from his office after we discussed your date at the breakfast table. He was asked to come back yesterday evening due to some emergency and tickets were actually available. But he said he'll go back the next morning. Maybe that date was important to him that's why he pushed his return to the next morning. Maybe he is not that bad. Maybe there is some misunderstanding."

I closed my ears with both my hands as I shouted, "No Emily. No! Don't give me false hope. I am never going to meet him again.
Please let's end this nightmare here."

She sighed as she said, "Okay. Let's just forget about him."

Author's note: Should Sarah forget about him? Maybe there is someone better for her? maybe Minho will never come back? maybe Author will never post.  No one knows the future.
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