you know that thing you said
a few days ago when we were
reading a book together
I picked up on a subtle detail
and you told me I was way too observant
I think about it a lot
because maybe I notice the wrong things
you said I'd notice a small book detail
over noticing something about you
and maybe this means I've neglected you
you know the face you made
a few weeks ago when we tried
tasting this new dish I cooked
you told me you loved it
but your face held other opinions
I think about it a lot
because maybe I'm too emotional
forcing you to say you like something
and not allowing you to feel like
you can be honest
you know the way you smiled
over a month ago when we were
at the mall and I was trying on a dress
you looked up for three seconds and smiled
then looked right back down at your phone
I think about it a lot
because maybe I'm too demanding
unnecessarily taking up your attention
when you have more important things
that require your focus
you know the compliment you said
some months ago when we were
deciding what colors to paint our room
you said I should quit and change careers
that I'd be better off as an interior decorator
I think about it a lot
it was a joke and you were laughing
I laughed too, but I couldn't help but think
that this might mean I was bad at my job
and secretly this was you telling me
it's so trivial, that's what I tell myself
yet I repeat and replay the scenes in my head
thinking about it a million different times
because maybe it was a message
your true words peeking through
maybe you broke your facade by accident
and let your true thoughts slip by
and it might be proof that I'm overbearing
that deep down there are so many things
you probably don't even like about me
YOU ARE READING
The Things I Never Said
PoetryA series of poems that follow the theme of things I've never said aloud. There are the things I think about late at night when I reflect on my day and the things that go on in my life. I have many thoughts on my mind, I have a lot of conversations w...
