The Lovable Jerk (boyxboy)

Chapter 25

Arlo

My eyes fluttered open, immediately squinting due to the room's brightness. I tried sitting up but felt a grip on my wrist and sighed when I saw Westin sleeping close to my lap with a tight grip on my wrist. I let my eyes roam around and I noticed we were at the hospital and Tobias was sleeping on a couch only a few inches away from my bed.

The room was relatively big, I have never been to one so movie-like. It looked like the kind rich people would get admitted to. I was not really sure if I was going to afford all this.

Great. Another thing to add to my crappy life.

"I got some leftovers from your dad, he said-- Arlo." Callen paused at the door. It would have been more dramatic if he had dropped the food in his hands but he had a firm grip just like Westin did with my wrist.

I put a finger on my lips gesturing for him to be silent since everyone apart from myself and him sleeping. He nodded grabbing a chair next to Westin, staring at Westin for about a minute before sitting opposite side to where he was sitting, which is to my right.

"Finally he fell asleep." He murmured, opening his lunchbox, showcasing the lasagne Jeremy made, I was guessing.

What did he mean he finally fell asleep? Did Westin spend the whole night here...awake because he was worried about me? I already felt like shit about Tobias now Westin was included too. This was the last thing he needed after what happened to Riley... I didn't want to be the reason he closed himself further off. I'm a terrible person.

"I'm sorry." I sniffed, rubbing my nose avoiding the fact that I was crying. "I didn't mean to..." I paused looking around the room.

Anywhere but his eyes.

"Didn't mean to what? Have a shitty life? Forget it, Arlo... I'm just glad you didn't end it." He said then I heard him chewing, he started eating.

"You should be angry at me...After what happened with Riley, I should have been more considerate--"

"I could but you already seem to be punishing yourself...for something that isn't your fault if I might add." I looked up at Callen and he met my eyes, I could tell he was being genuine and there was no hit of anger.

Callen continued eating, leaving me alone with my thoughts. Yes, I was punishing myself, I still couldn't believe what was going to do yesterday. I never thought I would get suicidal. But I wanted to end my pain and the only way I saw fit was suicide but that didn't work, though.

That pissed me off, to be frank, but a part of me was glad I didn't die. I wanted to live for Tobias and myself. I wanted to be stronger or at least try to be.

"Yeah." I sighed the exact moment Finn walked in and as soon as he saw me his mouth lifted into a huge smile, he quickly approached me attempting to hug me until he noticed Westin asleep and Callen sitting next to me.

"Hey." He backed away a little and smiled at me.

"Hey, how are you?" I asked smiling back.

"I should be asking you that...I can't believe you did that last night...God Arlo you--"

My eyes grew wide. I didn't think about how he'd react to me almost killing myself it felt like this was going to drastically change our friendship. I honestly was not ready for his reaction.

"I'm really sorry if I scared you..."

"Scared? No, you terrified me...you disappeared after that call, and the next thing Toby got a call from the hospital saying you've been admitted...Arlo, what the hell happened yesterday?" He asked, looking concerned and I couldn't help but feel terrible for making him worry.