LOVER |c.t.h|

SIXTEEN|EMERY|

Oh hey.. How are my lovers<3

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EMERY POV:

OCTOBER 22ND - 5:30PM:

I got done writing around 5 and decided to lay in bed for a while. I needed to process some things before I could talk to Calum, things were still rocky and he hadn't texted me all day. I was not going to be the first to break.

My phone rang as I scrolled through Instagram, it was Ashton.

"Hey there sugar!" He greets me in a cheerful tone.

"Hey Ash," I wasn't nearly as cheerful and he could definitely tell.

"Luke and I have nothing to do, what to hang out?" He asks.

I take a minute to think. This would actually be perfect. "Hold on."

I get out of bed and start rummaging around my room. I pick up a gray hoodie from Carson that was on the floor and make my way back into the studio where I pick up a notebook that I used to journal all my old shitty feelings in, then I go to my jewelry box and grab a small silver ring that was gifted to me by Carson and a dainty gold necklace my father had given me as a 'I'm sorry I screamed and made you feel like shit' gift.

"Pick me up?" I ask.

"Be there in 5!"

"See you soon!"

I hang up and toss everything into my backpack, then I slide on some sweats and Calum's 5SOS hoodie he gave me a while back. I had the best idea for letting go, this was going to show Calum and Amberetta that I was doing good. I can do this.

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"Where we headed?" Ashton asks.

"Pick a beach." I tell him.

It was later in the day, beaches would be less crowded and I could do my letting go in peace.

"You sound happier than you did on the phone," Luke says as he looks back at me.

I smile softly. "I have a little project that was asked of me."

We pull up to the beach and I see that the crowds are dying out. I didn't waste time in getting out of the car and trailing down to the beach. The boys were close behind me because I could hear them talking back and forth.

"Here," I stop at a fire pit.

"What are we doing here?" Luke asked.

"I started going to therapy, I don't wanna talk about it but this is a part of my healing journey." I briefly explain.

"A fire pit?" Luke furrows his brows.

"No silly, this." I dump out all the shit out of my bag, watching it all scatter around me.

Ashton and Luke look at each other and then back at me, "Are you burning those things?" Ashton asks.

I nod and take the matches from my hoodie pocket. I picked up item number one.

"This notebook is something that holds many negative memories, I mean that's literally its whole purpose." I strike a match and hold it to the corner of the notebook, watching it catch fire. I toss it in the fire pit.

Their eyes watch as the flaming book gets tossed. I think they might think I am crazy. "So what exactly is your mission?" Luke asks.

"I have to get rid of 10 things that have a negative effect on me, so far I have gotten rid of 4 things, well 5 now because I set that on fire." I shrug.