A guy in a band falls for a girl in a band... well when you put it that way it sounds cheesy.
let me tell ya how it went down...
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Story contains the following:
Smut
Strong language
Self Harm
BDD
Suicidal thoughts
AND MORE read 'Please read'...
This isn't too heavily based on anything related to me, the boyfriend parts are, my first love was a big piece of shit, lmao! (I laugh at it now because looking back, I cried over a man who looked like Gru from the minion's movie...)
TW: Talk of toxic relationship/verbal abuse!
WORD COUNT:1562
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EMERY POV:
OCTOBER 22ND - 8:30AM
I couldn't quite grasp what I was looking at when it first came up on my feed. It was shocking but it also hurt. I never thought he could be this hurtful, not to me at least.
But there it was and it was real.
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I can't even comprehend this right now. I would never talk shit about him on the internet. Even if you don't consider this as shit talking, it was as close as Calum got to it. He isn't a mean person so I wasn't understanding where this was coming from.
"Girl," Nadia burst through my door. "What is Calum on about?"
She sits at the end of my bed, Milo running right up to her. There was a lot of explaining to do and lucky enough for me, we had all the time in the world.
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"Well I'm happy you're going to therapy but hun," she shakes her head. "You have no idea that this is about you and besides, I would barely call it shit talking."
"You don't get it." I shake my head.
"I would call this petty, it still sucks but it can't be called shit talking."
"Whatever it is, I would never do this to him, ever." I was angry, my blood boiling.
"Take a breath, you have to talk to him before you go accusing him of talking bad about you." She grabs my hands. "He is a famous man with lots of friends, this could be about literally anyone."
I stare at her with a blank expression. "Did you hear anything I just told you?"
"I love you, remember that." She takes a deep breath. "Not everything is always about you." She cracks a smile and gives me a big hug. "And if this is about you, then fuck him."
Nadia is my best friend for a reason. She doesn't let shit get too serious and she is always there when I need her. She is the perfect friend. What she said wasn't meant to be mean, it was meant to make me feel better and I know that.
"Just don't let that pretty little head of yours over think, you are worth too much to let any man get to you."
This wasn't just some man, this was Calum Hood and he was getting to me. I am so angry right now, it's crazy. Nadia was only 20% right, this could be about anyone but there was a big part in me that made me think it was about me and our little conversation yesterday. I mean come on, the wording alone is crazy.
