Polynatural-Book 1

Chapter 36

A pang grips my chest and my heart seems to just stop beating. Time seems to wear on as I stand there stunned, dumbfounded.  My vision starts to blur as I see the back of Parker stray farther and farther away. I didn't want to believe that what we had was really over. Deep down I knew it was, yet a part of me had so strongly hoped that it wasn't. I'm foolish. I feel so...normal, so human...

"Let's get out of here," Brody states and grabs my hand, leading me to his car.

With my free hand, I wipe away the beginnings of a few tears. It isn't like me to cry, but I've never felt like this. It feels worse than failing a mission. I place my hand over my chest and squeeze out the remaining tears. My heart...it hurts. It hurts so bad. 

On the way home, I sit in Brody's car, staring blankly out the window. My whole body feels numb and my eyes wander aimlessly at the horizon, looking at nothing particular, but dazed in the myriad of confusing thoughts and emotions. I feel like a broken doll, slumped in some corner of the room...empty, tired, and most of all, broken. Brody reaches over and gives my hand a comforting squeeze. I pull away.

"I'm sorry," he mutters and shies away his hand.

"It's fine." I say with a stone hard face, still fixated outside the window.

Silence prolongs. Brody continuously glances over at me, opening and closing his mouth, trying to say something comforting, or anything to rid the air of the awkward tension between us.

"What is it about him that makes you like this?" He blurts out almost angrily. 

I turn and look to him with the same stone hard expression. His brows furrow into a little crinkle and his hands seem to be gripping the wheel too tightly. "I don't know. I ask myself the same thing. I shouldn't even care for him. Honestly, he ruined my childhood. I only took this mission so I could get back at him for taking my mother. But, then as I got to know him, I realized that he isn't what I thought he would be like. I can't explain it. Something about being with him feels right..."

I grew up learning that the Smiths are bad people. They use their abilities for violence and chaos. More reason as to why I shouldn't develop feelings for Parker. But there's this feeling when I'm with him, this feeling that I just can shake. I don't feel scared, hurt, or angry. I feel like me and him are the same...that we understand each other. Our pasts are similar, our powers are similar, and we've just faced the same struggles. Both of us have felt alone and like outsiders. We connect in ways I've never with anyone else before. I question if it is my naivety and inexperience that makes me so confused and at an utter loss of rational and reason. 

"Forget him Lacey, you didn't know him for that long anyways. I don't even understand how you fell for him that quick. But I guess I shouldn't be surprised. The other girls in our school are the same way." He spoke with bitterness and a twinge of jealousy.

I flicker my eyes to him, a little offended for comparing me to the other girls at our school. Brody does have a point...I am fawning over him like all those other humans...disgusting. Have I succumbed to that?

"It's not like that exactly...You know how when we met we felt that connection? I guess it was like that for me and Parker. I'm not sure how to explain it. How can something so right be so wrong? It almost feels like me and him belong together.

"No, we belong together." He spoke with emphasis on the "we".

Maybe Brody is right. The purpose of my birth is to help out with Divames race and Brody is my life mate. My future is practically planned for me. I mean Brody isn't a bad guy. Yeah sure he was terrifying at first but he's shown me that he really does care for me.