Happy To Die

Chapter 21

The drive home felt like we were miles away, Changkyun and I stayed silent despair consistently playing in our heads, none of this was fair, it made me wonder if we were truly meant to be. Constantly being torn away from two men that I cared deeply for. I didn't know going to Dubai would mean I started sleeping with the enemy, that I would enjoy sleeping with the enemy on top of it all.

"Baby, he knows where my father is...if he is connected to him, I need you to distract him, make him fall in love with you...I need you to do this. My father is a threat to any of our future children. "I could hear the pain in his voice, my heart broke at the thought of being away from him.

"Pull over right now..." Changkyun looked over at me, worry written on his face, pulling over to the side of the road.

"What's the matter?" Changkyun placed his hand on my thigh, I slipped off my panties, moving my fingers up my thighs spreading my legs. Changkyuns eyes grew dark, watching my digits slip under my dress, his hands pushed up the fabric of my dress, biting his lip.

"I will make a deal with you... I take out this birth control...I am ovulating, you fuck me whenever I ask...and I will do this job." Changkyun unbuckled his seat belt.

"You never have to ask..." I didn't know what would come with a baby, I did know that I no longer wanted to be someone else's pawn. Karly had shown me a little trick a long time ago to get the birth control out, if started to bother me, I had never been more thankful than I have now. I felt the tiny piece fall into my hand, tossing it in my purse.

"I need you..." I whispered vulnerably into his lips, climbing onto his lap, Changkyuns unzipped his pants, pulling his cock out, stroking it slowly, as our lips met one another, he placed his hand on my hip, guiding our bodies together.

"Fuck..." I gasped, his length pushing completely into my entrance, Changkyun unzipped the back of my dress, pulling the fabric down to hips.

"This is your last undercover job..." Changkyun groaned as her bodies moved with each other's, his hands worshipped my curves, as our lips intertwined, our hunger continuously growing, sex with Changkyun seemed to never end, the aroma of our desire, spread through the car. "You couldn't wait until, I ran your bath water..." Changkyun grunted breathlessly, as we both hit our release. "Oh, we are still taking that bath, we aren't finished." Changkyun kissed my lips gently, slowly pulling out of my entrance. "Let's go home...we have a family to create." We stayed true to our word that night, and every night before I had to pretend, I didn't love my fiancé.

Time Lapse: 2 weeks

"Haven please stop giving me the silent treatment, I'm sorry I brought you with me on that job for a vacation, I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Karly whined, I wasn't upset with her, I had other things I had to focus on.

"Karly, I don't intend on staying on this job...I will get what I can, but I have my own plan." Karly's brows furrowed, wanting to ask what I meant, but she knew I wasn't going to tell her. The truth was I could feel my period coming, I wasn't pregnant, maybe it was for the best that I wasn't yet, creating a life on personal gain didn't sit right with me, but that wasn't going to stop me from trying. I knew that in my life, in this life I would eventually have a child with both men I loved, I couldn't explain how I knew, I only understood our love for one another. Dohwan was not on that list, I knew the pills he gave me would take control, I knew it would counteract any fertility. I simply wanted to try to get pregnant to avoid detoxing my body, to become fertile again.

"Karly, I am going to find out how he makes his money, I have a theory, but I need you to keep me stable, along the way." Karly knew I was pulling her in on this job, because it was hers to begin with.