Happy To Die

Chapter 34

Karly and I were in the library when the staff walked in with Juho, Juho gave me the warmest hug. He looked so happy. The staff glared at Karly, Juho had his hands on my stomach, staring at Karly, confused on what provoked the staff to say something snarky. No one disrespected Karly, I don't know what happened after that, I snapped. Karly took me into the kitchen, watching me mentally come back to her. Karly continued cleaning blood off me. Blood? Was it mine? I looked around the room I seen my family staring at me.

"You really fucked the girl up Haven." Jay chuckled. I didn't understand what he was talking about.

"My plan would work, my sister just proved she's capable of fighting." Karly side eyed Jungkook, snapping on him herself.

"Jeon Jungkook just because she can, doesn't me she should!" Karly brushed her lips against my cheek. "Princess if that's how you make someone apologize to me, do it with little less clothes on." She giggled kissing my cheek.

"Babe, you haven't teased me like that in a long time." Yoongi chuckled.

"My Mafia Princess..." she grinned cleaning the rest of the blood off me.

"What happened?" I looked around confused. Namjoon shook his head, Changkyun looked at me like he wanted to take me right then and there. I bit my lip looking away from him. Karly smirked wrapping her arms around me.

"You have a bad temper, that is what happened." My father walked in, smiling proudly, His eyes went to Changkyun and Namjoon "You keep looking at my daughter like that, I'm going to have to make you both leave the room," Changkyun smirked, sliding his hand into his pocket, Namjoon shrugged not caring. Italy was getting closer and closer.

I dropped Dae off at Changkyuns house, our son pulled me into Changkyuns house, I didn't plan on staying long, but I was curious what his house looked like.

"Daddy! We are home!" Dae squealed running into his father's arms, hiding my smile, I loved tender moments like this.

"I bought you a new toy, do you want to go play with it, while I talk to your mother?" Dae jumped out of his father's arms running into his bedroom.

I walked into the living room, Changkyun had pictures of Dae and in Paris, I combed my fingers through my hair. Realizing he was in Paris the entire time I was there, and he didn't even try to call me. I felt hurt, angry, disappointed, but looking back I wouldn't have given him the chance to speak to me.

"This was in Paris." Changkyun stood next to me.

"Yes." He kept his answer short.

"You didn't think to come see us?" I turned towards him, crossing my arms.

"I was nervous, so I watched you, I also had an agreement with my father at the time. As much as I wanted to be there, to have you back in my life, I couldn't risk it. "I sat down on his sofa, observing the room.

"I expected Namjoon to be there for you, I was counting on that. I knew with him around you would always be safe, I didn't expect you to agree to have his child." I was going to interrupt him, but he stopped me.

"I had to look back on why you would have agreed to being this committed to him. He makes you feel safe, you can count on him. I want to be that for you. I understand Namjoon's perspective. He learned how to be a great boyfriend, because you gave him the chance to be yours. He learned how to bond with children because you allowed our son to rely on him. You gave him a view of what it would be like to have a family, to be a husband. To him you are the perfect partner. You work together, you are close friends, so this was a natural step for him to want to have this kind of life. Maybe if I never entered the picture when we were younger, it would have been you and him. That's not what this is though." I smiled; he understood where we were coming from, but Changkyun was wrong, I didn't show Namjoon anything, he trusted his own instincts, he himself was great without me, I only had the benefit of being with him.

"Does our daughter change how you feel about me?" I placed my hand on my stomach, Changkyun bent down in front of me kissing my stomach.

"No, it makes me love you more, I selfishly wish it was my baby inside of you." Changkyun chuckled, shaking his head.

"Do you want more children?" I stared at him curiously, I didn't know if I even cared if he did or didn't want any more children.

"Haven, I would love one more child from you, but if you don't want any more children, I understand loving Dae is more than enough." I pulled his arm closer towards me, gesturing for him to sit on the sofa.

"Here is what's going to happen tonight, I am hungry we are ordering pizza, we will watch a movie with our son, and when it's time for bed. We will tuck him in, and I will leave." He smiled, leaning towards me.

"I would love that." I kissed his cheek, while he ordered our food. We ate as a family, watching Daes favorite movie Spider-Man. We laughed watching him pretend to shoot webs out of his hands. When it was time for bed, Dae finally had his first peaceful night's sleep, it was time for me to leave, Changkyun walked me to the door. The look in his eyes told me he didn't want me to leave, but he knew it was too soon. I gave him a hug, before walking away, tonight was perfect, I was happy we had a night together as a family. I had my hand on the door of my car as Changkyun stopped me.

"Haven..." Changkyuns eyes were vulnerable; he didn't want me to leave, I didn't want to leave, but I had too.

"Tonight was..." I looked up at him, blushing shyly.

"Perfect..." Changkyun whispered, before we kissed, my back hit my car door, our bodies were melting into one another's, his lips on mine was all I wanted in that moment.

"Stay with me tonight..." he whispered against my lips, I shook my head, slowly pulling away from him.

"Not tonight...our son needs his father right now." Changkyun grinned.

"I need my wife... my wife needs me." He murmured into neck.

"Our needs aren't as important as our sons needs Changkyun..." Changkyun smirked the moment his name escaped my lips. Changkyun opened the door to my backseat, keeping my body close to his.

"If you aren't ready to be in my bed, then I will take care of your needs in the car." Before I could stop him, Changkyun felt my body giving in. We spent time together in the back of my car, having him this close to me felt like he never left us.