Shadows from the Past - Book 2 of To Be Claimed By Her

Chapter 36

Eveleen

Red! I screamed in my mind, struggling and pushing them both away. My shadows swirled as my screams became audible.

"Breathe, Eveleen," I heard North's deep voice saying over and over again. "You are safe, Queen. No one is going to do anything you don't want. Just breathe, baby." I felt his arms around me and began sobbing.

"I...I'm sorry," I cried. "I'm so sorry." He held me tightly as his body rocked me like a small child.

Owen gripped my hands, "Tesoro, you have nothing to apologize for. You did nothing wrong. Our choices were taken from us. We still love you, just as you still love me despite what happened."

I looked into his eyes, which were once again grey, and nodded. "I just...something clicked and I...I remembered something Erebus had done and I panicked.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Gabriel asked. I nodded and let out a shaky breath.

"Some things happened only in dreams while Deimos had me in the sleep spell, but others were after he woke me. Erebus became angry that Deimos had started to actually care for me. He felt cheated out of his revenge so he pushed Deimos's incubus side until he lost control. He did it twice, both times while I was under a spell like the one from the biker bar."

"Wait, you mean Deimos had you acting like a cat?" North gaped. "What the fuck?"

I hid my face, "It was actually helpful. He pushed my humanity so far down that I wasn't scared anymore. It was like an escape really, and he knew it. Yes, we had sex, but he never tried to abuse me when I was under the spell, he actually protected me from Erebus and the girls until one time I wandered off. That's when Erebus cornered me and forced me to do things. He had put his shadow into me when I was still in the sleep spell and used it to compel me. Then when Deimos caught him, he threatened to turn me unless Deimos let him finish."

"Fuck," Gabriel muttered. "I swear I'm going to kill them both."

"It wasn't his fault," I said quickly. "Deimos tried to resist and he even felt horrible afterward. Erebus knew his incubus wouldn't be able to resist once he triggered my desire using the shadows.

"Is that what happened the night I came for you? Did Erebus trigger his incubus again?" Victor asked. I nodded, not saying anything. "Deimos woke up after Morpheus and I took you. He cried out begging you not to leave and to forgive him."

"He...he spoke to me before you woke me. He said he was glad I got away and hoped I was safe. I could see that Erebus had imprisoned him, but I wasn't really sure if it was just a dream," I said.

"Jewel, I know you feel like he protected you, but I need you to remember that it was Deimos who put all of this into motion. His motives were not and are not pure," Victor said.

I cringed. I knew he was telling the truth, but I still felt a pull to Deimos. I didn't answer, only nodding.

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After what seemed to be an endless amount of hours, Victor had declared we all needed rest. He'd transported all of us somewhere in Northern Europe and we had settled into a large room for the night, none of us being willing to sleep away from one another.

My sleep was restless as I tossed and turned until I finally found darkness behind my eyelids.

Pet, I heard his voice call to me and shot up blinking my eyes rapidly.

Where am I? The room and my husbands were once again gone. Yet, I couldn't see anything other than emptiness.

Pet, can you hear me? His voice sounded so broken, so alone.