My Fault

Everything was a mistake.

One week later:
'Look, I just wanted to say that I've given it a lot of time, and I feel like... everything was a mistake.' I look at Gabriel.

'Huh?' Gabriel widens his eyes.

'Yeah. I just feel like it was a... I don't know if I would call it a phase. But I just... I don't want to continue doing what we've been doing.' I explain.

'How comes you're only saying this now, though? I don't understand.' Gabriel looks me in the eyes.

'Because I've genuinely thought about it...' I get cut off.

'You genuinely thought about it because Eva is putting stuff into your brain, right?' Gabriel speaks over me.

'Can I.. can I finish?' I speak.

'Please.' Gabriel gestures with his hands.

'It's not about Eva saying anything first of all.' I speak.

'But then why?' Gabriel asks. 'You're coming here...'

'Let me speak and I'll tell you. Stop talking over me.' I roll my eyes.

'Nah nah nah. You're coming here telling me 'oh I don't want to continue anything'. Who started it in the first place, Kristen?' Gabriel starts getting defensive.

'I don't know why you're raising your voice at me, first of all. It's not about x or z saying anything...' I get cut off again.

'Yeah but it is though. Cause if it wasn't, we wouldn't be having this conversation right now.' Gabriel flaps his arms around.

'Can you just let me finish one sentence? You're not hearing me, Gabriel.' I start speaking louder.

'Nah. Cause I'm not gonna have that. I'm not here, whenever you feel like you want me to be. Cause if that's what you're on, then you're talking to the wrong person.'

'If you would let me finish a fucking sentence, you'd understand what the fuck I'm trying to say here. But you're constantly talking over me, Gabriel. You're constantly speaking when I start to speak.' I gesture with my hands.

'Okay okay. I'm sorry. Go on, my gorgeous Kristen.' Gabriel sarcastically speaks.

'I'm telling you to understand that what decision and conclusion I have come to, was purely my own. And I didn't listen to anyone. It was strictly off of my head. And heart. And what I felt. End of.' I explain.

'Okay. You... you can do that. But I'm letting you know now, that you do that... there's no coming back here.' Gabriel looks at me.

'What are you talking about?' I take a sip of my water.

'What I just said. You make stupid decisions like that, then there's no coming back here. And that's me being generous.' Gabriel looks into my eyes.

I ignore him and walk out the front door.

'Pfff.' Gabriel leans his head back and sighs.