Sadie, Someday...

Prologue

A/N ~ I thought I was going on a break for a little while but I got inspired. By the song to the side in fact, which is entitled "Bulls In The Bronx" by Pierce the Veil. If anything, please check out the lyrics if the music isn't your taste. It will be somewhat of an insight as to what this will be about! & It goes along to the letter you're about to read as well. I'm in love with this already, with so many ideas coming all at once. I will advise you, it gets pretty deep into certain situations that are not to be taken lightly. They include topics that hit pretty close to home for me & I've wanted to touch base on them for a while now. But, as per usual when it comes to me, lots of romance included (: I hope you guys like it & thank you for reading! (:

Prologue

Caden,

When I close my eyes, it’s all I see. The promise of serenity and perfect clouds. Blue skies surround me, the expansions seem like they’re calling to me. Maybe this was the ultimate goal, to reach something I’ve never received. I didn’t think you would understand if I said this to your face. You would try to stop me. And I just couldn’t risk you ruining it for me. I just want the noise to falter and I want the voices to stop. I’m giving into them, the voices. This is what they’ve told me would solve it all. How else do you make them stop?

You’ll make some girl far different from me so happy one day. You were never persistent, but never quiet. For years, you were a safe place to fall. But that place to fall just wasn’t enough. You can’t blame yourself. Please don’t do that, Caden. What else could you have done? You couldn’t stop them. You couldn’t shut them up. But you did what no one else would bother to do…you helped keep me alive. You and Mason proved to me that sometimes there were reasons to stick around.

But I can’t pretend like they don’t exist anymore. The people whose mouths wouldn’t stop moving, the fingers pointing in my direction, the laughter and the jokes, and the constant reminder that who I am…who I was built to be…was not strong enough to hold it all together. You were built to make people laugh, smile, and see the brighter side of life. I was just far too cynical to see the truth behind your eyes.

This was left here to thank you. Without you, I wouldn’t have been able to experience the beauty in things I hadn’t known existed before. You made the worst days become the best. But the best to me wasn’t good enough. It wasn’t your fault, it was my own. I’m sorry that I had to leave things like this. I’m sorry I couldn’t kiss you properly goodbye and touch you for one last time. But I’m on my own journey now. I’m on the road to a brighter light and a life without feeling so low.

I found a song…a song that seems to explain it all. Place the disk in the player and close your eyes. Maybe then you’ll understand.

Maybe I’ll see you someday in that place of brighter days.

Love, Sadie