Sadie, Someday...

Chapter 11 - Demons Never Fade

Chapter 11
Demons Never Fade

“I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone, I long for that feeling to not feel at all, The higher I get, the lower I'll sink, I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.” ~ Can You Feel My Heart? – Bring Me The Horizon

“Caden!” I pounded on his bedroom door with a hard fist. “Caden, open up!” I called again, hanging my forehead against the wooden door.

His parents weren’t home, probably off on another one of their ‘business trips’ that they never bothered to include Caden in. They ventured off to islands like the Bahamas and Hawaii, never once thinking it would be a good idea for Cade to get out of his own head space once in a while. So here I was, internally freaking out outside of Caden’s bedroom door with nothing but a single click of the air conditioner filling my ears.

“Please,” I breathed, finally letting my voice drop as the thoughts of what he could be doing behind that door kicked in. He was known to drown in his own head sometimes, which is how he knew what it felt like when my thoughts overpowered my heart. “You have to listen to me, Cade. This-”

The door swung open in my face, revealing a red-eyed and somber looking boy. My words somehow caught themselves in the midst of a sentence, stuck in the bottom of my throat without an escape. I just stood there, gaping like an idiot without a single word in edge-wise. He opened the door; he was waiting for me to say something. Why couldn’t I speak?

“Actually,” he grumbled, clearing his throat and putting a fist over his mouth as he did so. “I don’t have to listen to a single, bull shit lie that comes out of your mouth, Sadie.”

When he used my full name, it hit me like a ship cascading into a rocky edge. As if that wasn’t enough, the way he said it, so spitefully and full of disgust, that really floored me. I swallowed the thick lump in my throat and let my eyes fall to the floor. The blazing look in his eye was too much to deal with. I could practically feel my heart plummeting to the pit of my stomach, realizing how he must have felt right now, especially after seeing me kiss a boy like Rider Forrester.

“It’s not,” I murmured, not quite sure if he heard me. I coughed, letting my voice rise to a stronger decibel. “It’s not what you think, Cade. He kissed me so out of the blue. I told him to leave me alone. He went on about how he always…”

“He’s always loved you?” he quipped, raising a far from curious brow. His face spoke volumes, his features caving in to show how he truly felt towards me in this moment. “Save it, S.”

He went to slam the door shut in my face, but I stuck my foot in the wedge between the door and edging, stopping it right before it fully closed. I could barely see him through the thin sight of his bedroom, but his hair fell down in front of his eyes as he looked down at my shoe. He growled, almost scaring me enough to inch my shoe back slowly.

“I just need to explain…” I whispered slowly, almost like I was raising my hands in a silent surrender. “Without interruption this time,” I added in quickly.

“What else could you have to explain to me? I get it. Rider comes back after being away for so long and you’ve both fallen magically in love once again, even though you claimed you hated him,” he went on, throwing his hands crazily in the air to signify this stupid ‘magical’ feeling he was explaining. “I don’t care,” he sighed, trying to push the door closed.

I let out a mimicked growl of frustration and used all of my strength to push the door open fully and allowed myself in. He must have not been expecting my sudden persistence because he almost fell back when I finally got inside.