Jace

Chapter 11

Jace's POV

I didn't mean to say what I said to Tess that night, it was uncalled for but I was already in a bad place.

Yes I wasn't okay at all, I had been crying in Raine's room, I forgot to lock the door behind me and when I was about leaving I came face to face with Tessa.

And seeing her only made me lose my composure, why the fuck does she have to look like my Raine.

Seeing her bring me sour memories, memories I've been trying to bury deep in my heart for a while

It weird looking at her and not calling her Raine, in a way she makes me miss Raine so fucking much

I really didn't mean to snap, nothing is her fault, she's also a victim in this marriage but I was just frustrated at how bad my luck is.

I saw the pain in her eyes when I snapped at her and they only made me feel more like an asshole, she reminded me of how Raine looked the first time I asked her to strip for me.

I didn't want to hurt anyone again, not after what I went through after I hurt Raine and realized I was wrong, I don't want to make that mistake again.

I was trying hard to avoid her so I don't snap but she was always wanting to know what's wrong with me, she's too nice.

Like Raine
They have a lot in common asides look

*Flashback*

"That was crazy" I muttered into her ear with a smile and she giggled turning around and facing me

She stood on her toes and pecked my lips "that was more than crazy" she said her breast pressed firmly against my chest

I turned on the shower and it hit my back falling off on her chest

"I love you Raine, I love you so much" I tell her, she doesn't say it back, I know she's been skeptical to say it back since we got back together, but I can feel how much she loves me, she doesn't need to say it in words.

I took the body scrub and I used it to wash her body clean for her before massaging her hair with the hair wash, she closed her eyes as I stroked and buried my fingers inside her hair.

I was staring at her beautiful face and it was doing crazy things to me, I've never loved anyone like I love Raine and I don't think I'll ever love anyone after her

"Baby" I call her using the shower head to wash off the excess shampoo on her hair, she just hums with her eyes closed

"You remember that day in your room... That I uh... That I..." I couldn't bring myself to say it

She opened her eyes to look at me "that you asked me to strip"? She asked and I nodded "yes I do" she closed her eyes back

"I lied, I lied when I said I wasn't turned on, I was fucking hard that day and it took a whole lot for me to walk out without bending you over and fucking you hard" I said and she just chuckled

"So you said it to hurt me"? She asked and I felt fucking guilt because she has a smile on her face

I just hummed "and I'll forever regret it baby" I muttered out and she just laughed.

She turned around and faced me before cupping my face and planting her lips on mine in a passionate kiss

"Jace I told you it doesn't matter anymore, we agreed to move on remember"? She asked and I just nodded before pulling her close and kissing her