You All Over Me (The 5th Street Series Vol. 1)

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

We stayed like that for a while. Walang nagsalita sa amin. I feel that he's waiting for me to say something but he didn't voice it out. Well, honestly, I didn't know how I feel. Hearing him say those words are least from my expectations that night.

Alam ko na sinasabi na sa akin ni Cara na gusto ako ng pinsan niya. Pero ayaw kong maniwala dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na pinal ang opinyon ko para rito.

He's young to be sure that he likes me. He can change his mind in the long run. He's just starting to explore, after all. I am old enough for plays and I am not getting any younger to allow that kind of thing. I want someone who is thinking for long – term commitment.

Walang nagsalita sa amin kahit noong naglalakad kami pabalik sa bahay nila Cara. My friend did not even ask me further on what happened when she saw us entering their house together.

Wala akong iniwang salita kay Calum. I didn't say that I allow him to continue what he wants. I also didn't tell him to stop whatever he's trying to do. Hindi ko alam kung tama bang nasa gitna lamang ako. He's a brother to me and going through a quarrel with him is the least thing I want... reason why I tried to explain to him how grateful I was that night.

Gusto ko lang magka ayos na kami gayong malapit na silang umuwi. I don't want us to have a bad memory with each other until then.

"Lutang ka na naman, sis."

I snapped when I heard Cara's voice. Umiling ako at tumayo para lumapit sa bakal na bakod. We are in front of the beautiful greens and mountains of Zambales. It is six in the morning and the fogs are all over us.

This will be our last trip with Calum and Ishi. We are three days here. They are set to fly for U.S. next week. It has really been two months, huh?

"So, what's the score between you two?"

I took out my phone and take several photos on the greens in front. Hindi nga lang masyadong kita dahil sa hamog. I still find them worth the shot, though.

"Wala Cara," pinasok ko ulit sa bulsa ang cellphone at sinandal ang sarili sa bakal.

I looked at the other side of the barricade. I saw Calum taking picture of his sister. He has been consistent, hinahatid at sundo niya na ako ulit sa trabaho. He'd send me several updates daily and bring me into different restaurants for dinner.

I know I must make this thing between us known. But I'd rather put a blind eye on it than admit to myself why am I letting these happen. He's a good man, I can feel that... but that is not enough to give us a chance. I might complicate our relationship if ever.

So instead of putting a name for what we have, I decided to let this be until he forgets about what he feels about me. Nariyan si Amanda at ang iba pang babae na naghahabol sa kaniya sa America. Those women are better off than me. He's a cloud and I am an ocean. We can't just be together because we are better seen as we are separately.