My beautiful destiny - Freenbecky AU

Stop The Feelings

When Mon entered their room Sam came out of bathroom after changing in her sleepwear.

She ignored Mon's presence and went to pick up the blanket and her pillow.

"Khun Sam, umm......you don't have to sleep on couch anymore, you can sleep on the bed, I have no problem sharing it with you."

Sam looked at Mon who was standing there fidgeting a little.

"Grandma is not here so we don't have to sleep in the same room. I will sleep in guest room from now on."
Sam said and started to leave from there but Mon stopped her by holding her wrist.

Sam felt that lightning again in her whole body. She felt the current flowing from where Mon touched her to the every part of her body specifically her heart that was beating so fast.

"Khun Sam, have I done something wrong? If yes then please tell me." Mon said in a small voice.

In that moment Sam wanted to hug her wife tightly. She wanted to assure her that she didn't done anything wrong but the other way around. She wanted to apologize to Mon for having these feelings for her, for taking advantage of the situation.
But she couldn't do anything other than making things worse.

"Mon, our marriage is of convenience. We both are stuck in this unwanted relationship. We both are carrying the burden of these responsibilities that we don't want to. I got late for my office everyday but still I have the responsibility to drop you at your university first."

Mon was shocked hearing this. She never wanted to burden khun Sam to drop her at university and she gave her other options too but it was Sam who insist to drop her.

"I know you gave me options." Sam said, reading Mon's thoughts. ".....but like I said I have to carry the burden of responsibility. But I can't do that anymore." she was speaking softly but suddenly her tone got harsh. "I will not be able to drop and pick you up anymore so I think you can take lift from Nop as both of your destination is same. If you are not okay with that I will arrange a car and a driver for you."

Mon was just looking at her in disbelief and then she smiled and nodded to herself. She let go of Sam's hand.

"You don't have to do anything for me anymore khun Sam, I am capable to take my own responsibility."

Mon said with determination. Sam wanted to say something but Mon didn't let her.

"Please khun Sam, I am setting you free from my responsibilities so from now on you don't have to worry about me. Good night."

Mon said and went to bathroom to change into nightwear.

Sam was standing there looking at closed door. Her heart was telling her to apologize to Mon, to tell her that her responsibility is not a burden to her but a breath of fresh air.

She likes doing things for Mon. It is true that it was grandma who ordered Sam to drop and pick Mon from university but she did it with her whole heart. She was a workaholic, used to work until late night but she willingly started to left early from work so she could pick Mon on time.

But her growing feelings for Mon was making everything complicated so she wanted to stop these feelings and the only way she can see was to stay away from Mon.

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At early morning Mon was preparing breakfast in the kitchen. What happened at dinner doesn't effected her because in her thoughts she was just fulfilling her duties as a wife and she doesn't feel that these responsibilities are burden to her.

Sam came downstairs in her office attire, ready to leave for work. She stopped when she saw Mon in the kitchen.

Feeling someone's stare on herself Mon looked in the direction of Sam and a most genuine and sweet smile graced her face.

That smile was enough to make Sam's heart beat fast and reminds her of her decision to stay away from her own wife. She averted her gaze and started walking towards the door.

"Khun Sam, breakfast is ready please eat it before going to office." Mon said stopping her in her track.

Sam sighed and said without looking at Mon.

"I am already late, I will eat something at the office canteen."

And before Mon can insist or say something Sam left from there in hurry leaving crestfallen Mon behind.

Song was there in the kitchen and heard all the conversation. She came to Mon with worry in her eyes.

"N'Mon, did something happened between you and Khun Sam?" Song asked with concern in her voice. "She is not behaving like herself."

"Nothing happened between me and khun Sam just she started to realize that marrying me was the worst decision of her life. I am just an extra burden for her to carry."

"N'Mon, what are you speaking? Khun Sam would never thought of you as a burden no matter what." Song said defending Sam.

"I myself feel like a burden to her p'Song. I have decided that I will not interfere in her life anymore, from my side she is free to live the way she wants to live. Even though we are legally married but I don't have any right on her." Mon wiped her tears that come out of her eyes without her realizing.

"Nong, I don't know what is happening in both of your life but I will say the only thing that communication is the key to healthy relationship, no matter what is the nature of relationship. Maybe you both should talk to each other."

Mon nodded, she too wants to talk with khun Sam about everything happening but she doubt Sam wants the same.

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