𝐂œ𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐬é𝐬 [Percy Jackson]

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The air seemed to be electrified, which could be very literal with Jason's powers.

"I- I'm trying out new things" Jason said softly, "It doesn't have to mean anything, Hads, I just want to see if I like guys. Can I?"

Jason's blue eyes were glued to Hadrian's lips.

He rolled his tongue over his lips and watched as Jason's eyes widened just a little. Was he using his powers? Gods, how could he not know if he was using his powers? It made him feel useless.

Out of all the people he had charmspoken, he didn't want to manipulate his friends. He didn't want to end up like his mother.

"Jason" He warned, "Am I charmspeaking?"

"I'm pretty sure you're not"

"Do you really want to?"

"Yeah, I mean, it'll be fun" Jason promised, "It doesn't mean anything, plus you said you were bored"

And well, Hadrian couldn't argue with that.

So before he could think of a million different ways this was a terrible idea, he started forward just like Jason did. The blond tilted his face down as Hadrian grabbed both cheeks and pulled him to his height.

And just like all the others, it didn't feel like it could last. Hadrian knew that feeling. He had been in love with his first boyfriend and sure, he had sparks and butterflies and all that. But there was a feeling of emptiness.

Jason's lips were soft, his mouth was warm. Hadrian could feel the scar on his upper lip under his lips. A tingle ran down his spine, like an electric eel had shocked him. It felt good, he couldn't deny that. Kissing always made him lose his mind.

But none of it felt... permanent. He could feel it in his bones. Jason wouldn't be more than that, just another person he kissed. But at least it took his mind off of how terrible things were.

He let himself be pushed against a countertop and while Jason was only five inches taller than him, Hadrian felt like he was way too short. He wasn't really that self conscious, and to be frank, he didn't give two shits what Jason thought because in a romantic sense, Jason didn't matter.

Jason's hands were pulling him close and pushing him against the counter at the same time. Hadrian's body felt like Leo had lit him on fire. It was good, it was familiar.

He wouldn't call himself a fuckboy (mainly because he hadn't slept with anyone) but he did kiss a whole bunch of people, so many actually that he had forgotten about quite a few.

His reasoning had always been, if it feels good, why the fuck not? Kira always scolded him for it, but then again Kira had a long term stable girlfriend so they didn't know what Hadrian felt every time his heart broke.

Hadrian was vaguely aware of being lifted onto the countertop. Kissing Jason felt like a relief, like all the anxiety he had about everything was slowly seeping out of him. If nothing else, at least he was Jason's queer awakening.

Jason pushed his legs apart and stood between them. He had one hand at the back of Hadrian's head and another that rested on his thigh. Forget a few sparks, Hadrian felt like his lower body had lightning coursing through it. How far could Hadrian let this go?

He pulled Jason in by the back of his head, fingers playing with his short cropped hair. One hand rested on Jason's waist and for some reason Hadrian couldn't help the direction his mind took.

He imagined someone else's waist under his arm, someone else's lips kissing his own, green eyes instead of blue, a troublemaker's grin. Hadrian focused on Jason. A soft sound escaped his lips, Jason's right hand moved to hold his jaw.

The floor creaked.

Jason jumped back so fast, Hadrian almost fell face first onto the floor. Thankfully, he managed to save his balance and stay on the counter.

Two heads turned to the sound lightning fast.

Percy stood there frozen like a deer in headlights. He had obviously seen them and tried to walk away without being noticed but failed.

Thousands of thoughts came crashing down on Hadrian. Most of them went like-

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, no, shit, shit.

Then he wondered why he was panicking. His heart beat wildly in his chest like he'd done something wrong. His expression turned sour. They had done nothing wrong, so what if they were kissing??

"What the fuck, Jackson?" He snapped, "What do you want?"

"Er-"

Jason still looked spooked, too afraid to say anything. Hadrian would charmspeak Percy if that's what it took for him to keep quiet about this stuff. If he outed Jason, Hadrian would never forgive him.

For fucks sake why had he been imagining Percy when he kissed Jason?

"Sorry- um the dinnerbell rang already and you guys were taking too long so Coach sent me to uh- check on you" Percy was redder than Jason if that was possible. Hadrian was stuck with the sudden realization that he was embarrassed to have caught them.

Then there was the fact that Percy was straight- the fact that he would never want to kiss Hadrian. Not for "fun" and certainly not in a way Hadrian wanted him to. Hadrian saw his eyes wander everytime Annabeth came into view.

He wasn't sure why it made him so angry.

Gods, this had all been such a bad idea. He wanted to betray them now and sell them out to Gaea. Only the earth primordial could make his embarrassment disappear now by ending the world.

"Percy-" Jason began, "I- uh-"

"I don't care" Percy said immediately, "Honestly, you guys can uh... keep doing that, but later. Cause Coach will literally skin you alive if you guys don't come up now."

The fact that Percy seemed so casual about it felt like a stab to the gut. Hadrian wanted to punch him. His hair was slowly turning flaming red. He forced himself to turn it back to a boring brown.

"Yeah, we'll be there" Hadrian said, colder than he had even been with Percy.

Then for some reason, he cupped Jason's cheek and pulled him down for a short kiss again. "That answer your question?" He asked when they parted.

"Uh" Jason said intelligently, "Um yeah, definitely attracted to guys. I'll uh figure out what that means later"

Hadrian watched Percy's green eyes dance between the two. Then Hadrian pushed past him. 

A/N: I told you Hadrian was hornier than Ajax. Also Percy just standing there like- 🧍‍♂️