Converse x Vans

Breakdown.

TW: Gore, explicit content, swearing, crying, mentions of suicide and suicide.
Nicks POV

I watch him fall, hopelessly all I can do is look at him fall, I swear he mouths, "thank you." Before he hits the ground I close my eyes and I hear Charlie's footsteps behind me.

"We have to go down there." I plead.

"Honey it's not safe." Charlie says.

"No we have to go down there and save him." I say. "He could still be alive."

"Nick no." Charlie says. "It won't work I'm sorry he's gone."

I ignore Charlie and speed past him and start to run down the hill next to the bridge. The hill is rocky and steep and I cut my hands and arms multiple time from falling and rolling.

Near the end of the hill I lose my footing and fall down, a soft fall as I landed in grass but when I look to my right I can see his face, staring at me.

When I see his eyes I can see the terror and sadness behind them, I can see the numbness behind him and I can see the regret in his face, the terror in his eyes. Just from a dead persons face I can see everything but happiness. But only relief.

My body is aching and pain is sprouting out everywhere. I clamber to get up and when I do I can see his mangled body in a distorted formation. His bones twisted and distorted and the blood leaking from the large tears in the skin. He looks horrible and it all comes at once.

The vomit in my throat rises and I curl over and vomit to my right. The disgust and the regret of not saving him is making me go crazy. If only I'd asked what happened.

"Sir move out of the way." A lady says.

I look to where the sound came from to see a paramedic ushering me out of the way. I can see police sirens and ambulance lights but when I look up at the bridge Charlie is nowhere to be seen.

A warm hand grasps my shoulder. My shoulders seers with pain and it finally comes to me that I'm covered in cuts and bruises form the stones and that I'm injured.

I look to the person holding my hand and I see Charlie standing there sombrely. At that point I can't hold it together anymore and I just let the tears flow, one of my favourite students who always seemed happy and enthusiastic is the student that had killed himself because of other people's actions.

I wish I could've grabbed him in time, I wish I would've have the ability to actually save him instead of letting him die as I watched him fall. I saw the fear in his eyes, I think he regretted it but I'm sure he was destined on doing it.

"Could you two come with us please." An officer asks.

"Yeah sure." Charlie says tugging my hand for me to follow.

Charlie starts to walk away but when he starts to I don't move. I just watch the paramedics stand around the body as a paramedic brings down a stretcher for the corpse to be put in.

When I finally start to move away the effects of my cuts and bruises start to take effect and when we reach the top of the hill my legs collapse and everything goes black.

Charlie's POV

I can't believe I just saw what I saw. I mean Nick is so oh my god. Nick just passed out on the floor and is out cold. I rush to help him but I'm pushed out of the way by two paramedics who start to help him.

When Nick regains consciousness he's told he had a severe anxiety attack and needed to go home and get rest now.

The police officer asks me question and we go home. I don't know what Nick is feeling right now but it had to be ten times worse than what I've gone through.

When we arrive home Nick heads straight upstairs and to bed and when Chase come south of his room I hear Nick yell something.

Chase comes flying down the stairs and asks. "What's wrong with Nick?"

"Something horrible happened just give him space." I say.

I think Chase can tell something horrible has happened sand Nick really does need space and I'm glad he respects that.

Nicks POV

I can't believe I passed out and am acting like this! Why am I acting like this? Why couldn't I save him? Why couldn't I say anything? Why didn't I realise?

The dam gates for my tears have no broke and are pouring out at an alarming rate and there nothing stopping it. I can't feel anything right now, I guess the shock is still here but it's all starting to come back to me and nothing is making sense anymore and Im just feeling like shiiiiii.......

Thump.

Charlie's POV

When I'm walking back up the stairs and into our bedroom I hear a loud thump from our bedroom and I know Nick has fainted again.

I barge into the room to see Nick out-cold on the floor. I lift him with all of my strength into the bed and tuck him in to make sure he doesn't move and then I climb into bed. Maybe this has all been a bad dream and no one has been hurt and no one has suffered or is suffering and then Nick is okay.

My eyes shut and I can't remember anything after that as I was out cold for the entire bight because of events and nicks breakdown of what happened. I wonder how Nick know that boy and if he did know that boy but I don't know yet h have to check if he does tomorrow because it would be inconsiderate to ask him now and I'm not going to be rude to Nick.