Converse x Vans

Facing the truth

Chases POV
TW: Mentions of SH

"Look Isaac, I know that I have been hurting for a really long time but it is seasonal. Please let me handle me, I love you but I'm sorry but I don't need you in this department, I can handle my own problems.

"Mandatory No repercussion honesty." Isaac says.

Mandatory No repercussion honesty is where the other person can say whatever they want without repercussion but you only get one once a month.

"With all do respect you haven't been able to handle it on your own if you are continuing to go and do bad coping mechanisms, considering you have been suffering with these problems for over many years you haven't done anything other many unheard attempts to get help. I know that you had a lot of expectation on you as a child with Charlie and Tori but I see why and obviously this has affected you but I want to tell you this because you cant do this alone, you haven't been able to and you need to let someone help you or this cycle wont stop." I say pouring all of my thoughts into saying as much as I can.

Chase's eyes light up with tears. A glossy coat engulfs his eyes before they start to spill, he looks at me so hurt by the fact that he has finally realised what has been happening all these years. He finally reliases how much damage has been done. He cries and cries and cries. I hold him, like he is going to solidify and stay that way. I cant let him be this way forever and I cant let him hurt like this.

I love Chase spring and he doesnt deserve to be hurt so badly by people who deserve him he is the purest soul ever on this planet and he has always been excepted so much of himself but I cant let him be like this more because he had so much expectations for him and when he didnt reach those he felt horrible even though he didnt deserve to.

He didnt deserve this.

"Chase, you didnt deserve any of this." I say tears gripping my eyes. "you deserve anything but this, anything but these horrible things that have occurred."

He holds me tighter at these words, his grasp holding me tightly and not letting go, he wont let go. He holds me like im about to wither way and never return. He holds me like he holds onto the happiness he had once when he was a child. He holds me firm until finally he lets go and looks at me.

"I just feel horrible all the time." He says. "I just want to feel better instead of feeling like this, I feel like I cant get over this hurdle, I need your help Isaac."

"My love, I am always here for you, I want to help you all the time, every day and every night but you need to help me do it, I dont know when you arent feeling one hundred percent and I need to be able to help you, but I cant when I dont even know. You have had to endure so many years of masking your emotions but I need to tell you that you dont have to do that with me at all anymore, you can be fragile and have strong and scary emotions so that we can step out and you can rejuvenate. I am here for you and I will always be, but you need to be honest andd open with me about your emotions and I will be too."

By the time I finish speaking, I am out of breath. Chase is not looking at me but at himself, he is looking at his hands as they tremble.

"I can only try Isaac, it will take time for me to unlearn the things I have been doing since I as little." He says.

"Then time it will take." I smile.

Chase looks up at me for the first time since this conversation has started. His eyes look down to my lips, I see him travel around my face.

"I'm gonna get Ice cream for us to eat." I say. "I will go and get my phone so I can just order it."

"Alright my love, I will go wait in the loungeroom, what movie do you want to watch?" He says.

"I dont mind, maybe disney?" I say. "I am going to go get my phone, I will be be back."

I place a kiss on his forehead and turn around to go and get my phone.

Isaac:
Hey Charlie, I talked with Chase and he is fine now

Charlie:
Alright, well I will have a little talk about it with him but every ones pretty shaken up, you guys have been dating for twelve months and I get that but you are fifteen and chase is turning 15 soon. I love you both and I will see you guys when I pick you up.

Isaac:
Alright I will see you soon, bye Charlie <3.

I then go to uber eats and order some Ben and Gerry ice cream and then I walk into the loungeroom where Chase has Beauty and the Beast live action version. I sit down on the couch and Chase instantly falls asleep against me. The ice cream comes and I have to get the ice cream waking up Chase.

"How long was I asleep?" Chase asks when I bring him his bowl of ice cream.

"Like 20 minutes." I say sitting down.

We continue to watch the movie and he watches some bits and sleeps some other parts until he fully falls asleep with his head in my lap. I turn off the television when I know he is fully asleep and I fall asleep with him.

Nicks POV

Charlie heads up to our room to go to sleep, I go into the loungeroom. I start to look at my phone when I look up. I'm the park again and I can see him standing on the railing, I run towards him but as I grab him he falls, I spin and I open my eyes to be on the floor of my loungeroom. His face flashes into my head again and I run to the bathroom to vomit. When I am done I stay awake the rest of the night.

I gingerly watch my phone as I continue to gain more anxiety. I havent had a night terror for so long, why now?

Authors Note:
Hey everyone, it has been so long since I have updated this story and I am so excited to be back. I love you all but I did have a rough time this year and I just didnt update. I cant wait to expand on this world and for context Isaac is 15 and Chase is turning 15 soon.