Converse x Vans

Repercussions

Nicks POV
TW: Mentions of suicide

I feel the sun start to hit my face as I come to consciousness. I rub my eyes as I feel myself start to be more aware of my surroundings. I realise i'm on the couch still in a sitting position. I feel tired and nauseous, as the events of last night start to come back to me.

My head pings in pain as I get to my feet, he rooms continuing to spin until my eyes adjust properly. His face flashes through my mind again, beaten and bleeding. I step back and fall over onto the floor.

"CHARLIE!" I scream in terror.

Charlie's POV

"CHARLIE!" Nick screams from downstairs.

Instantly I fly out of bed and down the stairs, Nick only screams like that when. Shit. I get down the stairs and Nick is on the floor. He looks up at me and tears stream down his face, his face in a frenzied panic.

Nick looks at me, his eyes wild and wide. He whispers quietly words mumbled through panic and fear. "I don't know what to do!" He says in a panic.

I go to him gingerly, I can only hope he hasn't had a night terror, it has been months since one and if he has I won't be able to calm him down before Chase gets home, and Nick is the one who wants to talk to Chase about it.

"Okay my love, what happened?" I ask.

"He wa-was it was him." He sputters. "Just his face, he didnt say anything just his face, Charlie it was so scary but this time there were no emotions it was just a blank face, I don't know what to do, I just fell asleep, I just fell asleep, I didn't think it would happen Char."

His face is manic and is body is sprawled out as if he is ready to get up and run, I can't believe it has happened again, I really thought it was done. I thought he had healed but I guess it never is. Nicks face starts to calm and he starts to become less manic and more alert. He stops and takes a deep breath before closing his eyes tightly before reopening them to see me.

"I'm so sorry, I fell asleep and I had another night terror, I promise im okay. I just wasn't expecting it to happen." Nicks eyes tear up. "I'm so sorry Char. I'm so sorry."                                  "Nick its okay, you can't control it. I've got you okay. Just breathe, that's all you need to do right now, nothing else okay." 

He continues to have shaky breath as he starts to gather himself, he starts to ease up and lose his tension until both of ours phones buzz at the same time. I look at Nick in confusion as he looks me in the eye. 

I check my phone and see that Chase has sent a message to the "CCNN (Chase, Charlie and Nick news)

Chase: Hey guys, if anyone could pick me up I would really appreciate it, my uber account stopped working.

Charlie: What time?

Chase: Whenever honestly, Isaac is dead on the couch so whenever your free.

Charlie: Alright I'll pick you up soon.

Chase: Alright just lmk cause I will start to get ready and gather my things

Charlie: What stuff would you need to grab? 

Chase: Just normal stuff charger and my headphones

Charlie: Oh alright I'll see you soon

I put my phone down and I look at Nick and he seems to have fully calmed down now, he looks like he still wants to cry, his eyes still very weary and sunken, his body is closed and his beautiful features that fall perfectly onto his face are riddled with exhaustion and fear, on the outside his body has completely calibrated and has calmed down but his eyes still wander and his brain is in overdrive.

Nick stands up, his body swaying with every uneasy move he takes to the stairs, I swiftly move and put his arm around my shoulder and look at him and say. "I've got you, just one step at a time my love." 

Nick shudders with every step his body creaking and his legs limp, every few seconds I see a drop of water fall from his face, I look up onto his face to see his eyes pouring out tears, I stop us walking up the stairs for a moment and let him rest onto the stairs.

"Nick what's wrong, you need to breathe.

"Charlie I cant, I'm so tired and I'm so scared."

"Well, we need to get you up to our bedroom alright, I just need you to breathe for me okay?" I say trying to stay calm for Nick. "You need to take a big breathe, there isnt any stairs left all we have to do is walk down the corridor okay?"

"O-Okay." Nick whimpers.

I help him up and then we continue to the bedroom as Nick practically drags his feet across the carpet. His body shivers every time I adjust or shift my hand for better grip and support. Finally we make it to our bedroom and I enter, putting Nick on our bed and putting one blanket over him turning the fan on and closing the blinds for Nick.

I leave the room when Nick says. "Please don't give Chase any repercussions I want to be apart of the conversation as well, he's my brother to."

"I won't." I say. "I love you, i'll be back soon okay just hang in tight." 

"I love you too, but can you get me some ice cream?" He asks.

"Yes I will." I smile.

I leave the room and start to walk towards the door when my phone buzzes from the couch reminding me of what I forgot. I see Nick has messaged me.

Nick: Cookies and Cream please xx

Charlie: I'll go and get it with Chase ml, see you soon xx

I walk out of the door and when I get into the car and start the drive towards Isaac's house, Tori calls me.