Converse x Vans

Back to old ways

TW: SH and Mentions of SH, Mentions of ED and Panic Attacks, gore/blood
Charlie's POV

"I'll be back soon!" Chase calls.

"Okay!" I call as he leaves.

A few minutes later Nick comes down from upstairs and come and stands behind me.

"How's your day been?" He says holding my thighs.

"Good." I say, blush invading my cheeks. "How's your day been."

"Not bad but I'm going to the store, need anything?" He asks.

"No I'm good." I say turning straight around and kissing him.

He pulls away after a minutes and leaves for the store. I go to get a glass of water when I see a spider on one of the cabinets. I jump back and the glass flys out of my hand and hits the floor.

The spider scuttles away and I go to get the dust pan, but when I go to where it normally is I can't find it. I go outside when I smell a massive barbecue, the smell makes me want to vomit. The smell surrounds me and I stumble back inside, my chest rising and falling very quickly. I stumble backwards and fumble to floor right next to the broken glass.

I look over to the broken glass and see the shard closest to me shimmer, I shakily pick it up and when I do I look at my left wrist. I cautiously move the shard towards my left wrist and then I glide the glass across my wrist. The skin on my wrist splits and blood spills off my wrist. Tears fall down my face as I realise what I've done. I continue to cry and I throw the blood stained shard across the floor.

The cut doesn't bleed much but I feel myself start to panic. My chest rises and falls extremely fast and my breathing becomes quicker but more shallow until I can barely breathe. Panic and shock riddle my body cold until I finally hear the door open.

"Honey I'm homeee." Nick says.

Nicks POV

"Honey I'm homeee." I say.

I look around for Charlie but I can't see him, but I can faintly hear someone crying.

"Char?" I ask.

"Nick." I hear him say faintly

"Where are you charlie I say dropping all of my groceries on the floor and scrambling around the downstairs floor until I go past the island and see that Charlie is in the floor. His breath fast, and his hand clutching his wrist. I instantly drop to the floor and move Charlie away from the glass. I move the hair out of his face. I hold him till I hear him fall asleep, his eyes are bloodshot and he looks like he's just had a panic attack. I look around for anything that may of been able to trigger him into relapsing until I see the back door wide open. I step outside and am surrounded by the smell of a nice barbecue.

I step back inside and close the door and walk towards the first aid kit and start to cautiously wrap Charlie's wrist. When I finish I go and get a pills for his head and  put the groceries in a seperate room so that he doesn't freak out when he wakes up and then I sit next to him and wait for him to wake up.

I pull out my phone and message Tori.

Nick: I need you to tell Chase to come to your house now.

Rori: why?

Nick: Charlie relapsed while I was out getting groceries and I don't want him seeing Charlie, it want a massive relapse, only one cut and there was a trigger, but he is going to be jumpy and very quiet and I don't Chase to be affected.

Rori: okay, I'll do my job but do yours.

Rori: make sure my brother is okay or I'll personally take you down.

I turn my phone off and see Charlie starting to wake up.

"Hey honey." I say.

"What, what happened?" He asks.

I look down.

"All I remember is stepping outside for the dust pan and I smelt a barbecue and then." He says but he stops as he looks down at his wrapped wrist. "How bad?"

"You didnt relapse hard." I say quietly.. "Only one cut and the glass you cut with was far away from you so you realised quickly it's okay."

"When is Chase getting home?" Charlie asks. "I don't want him seeing me like this."

"He's going to Tori's I already got her to do that." I say.

"Thank you Nick." He whispers.

"Of course." I say quietly.

After about twenty minutes Charlie asks me to help him up and when I do he stumbles back, the memories flooding back to him. Tears fall out of his eyes and instantly flip him to be opposite facing it and hug him to try and get the thought of it out of his mind. It's been a few months since he has last relapsed and I really don't want to have to see him hurt more than he needs to be again because he's just to kind. I don't want to let him go back to his old ways and not be able to bounce back anymore.

"Come on let's go upstairs." I say softly. 

I continue to lead him upstairs and when we do get upstairs he instantly goes to the bathroom. When he walks in he looks at me, eyes bloodshot and then he undresses and gets in the shower. I leave the door open just incase and walk back into our bedroom.

Every few minutes I call out to him to make sure he's okay but I also hear him wincing every few seconds. I go into the bathroom about three times before he tells me that he'll be okay. When he says that I close the door but not fully. Just incase.

Chase gets home at around seven and when he sees Charlie come down with a bandage he instantly knows what's happened.

Authors Note:
Hey everyone! It's been so long and I'm so excited to of reached 20K readers and 500 votes. I am so grateful for everyone reading this little fan fiction. I really am getting back into the groove I was in the middle of the year. I am grateful for you guys and am so that you guys all have read my fan fiction ❤️