Converse x Vans

New normal

TW: mentions of suicide
Nicks POV

"Nick honey, Nick." Charlie says softly.

"Mmmm noo." I say groggily trying to go back to sleep.

"Hunny it's your first day back at work, come on." Charlie says. "If you say no again you're sleeping on the couch."

When Charlie's says I'd be sleeping on the couch he means it so I scramble up and try and get ready for work. I brush my teeth, and walk down the stairs, greeted by Charlie with a plate of breakfast.

"Oh my god, Charlie your the best I love you so much." I say giving him a small kiss on his cheek.

"I know you do." Charlie smiles.

I quickly eat my breakfast and then I yell for Chase to hurry up so I can drop him off so he can go to school and I can go to work.

"YOUR UBER IS LEAVINGG!" I yell from downstairs.

Chase flys down the stairs and meets me at the door.

"Come on slow poke lets go." He laughs.

We climb in the car and I drop Chase at school and head around the corner to the primary school. Charlie went to this primary school but I went to another primary school a good few streets down. I get out of my car and for a moment I'm stuck in a gaze looking at the entrance gates of the school. I slowly walk into the school, I steady my breathing and head towards my classroom. It's been a few weeks since the incident and my class hasn't seen me for a while so I mean that's something to look forward to.

I walk into the room to be greeted with a breeze of warm air from the air conditioning. I sit at my desk, as it was that afternoon before I left. I put my bag with my laptop and diary planner down next to me and look at the schedule for today, English, Fruit Break, Science, recess, Math, History, Lunch and then for the last session we have Art.

I look at the curriculum and see what my substitute teachers have covered and what they haven't and for all I know I only have to cover sentences, weather, addition, dinosaurs and colours. The bell rings for all classes to move to their classrooms and line up outside of their classrooms. I hear the eager footsteps of the innocent kindergarteners. I hear the all sit and when the bell for class to start I walk outside to take them in.

"Mr Nelson!" One calls.

"Talia, Mr Nelsons back!"

"Where were you!" One calls.

"Hi guys!" I say enthusiastically. "Whos excited for learning today!"

"Mee." They call.

I bring them all in and for the start of English I get them to read a picture book from the class library. I watch all the kids and ask very few to stop talking, but everywhere I look I see him. To even just a child smiling or looking out the window I see him. I see him everywhere. My assistant teacher who is walking around sees my signal as I signal him over.

"Whats up?" He says walking over. 

"I just need to step out for a moment can you watch over the kids for a minute?" I ask my voice breaking.

"Yeah sure take your time." He smiles.

I walk out of the room and almost bolt for the teacher toilets. I walk into the cubical and almost fall to my knees in agony. Tears fall from my eyes and all of the memories and trauma comes flying back to me. All the kids I have seen today remind me of him even to his hair, or his eyes, his walk and all I can think about is his little sister in year three. Weak sobs leave my mouth until I sit on the toilet and just cry until I hear someone come in.

"Nick?" A voice calls.

"Yeah?" I say trying to hide the fact I was just having a full on mental breakdown.

"Everything okay?" She says.

Instantly I recognise the voice of the lady, its the assistant principal of the school. I walk out of the stall and see her in the doorway.

"Do you wanna come to my office and talk?" She asks. "And dont worry ive got a sub on your class for the morning session."

"Yeah that'd be nice." I say trying to make a weak smile.

We walk to her office and she opens the door and when we get in she closes the blinds that face the school for privacy. 

"So whats going on?" She asks sweetly.

"So the incident about a week ago is still affecting me and everything reminds me of him considering me and him were close, and I needed a break." I sigh.

"A break in the staff toilets?" She says a small grin on her face. 

"Its quiet?" I say.

"I need to go to deal with an issue in year four but take your time before you go bback to class, you have until recess and if you need I can let you leave." She smiles.

"Thank you Rossane." I smile.

She leaves the room and I sit in there in the engulfing silence and all I can think of his him. I'm trying to go back to normal but, maybe this is the new normal and I need to move on, never forget but move on. 

I stand up from my seat and take a very deep breath wipe my cheeks and my eyes, look in the window to see if I look good and leave the room and head back to my class. I have got this. I walk into the door of my kindergarten class. 

"Hi everyone!" I say cheerfully. "Can we thank Mr Hall for stepping in for me for a little while." 

"Thank you Mr Hallll." The kids chime happily. 

Mr Hall gives me a quick smile before he leaves the class. 

"Soo what were we learning?" I ask.

All the kids spring their hand up happily before I pick Rosella to answer.

"We were learning about weather and what it means." She says with a cheeky smile, like Jacobs.

"That's interesting can anyone tell me what it means." I say. "Lets put on our weather hats."   

The rest of the day goes smoothly and I have duty on the playgrounds for both of the breaks and when I get home, I talk to Charlie about today and we talk about it for a while but other than that everything seems normal for the new normal.

Authors Note:

Hey everyone, I know its been a while since I have done an Authors Note in a while, I hope you guys have been amazing. I know I promised in like the 2nd chapter that I would make Nick and Charlie happy well Im going to do that for the next few chapters dont worry im fufilling my promise. Bye everyone!