Look at me

Chapter 7

~•~•~•~•~•~•~•second season•~•~•~•~•~•~•

After some days the situation didn't change.
All the people went to Peterkin's funeral, including her murder. Rafe. When Jane first saw him she couldn't believe it. That kook, after shooting her, had the courage to go at her funeral. She couldn't look at him even for a second.
He was nervous. He was feeling guilty and the only person who was supposed to calm him down was his dad, but he just acted like nothing happened. He perfectly knew that it was all his fault, but for the first time in his life he just wanted to do the right thing. He just wanted to be appreciated by his father. Or maybe by Jane. But that death just made him be hated by all those people.
Rafe was looking at his feet, because he didn't have the courage to look at the tomb, but when he raised his eyes he saw Jane looking at him. Her hazel eyes full of fear and rage were looking at those blue guilty scared eyes. They just met and created a combination of colors unforgettable. But moment lasted just for a second, because the girl was too scared.

After the funeral Jane was walking away, but she felt an hand grabbing her arm
"Jane can we talk?" said a male voice. It was Rafe. "Leave me before I scream" answered the girl. The boy immediately let go his grip. He didn't want to piss her off, he just wanted to be excused. "I have nothing to say to you Cameron" said Jane before he could even open his mouth. She was disgusted by him. By that person. "I know and you are right but I was just trying to do the right thing and-"
"The right thing? You trying to do the right thing by killing Peterkin?" "Shut that mouth" said Rafe. He was so angry and sad at the same moment, but those words were like a stab to him. Now he was holding again her arm and was hurting her. Jane stopped for a moment because she was too scared but then tried to retake the control and pushed him away. "If you can't deal with what you did it's not a my problem, and if you hate me so much then why don't you kill me just like you did with Peterkin?"
"Shut up!" he yelled. He was so angry with her right now. Or probably he was just angry with himself for what he did. He didn't want to hurt the girl but he couldn't control his rage. They both looked at eachother. She was scared and angry, and he was shocked and out of control. No one said a word. The silence talked by itself. After some seconds the girl walked away with her heart that was beating so fast while the boy looked at her with his blue eyes.
Rafe didn't liked that girl. She was so impulsive that pissed him off, but for him she was different from the others.
Meanwhile Jane hated that boy, so confident and rich but so coward, but she didn't know why he was so different to her from the other kooks.

While she was going away a boy ran to her "What did that asshole want?"
"I don't know JJ. I just know that I hate him so much". She was so pissed off because of Rafe that she didn't want to talk about him "Can we just do not talk about him? I really hate that fucking kook". JJ was his best friend so he perfectly knew what to do in that situation with Jane "Yeah you're right. Do you want a joint? I have a few with me"
"Fine". The two Pogues walked away from that place and sat down near a tree. The blondie boy took a joint from his pocket and offered it to his best friend
"Do you think they're dead?" said Jane
"What do you mean?" JJ wasn't understanding why she asked him that question. "I don't think they are. I don't know why but maybe there's a probability that they are still alive. Don't you think?" JJ was still confused. "I know that you miss them, and so do I but we just can't imagine something for our healthy mind" "I am not imagining. I am being honest" "Ok then I really need to change this joints because they are dangerous" "JJ stop I'm being serious"
"What's happening here?" Kie arrived with Pope. "Jane was asking me if I think that John B and Sarah are still alive" The other two Pogues were having the same confused expression "Jane" said Pope "I mean you heard it too, they were on the boat and then-" "Yeah Pope I was there too so I know what happened" now Jane was angrier that before " I just do not think they're dead" "or maybe you can't accept it" said Kie. "While all of you were hugging your parents I was on the ground, crying alone and seeing all that police coming back with no bodies" "Jane-" "no stop Kie I know what you're about to say. I'm leaving" she dropped the joint and then walked away from that place. Maybe Kie was right, maybe she didn't want to accept the reality, or maybe she was right. No one would believed her, so she just went at the Chateau trying to calm down.