Look at me

Chaoter 15

When they arrived the truck with the cross was already there.
"Im going" said Sarah but John B didn't want to let her go all alone "don't worry JB. I'm safe." and she went there. While Sarah was trying to look for the truck's keys the pogues were trying to get in the house. Jane was the first to go inside the house's walls but the boys were stuck out because of an old man.
"What am I supposed to do?" whispered Jane. "Go look for Sarah. We stay here" responded Pope. "What?" "Go" said louder John B.
Jane was now all alone and was trying to see if Sarah was out or inside the house. "Sarah? Where are you? Sarah?" but she couldn't find her. So Jane decided to go in the house without make a noise. While she was going up she heard Rafe's voice and she stopped. She was terrified that he could find her. So she went in a room, but that choice ruined all the plans. While she was trying to hide from him Rafe opened the door and find her. They looked at each other in the eyes for some seconds. She was scared and he was shocked.
"What are you doing here?" asked Rafe suspiciously. Jane started to think immediately about something to say to him. A lie. But what kind of lie. He perfectly knew that she was looking for the cross. "I'm sorry" said Jane so fast that she didn't even had the time to think at those words. "What does it mean?" said Rafe. Now he was more confused than before. "I'm sorry that I made you believe that I actually wanted to help you" Yeah great choice Jane, she thought, but then she immediately regretted it. Why she said that? It was so stupid. Jane wouldn't even think about to go at Rafe's house just to say those things. But it was too late. She already said it and she couldn't go back. "So you just came here to say this?" said Rafe. Fuck he knew it too. Jane was panicking. "Yes. I wanted to make things clearer". Ok untill now you're going great Jane. "Fine" said Rafe without give a weight at those words. "Fine? Just this?" she wanted to make longer that conversation so maybe Sarah could have had more time. "What am I supposed to say? it's ok I know this. Now I have to go" He was so rude with her.

Rafe's mind
What the hell are you doing here? I need to go away with the cross. I know that you hate me and I hate you too but now just stop. You hugged me and it was pretty weird but also relaxing.
Fuck you're confusing my thoughts. Leave, please. I don't wanna hurt you and I don't wanna see you. Leave.

Jane couldn't believe at those words. She was trying to take time but she also wanted more answers about all that situation.
"After everything I have done for you your leaving me with these words?" she was so disappointed to that boy. "You hugged me at my lowest and I'm still wondering why you did it. But we are nothing. Now leave please." He didn't want to talk her. "You know I'm still asking this question to me. After everything you have done to my friends and to me I hugged you and I regret that night every single day. Even if you kidnapped me I was there on your side. I didn't leave you alone just like you're doing with me right now" She said those words so fast and then she just tried to leave, but Rafe stopped her. "Ok I'm sorry" he was feeling so guilty "You're right. Let me help you" he was just trying to fix things. "Help? I don't want your help" she was disgusted by him. "Please" Now he was looking at her. Those blues eyes met again the hazel eyes of the girl. Finally. "If you really wanna help me leave me and my friends alone and do not hurt us anymore. You already have the gold and the cross so-" "How do you know that I have the cross?". Fuck. Jane fucked all up. She stopped and realized what she had just said. She said those words without thinking and now she ruined everything. "I-" but Rafe now was so close to the girl that he took her arm. "How do you know?" he was getting angrier and angrier. She tried to avoid his eyes. She was so nervous. "Look at me Jane" Now her eyes were looking again at him, but his hands were squeezing too much her arm. "You're hurting me".
He didn't leave the arm.
"Rafe" she said.
He was squeezing more.
"Tell me" he was so angry.
"Rafe I said your hurting me" said Jane louder. He then realized what he was doing and get away from the girl. He was so angry and nervous. He felt the pain in his chest. Jane knew what was happened but she didn't want to be nice to him. "Leave, please" said Rafe. He didn't want the girl around her because he was afraid to hurt her. "Rafe-" tried to say the girl but she was interrupted by the kook. "I said leave" yelled Rafe. They looked at eachother for the last time and then she left.
Rafe knew that Jane was with her friends and knew what she was trying to do, but for no reason he let her go. He didn't want to hurt her.
Jane was confused. That feeling of hate was getting bigger and bigger but there was also another feeling. An anonymous feeling.
Something bigger than hate.