You loving me is my biggest flex ~Part 2

3.

Scratch that, she was fucked.
And it began early.
And it all went down not shortly after... brilliant!
She must've looked absolutely stupid, looking everywhere except the boy who took a seat in the row right in front of her.
He had his back bent and looked at her, eyes only resting on her... and her only.
She felt like the center of attention and instead of staring back, she looked on the wall, heat climbing up her spine.
The silence was screaming at her. And it felt like everyone in the lecture hall looked at them and observed their weird behavior.
And JJ didn't really help, his silent staring making it both: very obvious, and at the same time incredibly uncomfortable.
Should she say something?
She didn't really feel like doing that right before the lecture... and especially in their first period.
Her pride said simply «no no» to that!
Why the fuck did JJ have to study director-management and acting like her?
Right when Grisu thought she could no longer take his staring-contest, the professor walked in.
Everyone turned towards the blackboard, and so did JJ.
Aresu could breathe again...
The cold sweat slowly submerging.
But with JJ's back right in front of her face it was even harder to concentrate on the lesson or the introduction of their studies.

Internally she prepared herself to face him afterwards. It couldn't wait anymore and she was very aware of that fact.
Even after the lesson ended she packed her bag in slow motion. If she couldn't control the inevitable then she could at least procrastinate it a little bit.
Gulping hardly she swung her backpack over her shoulders and made her way out of the lecture hall.

Imagine the scenery to look something like that but with lockers on the wall:

(Song: Rumors~ Neffex)
Her heart beating hard, cold sensations and premonition setting in.
She sighed harshly when she noticed that he was already waiting for her in the hallway.
"Hey," he said and his raspy voice made her shiver. She had not yet forgiven him.
"Hi. We have to talk."
"Yes."
Silence...
"I'm sorry Grisu. I hurt you and there is no excuse for that. I did something really really stupid."
"You did," she nodded and looked at him calmly.
"I can't reverse my actions, though."
"But do you regret them?"
"Yes! Yes I do! With all my heart. I respect your opinion and...and I regret not telling you right away that I did that."
His eyes glistened with tears.
Aresu breathed in deeply. She was a human being with feelings and even if she had tried to not forgive him so easily it was hard for her. She cherished their friendship, she liked him and she truly cared for him. And it was simply not possible to just ignore her feelings for him.
She raised her hand and touched his shoulder lightly.
"It's alright. I might not forget what happened that easily but I am not really mad anymore. I don't want our friendship to end because of it."
"Really?"
"Yes."
He sniffled happily and relieved while sinking into her hug like he was melting.
"It's absolutely impossible to hate you. Hell, it's even impossible to not have a crush on you. Gosh, I love you so so much!"
"I'm sorry for not feeling the same. I can't change who I'm in love with."
"But why don't you love me?" He asked and wiggled out of the comfort of her arms.
"I love you! So so much!" Tears now dwelled over his cheeks.
"JJ, listen... it's not that I dislike you. I love you as my friend but feelings can't be controlled."
"But you love him! For gods sake you love a goddamn psychopath!"
"He's not! We get along great! Now stop insulting my relationship and my boyfriend! I already said it: IT. IS. MY. LIFE. And you don't have any right to interfere in such topics."
(Wait for the beat drop)
JJ stepped closer, offered Grisu his hands, decided otherwise and leaned in to kiss her.
His soft lips brushed hers and she felt frozen in place.
What?
WHAT?
WHAT?!
Her blood turned as cold as ice.
Aresu stumbled back, but held firmly by JJ's rough hands.
"Let-me-go," she winced and hit away his arms with full force.
He stumbled into the empty hallway, her fingers firmly locked over her lips, eyes widened in shock and disbelieve.
"Oh my god! Oh my god I'm so sorry. I don't know why I did that— I did not want to... I fucked up! I'm so so sorry, I—"
His mumbling was interrupted by a strong boot that kicked right into his abdomen and sent him flying into the lockers.
Rafe stood in the hallway, his eyes devilish dark, muscles tensed and jaw strained.

"YOU DARE?!" he growled and made his way to the lockers.
Grisu's brain was unable to function properly so she just stood there being flabbergasted.
Fingers still pressed over her lips.
"I DO DARE! I FUCKING DID IT BECAUSE I WANT HER TO SEE HOW RIDICULOUS YOU ARE!" JJ shouted and pushed himself up.
Rafe bent backwards and began to laugh like a maniac.
"Me? I'm ridiculous? Who tried to kiss my girlfriend in the freaking hallway after she once again dumped you?!"
"Guys—" Grisu tried to step between them but suddenly JJ jumped forward, his fist stretched to the front, feet leaping from the floor and suddenly his fist collided with Rafe's jaw.
Rafe stumbled back but did not fall. He stood his ground, looked sideways and fixated him with eyes full of rage.
"Okay—that's fucking it!" He said darkly and walked up to him.
JJ stood still, hands tightened into fists, eyes filled in a mixture of fear and utmost rage.
"Nein...GUYS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING! STOP THAT!" Aresu shouted but JJ jumped, Rafe landed his hit right on JJ's eye, JJ got hold of Rafe's shirt and they ended up wrestling on the floor.
(Imagine them wrestling stupidly and very aggressive on the floor while the hallway slowly fills with students who look at the scene before them.)
"Guys!!!" Aresu screamed and ran to them but was unexpectedly hit by Rafe's knee and fell forward into their mess.
"For fucks sake are you insane??!" She hissed and tried to separate them, being squished in their middle.
Rafe's attention was simply focused on her from then on and he stopped struggling.
JJ on the other hand did not stop, bent his arm and instead of hitting Rafe, Grisu jumped in between and was hit full force on her cheekbone.
She hissed, flew to the side and her head hit the concrete.
Rafe immediately panicked and wanted to help her up, scrambling away from JJ.
But while landing on the floor her patience snapped.
Still laying on the floor she breathed in deeply and screamed:"SAG MAL, SEID IHR BESCHEUERT?! STOP NOW! BOTH OF YOU!"
She got up into a sitting position and sat right between the both boys. She held her swollen cheek and looked at both with furious eyes.
Right at that moment a professor came storming into the scene and separated the young adults.
"To the director! All of you!"
Rafe held onto Grisu's elbow and inspected her cheek slightly. Aresu seemed pissed. With both of them. And oh gosh...she was.
JJ simply stood at the side and watched them with envy in his eyes.