kit connor X male reader

bad mental health day, poorly kit

It's been about three weeks. Kit took me to the doctors, and I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I'm also seeing a therapist every week or two weeks. I have had good days and bad days, and some have been neutral. But today I woke up and I knew that it would be a bad day.

I lay in bed facing the wall, kit isn't here, what's the time. I turn over, and I get my phone checking the time, 1:33. Fuck I've only just woken up aswell. I pull the duvet higher on me so only my head is poking out. I stare at the wall again, I just want this to stop, but I don't know how.

Kit comes up a few minutes later and kneels in front of me, moving the hair out of my face
"Morning," he says
I smile weakly
"You going to get up?" he asks softly
I don't say anything. I just shake my head
"Is it a bad day?" he says quietly
I nod, and I start crying quietly. Kit stands up and lays next to me and hugs me tight.
"Shhh, it will be okay," he comforts, kissing the top of my head

We hugged for a little bit, and then Kit looked at me, then started playing with my hair
"You need a haircut," he chuckles softly, then he kisses my cheek
I smile sadly.
"Do you want something to eat, even if it's just something small?" he asks
I nod, Kit kisses my head, and then he gets up and goes downstairs.

I'm left alone again, I don't really like these days. No one does. I wish u could just be normal, like I don't want to be autistic, I don't want to have depression and anxiety I don't want to be trans, I just want to be a gay cis guy that doesn't have to put up with any of this shit. I grab my phone and check my notifications. It was mostly instagram, like people just being homophobic and just telling me and kit to break up. Ughhh, why do people care so much about me and kits relationship.

I go on my feed, and alice pops up saying there will now be season four of heartstopper, and they are going to start filming season three. I smile, and my comfort show is coming back. Kit comes back up with a piece of toast, and he puts in on the bedside table. I sit up a bit, and kit sits next to me.
"So I have a few things to tell you."
"Hm,"
"Uh Dr angel called earlier and said that you would be able to get bottom surgery in a few weeks, and she said something about if you wanted ocoyote cryopresentation or something like that."
"Oh yeah, um, like egg freezing. If we would like biological kids in the future, it was oocyte cryopreservation, " I say, taking a bite out of the toast
"Yeah, that, uh, I said I'll call her back after I told you."
"Yeah, I want it done, both of them," i say

Kit sits closer to me and holds my hand
"So the other thing, we are going to film heartstopper season three."
"Yeah, I saw on insta."
"Please don't think that I'm cheating on you because I have to kiss joe, and Uh, maybe other things," he says quietly
"Yeah, I know it's just acting." I smile

Kit hugs me tight and then kisses my neck quickly. Then, he looks at me
"Someone as a bit of a moustache now," he giggles
"Do i"
"Yeah, look," he says, opening the camera app on his phone
"I'm now a man," I say, smiling slightly.

We lay in bed, and we watched a few movies on my laptop while cuddling. Kit keeps sneezing, and I look up at him.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm probably just coming down with something." he smiles

The next day, I felt fine, like really energetic and stuff like that, but Kit wakes up really sick. I go downstairs to get kit some paracetamol and a glass of water, and I walk back upstairs, and I put the stuff on the bedside table
"I don't need anything," Kit says
"You do. You are poorly, and you have a temperature, so you need to take it. "

Kit rolls his eyes but takes the paracetamol, then I hug him,
"Take off your hoodie, you're really hot,"
"I know I'm incredibly sexy but I'm not taking off my clothes."
I look at him, and I roll my eyes
"You know what I mean"
"Fine, I'll take it off," he says, pulling the hoodie over his head and then throwing it on the floor

I give him a peck on the lips, then I get some clothes, and i walk in the bathroom and get in the shower. I dry myself off, and I get dressed. I go downstairs, and I put my clothes in the washing machine, and I defrost a rat for koda.

I go upstairs with the defrosted rat, and I open kodas viv, and i take him out putting him in the cardboard box. I get my tongs, and I pick up the rat, and I guve ut to koda. He wraps around it, squeezing it before eating it. When he's swallowed the rat, I gently pick him up and place him back in his tank.

I walk out, and i wash my hands, and I look over at Kit. He lays in our bed sleeping, snoring lightly. I go downstairs, and I sit on the sofa, and I call Dr Angel back
"Hi river, how are you?"
"I'm okay, sorry I wasn't able to call you yesterday. I was asleep. "
"That's okay, kit picked up anyway, did he tell you?"
"Oh yeah, he did, I would really like to have my eggs freezed,"
"Okay, so we would have to bring bottom surgery back by about a month, and then you could get oocyte cryopreservation done in a few weeks."
"Yeah, okay, thank you,"
"No worries, see you in a few weeks,"
"Bye,"

She hangs up, then kit walks downstairs slowly
"Uh, excuse me, Mr. Kit connor, get you arse back into bed, your ill."
"No, I wanted to see you." He pouts "I wanted hugs"
"Get upstairs then ill give you hugs"
"Fineeee" he sighs

Kit gets back in bed and I lay next to him and he rests his head on my chest,
"I love you river"
"I love you too"
"River"
"Yeah"
"Do you think that everyone will stop talking about us" he says softly
"I don't know, I might die down but we can never been too sure," I say playing with his hair
"What if we moved to the moon, we wouldn't have to deal with it anymore", he says sleepily
"I would like that"

He chuckles,
"You're the best thing that has happened to me" he whispers sleepily
"I think we are both the best thing that has happened to us" I say softly
Kit doesn't reply so I go to look at him but he's fallen asleep on me. I smile then I give him a kiss on the head before falling asleep too.