Wishpered Promises Of LoVE

The ocean of love

Azel twisted the knob of the bathroom door, expecting it to be locked from inside. But to her surprise it was not. The door opened immediately. She wanted to run inside…but suddenly she was feeling as if someone had chained both of her legs on that same spot. She was unable to move them even when she wanted to. Her throat ran dry. She was feeling so thirsty that maybe even a river would not be able to quench it. Her heart was thudding inside her ribcage at such a pace as if it would come out anytime soon.
    She fisted both her shaking hands with the hope of letting go of the nervousness she was feeling inside. "Please GOD,"was all she uttered before another shaky breath escaped her lips. "He will be fine…he will have to be,"mumbling within herself, Azel started taking steps inside the bathroom.
   She followed the sound of the running water…but suddenly her steps faltered looking at the scene in front of her. It made her heart hurt…in the worst possible way. The tears she was trying to hold onto for so long once again bubbled up in her eyes. Stopping her from seeing him by blurring her vision. But…what she had to see, she already saw it.
    There in the showering cubicle, Rehan was sitting on the floor…leaning his back against the wall. His left leg was bended, and his left hand was placed above his that knee. While the right leg was on the floor in a straight posture. He was holding something in his right hand which was placed over his chest…that something was a photo frame to be precise. His head was supported by the wall…even with closed eyes, his face looked so tense…so scared…so worried.
   He was still in his office attires except for the coat and shoes. The shower was on…drenching him fully. His perfectly ironed white shirt was now not in a recognizeable position. It was totally soaked in water, hugging his body perfectly while the top three buttons of his shirt were broken…it was wrinkled at different places. He even had his socks on…and the presence of the phone was clearly visible on his pant's pocket. It was also drenching with him…but he didn't care about any of those.
   Though he was sitting under the shower…still Azel could easily differentiate his tears from the normal water. She didn't waste another second there…walking inside the cubicle she at first turned the shower off.
   "Whoever has done this…just turn it back and get the hell out of here,"Rehan growled in anger..but his hoarse voice from crying GOD knows how long, didn't escape Azel's ears. Her heart churned in pain…at his condition.
   She knelt down on her knees beside him, with her shaky hands she cupped his both cheeks. His eyes immediately opened with a jolt. Azel's breath hitched looking at his red puffy eyes. She never saw him like this before. And just by her mere sight, the rigid posture of Rehan's softened. This time his shoulders slumped down…as if defeat. His lips wobbled like a kid…who wanted to cry his heart out. But his eyes…they forgot to blink looking in her beautiful face without a break. Rehan was actually scared to blink…what if he blinked and she disappeared from his sight?
   Though he could feel her touch yet he was not ready to take any risk. Even if this was an illusion…he still wanted to live in it as much as he could. Because it was giving him her…his love. He wanted nothing more from life…except her. What more would he need to stay alive?
   Azel stretched out her arms in front of him. As if in a cue, Rehan's eyes moved from her hands to her eyes once again. He still could not believe that..she was here in front of him. Hence it all looked like a beautiful dream for him…which he never wanted to break…never ever.
    With her eyes Azel gestured to him,"Lunatic, your Wild cat is really here with you,"she said in a mere whisper…but Rehan didn't miss any of the words she spoke. And he didn't need to be told anything more. The next moment, Rehan let his body fall in her arms…he wrapped his arms around her waist…while hers were wrapped around his neck. Keeping his head on her chest, he let his tears fall freely. The washroom which was totally silent a minute ago was now filled with the painful sobs that escaped his lips.
    Azel didn't say anything to stop him from crying…because right now, he needed to release all his emotions very badly. Bottling up all those bitter feelings would only lead him to feel more suffocated, she could not let that happen. She only started caressing his back and hair to soothe his pain a little. Her own tears cascaded down her eyes freely…yet silently. Her heart was tearing apart seeing him in pain.
   "I..I mess..ed everything…up…I again messed…up every…everything,"due to excessive crying, Rehan started hiccuping. His hold on her tightened…his fingers were clutching her dress into his fists, as his last resort. "Shh…nothing has happened. You have no fault, Love,"Azel tried to calm him down now. She could not see him blaming himself like this. It hurt her more than anything.
   "N..o, it's…it's my fault. Ev..everything is my fault. I…am a worthless man. I'm good…for nothing,"he wailed in pain…making her feel the same pain as well. Azel tried to break the hug, she wanted to talk with him now. She needed to make him understand that it was nothing like he was thinking.
  But as she tried to separate him from her to make him look at her, he panicked thinking of the worst scenarios he never wanted to even consider. "I'm not going anywhere, Re. Just let me look at you, sweetheart. I want to see you,"her words pacified his unsettled heart.
   He slowly broke the hug…letting her to see him. He still didn't dare to look at her…he had no courage to do so. He was scared…too scared about everything that had happened today…he was scared that it would affect their relationship. It's not that he didn't believe her enough, of course, he believed her with his life…even with closed eyes.
   Still some situations could just take you to your lowest point…beyond the limits you could bear things. And those situations indeed could make you feel the most insecure person in the world. At that time, Rehan was at that point. Instead of anyone else, he was disappointed in himself the most…he was insecure about himself the most.
   Azel cupped his cheeks,"Look at me, Re…look into my eyes like you always do,"her fingers were caressing his skin. Rehan lifted up his eyes, placing them on her ocean blue orbs. Those orbs which always held love…immense love for him. Today was also no exception.
    "You are the most perfect human being I have ever seen, Re. You are someone whom this world is in dire need of…because good people like you are very rare to find. You are someone whom the people around your surroundings require…since positive energy is too much needed for people to stay sane which we get from you. You are someone on whom your parents are proud of…as not everybody could grow up to be a noble soul like you. You are someone without whom your friend group…specially your best friend is incomplete…for the reason that if Re could be the silliest person in the world then it's to see his bestie happy. And you are someone for whom your wife lives…after all, you are the sole purpose of her staying alive, you are the reason she wants to live a thousand years but that is only with you, you are the motive that keeps her going on, you are the only person whom she loves insanely yet you are the only person who keeps her sane,"her words only made him fall for her more. He forgot to blink his eyes…or release the breath he was holding onto since when…that nobody knows. His heart was drumming…but now for the unexplainable bliss that only she could make him feel.
   After a little pause, Azel once again started speaking her heart out,"After playing so many important roles in so many people's lives how could you say that you are not good enough? If you are not good enough then I don't even know whether anyone even knows what good actually means to be? If you still feel that you are worthless then it's the incapability of the society, of its people who could not value the worth of a gem. It's their loss, Re…not yours. And opinion from others who don't know you from close enough, does it really matter, Re?"Her last question made his heart clench..in pain. Knowingly or unknowingly he had always let others talk to affect him…to tear his heart apart. But now that he was thinking about it. Actually was all that even worth the pain he was feeling?
   But then again, till date…who could control their own emotions? Emotions are something that is beyond anyone's reach…and controlling those is more hard than climbing Mount Everest. "B…but what about un..uncle? He…he is your Dad. His opinion regarding me…matters,"no matter how hard Rehan tried to avoid such vulnerable feelings but all these always found some way or the other to his heart. The moment he stated his inner fears…he noticed how drastically Azel's face lost the confidence she had. And he knew that he was right from the very beginning. No matter how much she tried to console him..but at the end of the day, it was her own Dad. And she could not ignore that man just to be with him…like she always did. Nor did he want her to do so.
  This time Rehan placed his right hand on her cheek…caressing it softly,"His point of view matters to me…because he is the person who matters in your life the most. Even if I forget the bitter feelings regarding the whole world holds for me..I can't let this go like that, Princess. He is your father…who is the hero of your life. And you, my love…you are my life. Every single thing that you love, is significant for me…and here we are talking about the man who brought you into this world, who gave you all the happiness of the world, who loves you the most and whom you love unconditionally.
   And today I was supposed to make everything alright…I was supposed to prove myself to him…I was supposed to make him feel my love for you…I was supposed to make him understand just how much I need you in my life…I was supposed to make him believe that I would always keep you happy…would never let the tears of sadness or pain to cloud these beautiful ocean orbs. I was supposed to make him convinced over the fact that just like you are his Princess…the same way you are my Queen. And my whole life, my whole being only belongs to you,"he took a deep breath…his voice again started cracking when he was about to trade the path towards his horrified truth once again.
   "Re…"
Azel was about to say something when Rehan shook his head…asking her to let him finish first. Azel could do nothing except for shedding the tears of anguish in silence. Rehan cupped her face, wiping her tears gently,"But look at me..what am I doing? The tears I was supposed to not get their ways to your eyes…are already cascading down. The pain I was supposed to not let you touch ever is already piercing your heart in thousands of pieces. The smile that was supposed to adorn you  always, already seems fading away from your lips. The happiness with which I was supposed to fill each and every corner of your life…seems missing. I was supposed to make your life blissful…but with me it doesn't even seem near joyous. You wanted to find yourself with me…and look, where am I taking you? You are losing yourself in finding me…in handling me..in standing beside me..in protecting me every single time.
   I was supposed to be the person you would smile a little more…you would laugh a little louder…you would stay happy always. Yet, I'm the person for whom you are only drowning in sorrows and pain. Today you are standing on the crossroads of relationships…just because of me. I put you in such a situation where you would have to choose just one person in between me and your father…I never wanted that. I never wanted to put you in such a dilemma ever. Still it's me…it's just me who caused all this chaos. Still would you say I'm not worthless? Still would you say I'm the only person who is perfect in your eyes?"Rehan asked…letting all his emotions out. He didn't hold back anything anymore. At such a point, he truly felt that…he didn't deserve her…he was not even worthy of the love she has for him.
   "Yes, still I would say that you are the only perfect man in my eyes. Still I would say you are the man who I love the most in the world. Still I would say you are nowhere near worthless. Still I would say you are a gem of a person. And still I would love you…with my whole being…with each and every fiber of my body…with every breath that I take…and with everyday I'm blessed to live, I just love only you, Re…only you,"Azel replied in a heartbeat. She didn't even need to think twice even for a second to answer his questions. That was how she loved him.
   "I had told you that I would still love you..even if you messed up. I would still love you…even if Daddy doesn't agree. I would still love you…even if the whole world goes against you…against us. I would still love you…even if you, yourself want to push me away. Did you think I just said all that for only saying?"This time Azel questioned…Rehan immediately shook his head in denial. Not even for a second he doubted her love…her passion…her devotion…her affection towards him. He could never do that.
   "Then? When I said all that..I didn't say anything just for saying, Re. I would make everything alright…but for that I need you, your support very much. Since the very beginning of our relationship, we knew that we have to face such situations some day. Yeah, we had thought that it would be the time when I would reveal our relationship to Daddy. But that time nothing of that sort happened…Daddy took things quite easily. He understood me…he understood us and our love. And so he gave us a chance to prove ourselves. But…"Azel was explaining things to him very calmly. But as she was proceeding, the guilt of how he ruined that chance due to his own foolishness was eating him up,"But I messed up with that only chance as well. I ruined all the possibilities of our being together…due to my stupidity. What do you think if you would not tell me…I would not know how you had to make uncle agree to meet with me for once? It was not easy for you.
  Yet you did everything in your control…just to make him agree. But what did I do? I not only spoiled our possibilities…but I also disrespected him by not showing up there on time. He was waiting for me…for four freaking hours. And I was there in my office, busy with meetings and projects. My forgetfulness…my own foolishness…me, I..I destroyed everything…every single thing, Azel. I could never do anything right…and with my condition I don't even see any probabilities of that as well. I AM NOTHING BUT JUST A BAD NEWS FOR YOU…FOR EVERY OTHER PERSON IN MY LIFE. Arghhh!"Rehan gritted his teeth…too angry at his own self for being the way he was. He was literally shaking in anger. And suddenly he turned around before lifting his hand to land another punch…this time on the wall behind him.
   Azel's eyes widened in horror as she could exactly calculate his next step,"Reeeee,"a terrified yell escaped her lips. She immediately put her hand in between the wall and his hand. Everything happened so fast…that none of them could comprehend things wisely. Both of them did what they felt was needed at that time. Azel released the breath when Rehan's hand didn't get hurt…anymore. Rehan's breath was still stuck in his throat thinking of the worst possibilities…if he didn't stop his hand just in time.
   He could not even imagine that horrific scenario. Rehan lowered his fisted hand that was in front of Azel's one…barely just an inch away. Even a second late, and he didn't know what would have happened. "Are you crazy? What if you get hurt?"He glared at her…his tone was harsh, showcasing how angry he was right now. He immediately took Azel's hand in his and started checking whether she was really fine or not. Though he didn't let his punch even touch her, still he wanted to make sure,"Did you get hurt? Is it hurting somewhere?"His a minute before harsh tone was now totally changed into the as usual soft tone.
  Azel shook her head,"You didn't even let your punch touch me." "What would have happened if I didn't stop it in time?"He asked, looking directly into her eyes. "You would have…and you did. You can never lay a finger on me if that has the slightest chance to hurt me. Because that's how you love me,"her words once again proved how much faith she harbored towards this man. People say it right when it's come to love…that 'Love is blind'. Because she could believe in him, with her eyes totally closed.
   "Don't love me so much, Princess. It says too much of anything hurts too bad. I don't want this love to hurt you one day,"his voice pained. He didn't know what he was saying right at the moment. But all he wanted was to always see her happy. Even if it would cost him his life. He was ready to do anything.
  "The more you get hurt GOD keeps count of all that to reward you with the same amount of happiness. And for me, my reward is you. I don't mind getting hurt a hundred times…because I know when it would be hundred and one, you would be there with me to wipe my tears, to dress my wounds and to pull me into your arms. And that's where my heaven is,"she placed her hand over his chest where his heart was. It was beating…insanely…and she knew she was the reason.
   Another tear escaped his eyes…he didn't have words to describe his feelings for this girl. How did he get this lucky? He held her that hand which she had placed on the wall with his both…so softly before placing a tender kiss on the upper side of her hand,"Never pull such stunts ever again. I cannot see you in pain."
   This time Azel held his bruised hand which he was about to hit on the wall once again,"The same goes to you. Getting angry is one thing…but if I see you hurting yourself once again…in anyway, then you will see the worst of me, Mr. Tyler,"her tone changed from being soft to authoritative.
   Rehan didn't say anything more, he pulled her in his lap while placing his head on her right shoulder,"I'm sorry for making you worried for me,"he said, rubbing his face in her shoulder blade. "Yes, you should be sorry…very sorry for how much you had scared me with all the stunts you pulled from your office till here. And I'm angry with you for ignoring me like a plague,"she scolded him, making him pout. But her words and actions were nowhere near similar. She wrapped her hands around his neck while her fingers were busy drawing invisible patterns in his shoulder blade.
   He looked towards her with his infamous puppy eyes. "Humph,"she turned her face to the other side, which caused him to look at her with a more pitiful look. From the corner of her eyes she stole a glance of his adorable face. "Pleaseeee, don't be like this. At least look at me,"he was desperate like an innocent kid, wanting nothing but to grab her attention.
   He cupped her face but she was not looking at him at all,"Humph,"she again humphed, roaming her eyes everywhere except him. "Okay, I would never..not even in my dreams would ignore you ever again, Sweetheart. Look I'm even holding my ears,"Rehan held both of his ears…nuzzling his face in her neck like a cat.
   "Okay, but I have a condition,"Azel said, making him smile..he intertwined his fingers with hers, placing a soft kiss on her fingers he asked,"Hmm..hmm,"he hummed trying to close his eyes, letting himself get wrapped with her warmth. Her honey rose scent numbed all his senses. He could breathe in her magnificent scent all day…it was just so intoxicating.
  But Azel interrupted him, she once again cupped his cheeks. Making him face her,"I'm serious, Re." "I'm serious as well, Love. I accept all your conditions if that would melt your anger,"he gave her a soft smile…but this time she didn't smile.
   "I don't want you to accept promises that you would break once you are angry. Look at yourself…what did you do with yourself? Is self harming the only solution to any problem? By doing so could you change the things that happened?"She asked him strictly…he lowered his gaze, knowing full well she was right with whatever she was stating.
  "I was just so angry with myself…I didn't know…."
  "You were angry and didn't know how to figure things out, hence you tried to harm yourself? How dare you?"Azel grabbed him by his collar…her puffy eyes were red…but now it was due to anger. She was feeling too angry at him for being this vindictive towards his own self. "Did you forget that you belong to me?"She asked him seriously…"No, how could I forget that ever?"His reply made her hiss in anger,"Then how could you forget that I hate to see you in pain? How did you hurt yourself?"
   "I'm sorry, Baby,"he whispered, it was almost inaudible. "Don't you dare baby me now. Things don't work like this. You have to remember that you belong to me…and you, yourself don't have that much right on you which I have. So, you cannot do anything reckless with yourself. I would not allow that. I'm a very possessive person when it comes to you,"she said in one go…his lips stretched in a smile hearing her.
   "And I love your this possessiveness regarding me, my Baby,"he kept his hand on her nape, pulling her towards himself. He placed a soft kiss on her forehead…following her nose tip,"I love you so much, my honey bunch."
  "I said don't placate me now like this,"she grumbled yet did nothing to stop him from loving her. "And why is that?"Rehan pulled her in his hug…pressing her head in his chest. "Because my anger is melting down. But I want to stay very angry with you for treating yourself like that,"she wrapped her arms around his torso, snuggling in his chest.
   He caressed her hair placing another kiss at the crown of her head,"I'm sorry, Love. And this is going to be the first as well as last time. I promise you, sweetheart from today onwards I will try my best to keep my anger in check…and I will never harm myself again in anger. That's what you were about to put forward as your condition to not stay angry at me, right?"She nodded her head at his question. "Then so be it. I will always take care of myself along with you,"his last words made her giggle.
   "So, did my angry bird's anger melted yet or not?"He rocked her body in his arms…she giggled more at his antics,"Can't you tell?"Her question made him smile,"I can. But now I'm sad as someone still didn't reply with a 'I love you too',"he sighed dramatically,"Nobody loves me, huh,"hearing him, she bit her lips to stop herself from bursting into laughter at his drama,"Aww…I love you too, my drama…"Azel's words lit up Rehan's face as a wide smile made its way to his lips. But in all that he didn't notice the long pause she took,"Queen,"as soon as she finished the last word…Rehan's mind joined everything together.
   "Wild cattttttt,"he whined like a kid who was very much annoyed by his friend. And that was it…she could not hold onto her laughter looking at his comical expressions…which eventually made him smile too. After all, their happiness resided in each other…since forever.
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Hey dearies,
  So sorry for not updating for two days. Actually I had an exam for which I was busy taking the preparations and all.
   So here was a long chapter…hope all of you liked it. Please do tell me your views regarding their relationship. And please don't get angry with me, my cuties. I'll compensate for my absence. Hehe.
  Love you all, sweeties. Stay safe and tuned.