Wishpered Promises Of LoVE

King of Silence, Queen of Chaos

Diaan dragged Fayza inside his cabin…it needs no telling that he was getting so many weird glances from people around…his fellow colleagues, nurses and patients. Some were even throwing their scary glares at the innocent boy…who might not be that pitiable to others after all.
     In his cabin,
  Diaan left Fayza's mouth and turned around to latch the door of his room. With the click sound the door got locked. And the very next moment, Diaan's front hit the door with a thud,"Ouch,"he yelped in pain when Fayza twisted his right hand at his back while her left hand was holding his one. With her 5 feet 8 inches height, she easily towered over Diaan's body.
    "Why the hell did you bring me here? That too like that?''She asked him…angry enough to strike a punch or two on his stomach right at that moment. "GOD! First leave me, you silly…you are going to break my hand,"It was now Diaan's turn to tussle his heart and soul…only to get free from her solid grip.
   Fayza clicked her tongue,"That is what I wanted to do right now,"she said…ever so casually as if chit chatting with him regarding what she wanted to have for her lunch. Nonetheless she left his hand, not wanting to inflict too much pain upon him. Why did her feelings differ when it came to him? Why did she always want to be the softest person for this guy? She never really got the answers to her own queries.
   Hearing her, his eyes dilated at her nonchalant attitude…how could she act so calm, that too just after letting out such a minacious statement. Diaan turned towards her, making her notice his pale…fear stricken face.
  "WHAT?"He almost yelled…panic crawling to his heart. He gulped in saliva,"Y…you are scary, talking about breaking someone's hand as if telling him your hobbies,"his voice shook along with his legs. Fayza felt like laughing at his reactions…no, he indeed was the most innocent person she had ever come across till date. How could someone be so gullible?
   "Of course, I am. What do you take me for hmm?"She further teased him, having the greatest fun time of her life. But the poor boy was having his horrific moments. "I'm a mafia queen after all…so breaking, fighting, killing all these are kind of my hobbies, you know?"Fayza said with an attitude as if she is really involved in the mafia world. If Diaan was scared earlier, then he was going to have a heart attack now. His eyeballs seemed to bulge out of its sockets,"Y..yo…you…wh..what?"He stuttered…not even able to form a proper word.
   And that was it!
   Fayza could no longer pull his legs as she bursted into a fit of laughter. It was after such a long time she was laughing…as in laughing so genuinely…so freely. Heck! She didn't even remember the last time she had even smiled heartily.
  "She looked so ethereal,"Diaan's heart whispered, totally forgetting about all incidents from earlier. Why not? When she would be in front of him…how could it be possible for him to concentrate on anything else that's not related to her?
   He noticed every small detail as if printing her image on his mind. How cutely her eyes crinkled when she laughed…how adorably her cheeks turned a light shade of pink…how tears glistened her lashes due to excessive laughter. Her melodious giggles were music to his ears. He forgot to blink his own eyes, getting lost in her innocent beauty. He could observe her like this the whole day, and he still would never get tired of watching her beautiful expressions. 
   "Why are you so cute?"As if laughing that adorably was not enough for Fayza to enchant Diaan…hence to add more on his list, she pinched both of his cheeks…playfully. And there goes his heart,"Bam…bam,"beating on his ribcage at the highest rate. He was sure about the fact that if someone did his electrocardiogram test right now…then the reports would surely showcase a series of abnormal rhythms of his heart. And things didn't stop there only. His ear tips along with his cheeks shaded red…giving him the looks of a ripe beetroot. The corners of his lips stretched out in a mesmerizing smile making him look more handsome.
    Diaan could not help but scratch his neck…feeling shy at her antics. And Fayza would not lie to herself but her heart really skipped a beat…or was it two? She didn't have that count…because all her attention was grabbed by his magnificent beauty. He is one of those few people in her life that she wanted to protect, cherish and be with for the rest of her life. She never realized how easily she always felt comfortable around him. She didn't need to be someone else except herself, whenever she was with him. In front of him, she could behave like the craziest person being yet he would never judge her…not even a little. Though it was not a long time, they have known each other…still he would always make her feel as if she knew him since ages, as if it's been decades since he knew her. Why were things always so different when it came to him? Even Rehan could never make her feel the things Diaan made her experience.
    "Where are you so lost?"Diaan snapped his fingers in front of her, when he noticed her being absent minded. It was then Fayza came out of her trance, blinking her eyes several times to understand her current situation. Her previous thoughts had really muddled up her emotions…and she could not figure out why she was feeling what she was feeling. Even more burning question was 'Why him?' He was supposed to be her friend…her only friend.
    "No, Fayza…get a grip on yourself,"she cleared her throat, gaining his attention. "Jokes apart, why didn't you let me tell everything to….."
   "Because you cannot, Fayza. You should not. Az…she would start hating you then,"Diaan stated, Fayza was a bit baffled not understanding what Diaan actually meant,"It's natural, Diaan. Who would like a girl like me? I love the same man as she does, despite knowing he is committed. And I didn't stop at that only rather, I tried to separate her from him as well…so receiving hate from her is quite obvious. I'm the one at fault, hence I deserve it. And I'm ready for all the insults she would throw at my face,"her composed words broke something…something very sensitive inside Diaan. Perhaps it was his heart…or maybe his hope.
    "But I'm not ready…I would not be able to tolerate it if someone would insult you. I would not be able to bear it if Az would curse you. I..I just want to protect you from everything and everyone in the world. Is it…is it very wrong for me to feel for you like that? Am I doing wrong by trying to cover for you…when I know what you tried to do with my sister? GOD! Why are things like this?"Diaan left out a scream…a scream that nobody but his own heart could hear. His soul was weeping, feeling the immense pain…yet his eyes were dry. Not even a single droplet of tear escaped from his gray orbs.
   Gulping down the dried lump in his throat, he opened his "I told you you cannot do that. I would not let you. Please I'm begging you just stay away from them. And it will be better if we stop meeting each other as well. Anyway, you have acquired your goal…so I would not be of any use to you in the future. Let's just stop things right here…I don't want to be in any kind of touch with you. And don't try to act as my friend now. Because I'm done playing that game with you,"Fayza's head snapped at his direction…she could not believe her ears. Immediately her eyes turned glossy before tears cascaded down her eyes like a waterfall.
   Diaan turned around to hide the salty water drops that fell from his eyes without any restraint. "Do…do you think I..I am acting to be your friend…so that I…could use you later on?"Fayza's voice came out hoarsely. The cracked tone made him aware of her tears. He felt as if someone just sliced his heart into two halves. Hurting her like this was too difficult for him, that mere words could ever explain. He, himself was burning in pain, knowing he was bruising her heart by his harsh words.
   But it was necessary…necessary to do for her own good. Her staying close to him means her secret of separating Azel and Rehan would come out some day or the other. And if that ever happened, then no-one would be able to save Fayza. Diaan would somehow handle Azel, but Rehan…that guy would surely destroy Fayza for the things she tried to do.
   Hence, keeping all his emotions at bay, Diaan nodded his head. He still could not turn towards her. He just could not muster up the courage to do so. "Great!"Fayza chuckled humorlessly…staring at his back…longingly. "If I'm the one using you, then why are you showing your back?"With that, she abruptly stood in front of him. He was startled at her sudden intrusion. He looked at her with his doey eyes. On his alarmed face, what caught her attention was the moistness of his cheeks and lashes…the redness of his eyes…the pain that was reflecting in his face, the same pain that she was feeling inside.  
    "Please don't push me away from your life, Diaan. I…I really don't want to lose you as well. I'm tired…fighting alone with everything…I'm tired of suppressing everything inside me…I'm tired of staying alone, Diaan. I also want to have someone on whom I could rely on…a friend with whom I would share my anything and everything…a friend who would take care of me when I'm sick…a friend who would console me when I feel the whole world might cave in…a friend who would wipe my tears even before they could fall down my eyes…a friend who would make me laugh at my worst…a friend who would always have my back…a friend that all the people have. I also want such a friend, Diaan. Yo…you have so many people in your life…your mom, dad, brothers, sisters, uncle, aunt, such a big family…you have so many friends. But I..I don't have anyone, Diaan…I don't have anyone. All the people I love, they always abandon me, Diaan. They leave me to be on my own. In this vast world…I don't have a single soul that I could call my own. Am I…that…that bad? Why do none of you want to be in my life? Is…is it only my fault that I'm like this? Have I been like this since forever? Was…was I born as a villain? Everyone of you only judges me, but…did any of you ever ask me why I'm like this? Why…."
   She could not complete her sentence, before that her head was pressed on his chest. He hugged her tightly…he could no longer hear her…he was feeling as if someone was ripping his heart out of his chest. He was crying heavily…so was she!
   "I…I hate you. You…you are…also like her. If…if you want to…leave me…then why did you…make me feel different? Why…why did you treat me the way you never treated any of your other patients? Why did you call me as your friend..if you wanted to break it? Why don't you believe me…that I'm genuinely sorry for what I did? Why?"She kept on throwing her fists at his back….hitting him non-stop. But he didn't say anything…instead let her express her emotions. Those emotions that she had been bottling up inside her…for years.
   He didn't know what had happened to her…but after this, he mentally noted down to ask her everything. He needed to know the whole matter…as soon as possible. After sometime her all protests for breaking out of the hug, died down. But her painful whimpers…those only kept on increasing. Her state started to scare him…only GOD knows what she had suffered for her to be like this? Each tear left her eyes, wounded his heart. The tears of anguish left his eyes as well…but the only difference they had in between was…he was the king of silence while she claimed her throne of chaos .
   "I would never leave you…never ever,"he whispered…not sure whether she heard it or not. "I would never let you go..not now…not ever,"she mumbled…not wanting to express it out loud.