Wishpered Promises Of LoVE

Why me?

Who doesn't like the pitter-patter sounds of the rain? And it becomes incredibly awesome if you get to enjoy it while you are at your home, sitting in the comfortable couch of your room with a steaming hot coffee in your hands. 

  It was just like another rainy night…but not for all the people I guess. Because even in that heavy downpour a car was seen moving fast on the almost vacant road. The hand of the speedometer was continuously jerking in between '100 to 120 mph'. 

  Though it was going at a great speed, one can say that the driver of the car was a skilled person by the way the car was being driven so smoothly. The owner of the car seemed to be in a rush..by the way the car was moving so rashly. 

    The song 'I hate U, I love U-by Gnash" was playing in the music player of the car…as if mirroring the pain of the listener more prominently.

  "Feeling used, but I'm still missing you

And I can't see the end of this

Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips

And now all this time is passing by

But I still can't seem to tell you why

It hurts me every time I see you

Realize how much I need you

… I hate you, I love you

I hate that I love you

Don't want to, but I can't put nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her……."more tears gushed out from Fayza's eyes blurring her vision totally. The rain was pouring down more heavily now as if the sky was also  crying it's heart out just like her. 

  Fayza's heart clenched more in pain as the lyrics drummed against her ears…those lines of the song seemed to only depict her current situation. 

    "Why…why me? Why..it's always me?"she screamed, hitting her both hands on the steering wheel..not caring about the blood that was coming out of her already wounded hands. The white bandage on her hand colored in red…while blood dripped through it. 

   But did she feel any pain? No, she didn't. Because it was nothing in front of the pain her heart was bearing through.

   "Because you are the unlucky one. The one who nobody will ever want,"she once again recalled the venomous words from her so-called father. No matter how much she always tries to avoid these words to get into her head…but at the end of the day it always finds some way or the other to creep into her mind. Why was she this pathetic? 

   A humorless chuckle left her lips as she didn't even know what she was feeling inside now. But the organ inside her chest called heart was hurting…too much. She really had no way to get rid of this disgusting life, did she? 

   Her eyes landed towards the windscreen of her car where the windshield wiper was continuously doing the work of wiping the rain. If only there would have been a wiper in her heart too…for wiping away this pain…this constant dreadful pain. 

   "She is my wife, Azel Rehan Edward,"the words that Rehan said in the afternoon again rang in her head…making her hands tighten their clutches on the steering wheel. 

   Should she just end her life? Will her pains and sufferings end with her then? Will anybody even remember her if she would not be in this world anymore to breathe the same air as them?