Wishpered Promises Of LoVE

Nightmare or Flashback??

Author's POV:
   "Nooooooooooo, mommmmmmmm,"Rehan scaremed his lungs out...he abruptly sat up on the bed.
    He looked here and there to find himself in his bed...in his own room. He looked towards his hand to find the cut was gone...in fact there was not even a single scratch on any of his hands. But he clearly remembers how he had broken the mirror...there were several deep cuts just awhile ago. But now nothing was there..making him to only realize that it was a dream.. just a bad dream.
  But it was not enough to make him feel better. That dream felt so real..and it was so heartwrenching to see a happy family get destroyed like that. He saw that family and all their dreams to get burned into ashes. And what did he do? He could do nothing except for looking at them....he could only felt helpless...but he could not help them. Why he was this helpless?
    This thought made him cry more. Tears were streaming down his eyes...without any sign to stop anytime soon. He was unable to control the sobs that were escaping his lips. He was feeling horrible...he remembers the whole dream so clearly. He could still visualize everything in front of his eyes.
   And it was certainly not helping him to calm down...his heart was thudding against his ribcage. While the pain in his chest was getting more severe with the passing time.
   He was feeling as if he will die getting a heart attack. He tried to take a few deep breaths...but no! He was unable to even do that.
   On top of that, the throbbing headache was making things more difficult for him...it felt as if someone just hit his head with a brick. He clutched onto his hair...grinding his teeth, Rehan was trying his best to control the pain, which seemed of no use.
   Slowly his whole body was getting numb...making his eyelids to get heavier. He let his body loose...as his almost unconscious body fell on the bed. With the little bit of energy left in him, he curled himself up...just like a ball..shutting his eyes tightly he laid there like an almost dead man.
   At that very moment, the door of his bedroom opened as Azel was seen rushing inside the room. She was out of breath due to running so much.
   She looked here and there to switch on the light...because things were hardly seen on the room. Only a dimmed moonlight was coming through the balcony.
   She switched on the light as soon as she found the switch board...but what she saw next,churned her heart in pain.
    Her eyes glistened as she saw him writhing in pain. He was shivering badly as well....while it was clear that he was saying something...but what? Azel could not quite understand that. It was barely audible to hear.
   She ran towards him as the murmurings of his became audible now,"Pl...please...please do...don't go. Mom, don't go...please. Pl...please don't...don't le...leave me alone. I...I am scared. D..don't go."
    Without any delay, she pulled his body upwards...securing him in her arms,"Shh...everything will be fine, Love. Nobody is going anywhere,"she rubbed his arms to warm up his body which seemed too cold right at that moment.
   He snuggled more...getting her warmth. Clutching onto her, he again started repeating the same words as before,"Don't...don't go...please. Don't leave me...alone,"he sobbed hard.
   Azel could not hold back her own tears that fell down her eyes silently...she pulled him more closer to her,"I...I am not leaving, Baby. I would never do that,"she tried to console him.
    Hearing her voice, Rehan slowly opened his eyes...although it felt the most hard task for him to do at this moment, he still wanted to see her.
   "Wild cat..,"he wishpered...his voice sounded too tired...too pained.
  "Yo...you came.."he tried to smile a bit..but the smile came out more pained than a happy one.
   It was hurting her beyond anyone's imagination to see him in such a condition.
   "Ye...yes, Love,"she tried her best to not let him know that she was also crying. But who was she kidding? He knew her more than his ownself.
   He slowly lifted up his head to look at her. His head was feeling hell heavy for him to carry it's weight...and he knew it would hurt him more if he put more pressure now.
  But nothing mattered when it comes to his Wild cat. He needed to see her right now. And he was ready to bear any kind of pain for that.
   "I...don't like to see...you in tears,"he uttered with a great difficulty as he himself was still sobbing...hearing him, more tears came out of Azel's eyes. She pressed his head with her chest...as silent tears were leaving their traces on her cheeks. 
  "Shh...I am fine. I am with you...always, Re. Please...don't cry,"Azel rubbed his back to calm him down a little.
    Rehan wrapped his arms around her...though he could not hug her tightly. He didn't have that energy.
   "Please don't leave me...ever, Wild cat. Always keep me in your...arms...like this. Always...let me stay with you...like this...ple...please,"he pleaded her...like a little kid.
   "I am always with you, silly boy. I will always be with you. I am never going to leave you ever...nor will I let anyone else to take you away from me. If needed, I will hide you in my arms like this...but I won't lose you ever,"Azel's words soothed his aching heart.
   Rehan cried his heart out...into her arms. And Azel let him do that...not interrupting him...because she knew whatever he saw...it horrified him to the core. And he needed to release his emotions right now. She didn't ask him anything about the dream...to be more precise the nightmare...she just does not want to trigger him more than he already is. She knows he will tell her himself, when he will feel it right.
    "It...it hurts, Wild Cat. I...I saw a dream. It...it was about a...a family...a happy family,"Rehan said...making Azel to clutch onto him more. She knew where it was going...she was well aware about the dream he saw.
   She is now sure...that what she was scared of...it only happened. He saw that dream...once again.
  But she let him speak out whatever he saw and felt...like she always does.
  "You...you know, th...they were a family of three. The couple had a son...who was maybe 4 to 5 years old. I saw various moments of them...it...it all seemed like as if I...I was watching a movie...which I watched thousand of times before.
   You know Wild Cat, I felt a very weird type of connecton with them...it seemed that all of them were very...very close to my heart. And it felt as if I knew everything beforehand that was going to happen with them...but still I could do nothing...nothing to save them. They...they died in front of my eyes...and I...I was just crying...writhing in pain seeing them like that.
   It felt as if I was feeling their pain..I could actually feel their pain. I..don't know how?
   But...but I felt...I felt I lost someone very close to my heart with them,"he narrated things he saw in the dream...while he cried more in her arms.
   Azel closed her eyes feeling his pain,"Because they are really your close ones, Re. They are none other than your family members. The boy you saw...is you. The lady you saw...is your mother...your birth mother.
   The baby you are talking about is...is your sister...who could not even open her eyes to see the world. She could never know how much of a wonderful brother she has.
   And even after knowing everything, you could never know...that you lost so much things in your life.
   You lost your mom...your unborn sister...your memories...your childhood. Your whole life has changed from the day, you woke up at the hospital and got to know about their death.
   It completely shattered you into pieces...the boy who was the most notorious one...who could never stay silent for a minute...who could never sit at one place patiently...became totally quiet. All day you used to murmur things on your own...you used to talk with yourself, thinking that you're talking with your mom.
   Your dad who luckily got saved in the accident tried his best to get you out of the trauma. But it seemed you didn't want to get out of it. You didn't try to get out of it ever.
   Instead, you shut the world out...and the world shut you as well.
    Your sudden changed behavior...made you a laughing stock in front of your so called friend's group who started bullying you. And as if it was not enough, your PTSD took a vile turn...where you forgot certain things from your life...not only that you forgot how your mom looked like.
   The memories from 1year before the accident till the accident got totally erased from your mind along with your mother's face and your baby sister. You had a high fever where you were unconscious for days.
   And finally when you woke up in the hospital, you were not the old Rehan anymore. Rather you were a new Rehan who was shy, introvert...and who didn't have any memory about his mother. When you were admitted in the hospital, the nurse who took care of you like a mother...you took her to be your mom.
   The situation compelled two strangers to stay under one roof...your condition compelled your dad and Ms. Ava to take a decision which they had never thought of taking ever.
   They both got married...just because of you. Though till this date, they were never more than just good friends. They still love their deceased partners. But from that day onwards, not only your mom's face changed into your memories but also Mrs. Ava Tyler replaced Mrs. Ana Tyler in your life as your mom.
   But Mrs. Ava Tyler always loved you as if you were her own son. She never let you know that she was not your biological mother. It's true, when they say that not every woman who gives birth can called be a mother. A mother is she, who can love a child as her own even if the truth is not like that.  
    And since then on...you sometimes forget things, places, dates...even peoples as well,"a shaky breath left her mouth as she thought about the whole past of Rehan...which only a few people knew.
   "Shh...Re, it...it was just...a dream...a bad dream,"she lied to him...when she knew that it was not. It would be a lie if she said that her heart didn't shook telling him such a big lie...but what were she supposed to do?
   Since then his mental health never seemed to improve much. The doctor has strictly prohibited them to not talk regarding his past life in front of him ever. Because anything that has the slightest chance to trigger his emotions might be fatal for his health...or even life.
   "But...but, Wild cat...what kind of a dream is this? It...it was so horrible to see them ending up in that way.
   You know, the couple was going to be parents once again. The lady had an unborn child growing inside her. All of them were so happy and excited to welcome that little angel.
   But everything got finished...that one accident destroyed everything, Wild cat. Why did it happen? Why they could not get the happiness? What was their fault? What was that innocent soul's fault who didn't even come to this world?
   Why did I even see that dream when I could do nothing to save them? Why?"Rehan kept on mumbling whatever he felt...while crying and mourning for the family...that was only his.
   Here, Azel could do nothing except for shedding her tears in silence. She does not know how to console him...what will she say that will ease his pain a little?
She herself doesn't know what these dreams mean? What are these sign?
Why does it keep happening with him again and again?
   Why does he see this dream time and again? Why? Why can't GOD just erase those memories from his mind completely? Why all those events keep haunting him in his dreams..when he already forgot about those? Why life is being this unfair with him? What is his fault? Why he has to suffer this much? And why she does not have anything to do for him...that will make him feel a bit better? Why she only has to see him suffer? Why? Why there are so many why's in their lives? When all of their miseries will end? She doesn't know...anything about all these.
   It was true that he doesn't remember them..but that cannot deny the fact they were his family members...and in some way or the other...Azel knew it better that it was not just a simple nightmare...rather it was a flashback...a flashback of his that past which nobody wanted him to know.

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