Ambivalence || TAEJIN

Pain

Heya lovelies ❤️❤️ I hope you all are doing great, sorry for updating late. My first term exams were going on so couldn't update:⁠-⁠\:⁠-⁠\
But from now on will try to give speedy updates like before.
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Seokjin's POV

I just stood still, I knew this was coming, then why did I even do it. I don't know how long I was like this but I got back to my senses when my phone started ringing, I got a bit scared by suddenly hearing the ringtone. I tried to reach for my phone with my shaky hands and tried to receive it, it was an unknown number, I don't know whether I should recieve it or not, I was battling with the decision when the call ended. I kept my phone on the living room, and made myself stable. I need a shower so that I can think straight and come up with something, I locked all the doors and windows of my apartment, and then took my towel and went to shower.

When I came back after showering, suddenly I heard loud banging noise from the door, my heart was beating terribly fast, the banging started getting louder, no no I cannot be scared I have to think clearly, I ran to the kitchen and grabbed the kitchen knife, if anything happens I will fight with that, I heard the front door being opened, I just stood in the kitchen, when I saw the shadow of someone approaching, it's looking somewhat familiar.

I started walking towards him, before they attack me I have to attack them. But when I was going to attack that person, I saw it was my Kookie, seeing me holding a knife his expression changed and out of nowhere he hugged me. I was shocked and the kitchen knife just fell from my hand. But this hug I needed it, I just hugged him back and rested my head on his shoulder, lifting my head I saw behind him, Jimin, Hoba and Yoongi and also Taehyung, what the hell he is doing here, didn't he go home, I noticed that their expressions a bit worried.

Jungkook pulled from the hug and asked me,

" Hyung,are you okay??" His voice a bit worried.

I decided not to tell them anything, I don't want them to hang along with my problems and be worried and moreover I don't wanna risk their life with my problems, I will sort them out on my own. I just nodded my head in response. I was going to walk out from there when I heard Taehyung saying,

"Then why were you not opening the fucking door!!!" Everyone was shocked by his certain change of behaviour.

" And what the hell were you doing with a fucking kitchen knife" saying that he picked up the kitchen knife which was lying on the floor.

" Answer me jin what were you doing!!" he was standing now few inches away from me, don't know when did he come so close to me. He jerked my shoulder trying to make me answer his question, but I won't answer anything.

His expression changed and he just slowly placed his hand on my cheeks, I just looked at the people behind us, they were just staring at us.

" Jin" I looked at him, when I heard him call my name softly.

" I know your hyung is important, but please jin don't take any wrong decision, know that there are people for whom you are important. " he said again.

Wait, why he is suddenly speaking of hyung. What happened to him. I just glanced at all of them, all were looking down and then asked Taehyung

"What happened to hyung??? I asked him.

His expression changed, as if he was surprised by my question, he then looked at me and asked,

" You don't know??"

In a whispery tone I said to him, "No"

He removed his hand from my cheek and glanced at the people present there, why do they seem so worried suddenly, and what has fucking happened with my hyung, I gulped and tried asking them with my now shaky voice,