Ambivalence || TAEJIN

MY PLACE

Time Skip: Next day

Seokjin's POV

I tried opening my eyes when I felt a ray of light hitting my face. "Didn't I pull the curtains yesterday and close the windows?" I thought, and tried stretching my hands to feel a bit refreshing. But I couldn't, because something - or should I say, someone - was holding my body too tightly.

Sleep flew away from my body, and at instance I opened my eyes to see that my legs were entangled with someone. My eyes moved up, and I was shocked to see where my right hand was currently. I tried moving it, and that's when I felt a movement beside me, and someone's head landed on my shoulder.

I moved my hand from there and looked up, that's when I started getting all the flashbacks of the last day's events. A blush slowly crept onto my face after remembering the incidents that occurred yesterday.

I know I shouldn't be feeling this, it's wrong. But everyone deserves a second chance. My and Taehyung's bond from the beginning was more like we were both fighting a war, where we both couldn't tolerate each other's existence. But now, I don't know what to say, because I am myself confused.

But I know somethings in my life are never meant to be. And I know that after knowing my past, he - like him - will go far away from me and my life. And also, my dad...

I was broken from my thoughts when I felt a soft hand on my cheeks. I felt chills all over my body just by a simple touch. And when my eyes met those same doe brown eyes, I felt as if the world had again stopped around us.

He slowly started leaning forward, but then I noticed a familiar figure behind us on the rooftop of the next building with a camera in hand.

I pushed Taehyung away and stood up. His expression changed a bit by my sudden action. I started dusting my clothes, and when I was going to walk out from there, Taehyung grabbed my wrist and asked in his hoarse, still sleepy voice, "Where are you going in such a hurry?"

"I should go," I said hesitantly, and removed my hand from his grip.

"Let me drop you, then," he said, this time flashing his boxy smile.

"NO!" I shouted at him.

"It's not needed," I said.

"I will go by myself," I said to him.

"Why may I know?" he asked, raising his eyebrows and with a hard look on his face.

"I-it's ju-ust th-h-at," I stuttered, before I could complete my sentence. He had already grabbed my wrist again and made me walk out with him.

I don't know why I didn't want to protest, because somewhere I knew maybe this was the last time I was spending with him.

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We are currently sitting inside the cab that Taehyung booked. Obviously, we didn't have our car because of yesterday's incident, so here we are. I was looking outside the window when I suddenly felt a soft touch from someone familiar to me, which made me feel butterflies in my tummy.

I just looked at the fingers intertwined with mine, which Taehyung had intertwined a few seconds ago, and then my gaze went to his eyes. That's when I felt my heart beating faster again. Staring at his eyes always makes me feel things that I never want to feel for him.

I want to remove my fingers, but I can't because I want to enjoy this moment with him. I know I may sound selfish, but as I said, my life is not like other people's. I know what I feel for Taehyung is not friendship and obviously not enmity, but I can't express myself because I don't want him to be in danger for me.

I don't know what he feels for me, but I know this much. What I feel for him is genuine. I was broken from my trance of thoughts when I felt a soft hand on my cheeks. I didn't even realize that I had started shedding tears, thinking, 'When did I become so attached to you, Taehyung?'

He just rubbed the tears off my face and then cupped my face with both of his hands and asked calmly, "What happened?" I didn't say anything to him, because I didn't know what to say. I have so many things running through my mind, but I can't express them.

He didn't ask me any more questions and slowly pulled me towards him. My head rested on his chest, making me hear his fast heartbeat clearly, and his one hand rubbed my back, trying to calm me down, while the other remained intertwined with mine.

I don't know for how long we were in that position, but we got back to our senses when we heard the driver calling us for payment, telling us that we had reached our destination. I wanted to pay for myself, but Taehyung didn't let me.

"So, you should go now, I guess," I said to him, biting my bottom lip in nervousness.

"Why are you kicking me out of your side since morning?" he whined, purring his lips. I chuckled a bit, seeing his actions, and then said, "Fine, tag along with me, then."

His eyes glowed, and he started following me to my door. When we finally reached my door, I was going to open it when Taehyung grabbed my hand and pushed me against the wall beside my door.

"What are you doing?" I whisper-yelled at him. Is this guy nuts or something? First, he was the one who ignored me for God knows whatever reason, then showed me his weakness yesterday, and now what the hell is he trying to do?

He just smirked and said in his deep, slurry voice, "Completing my business, which I couldn't complete earlier." He started leaning forward; I wanted to push him, but instead, I closed my eyes. It felt like I was getting déjà vu.

And after a few seconds, I felt a soft touch on my cheeks. I slowly started opening my eyes, and they locked with his brown, doe-like ones. Our faces were just some inches apart. Both our eyes went to our lips.

I slowly connected my hands around his neck and closed my eyes. I heard him chuckling a bit, and I felt his breath near my lips. And that's when... we heard someone clearing their throat behind us.

I automatically opened my eyes, and so did Taehyung. We once looked at each other and then turned behind to see it was an uncle from my neighborhood. The look he was giving us - my god, I will never forget. To clear the atmosphere, I and Taehyung greeted him, "Good morning, uncle."

He didn't greet us back, though, and gave us a weird look before walking away. We both sighed in relief.

After that, I hit Taehyung's arm hard and said, being annoyed, "For you, this all happened."

"Nothing only happened, and I was just completing my unfinished work," he spoke innocently

"Yeah, go now, or else Yoongi will be worried about you."

"What about my unfinished work?"

"Will you go?" This time, I had to shout at him.

He just pouted his lips and said, "But before that..." Again, he started coming closer.

"Not anymore, Taehyung," I warned him.

He just pulled me towards him and gave me a kiss on my cheek and ran away.

"Yaahhhh!!!! Kim Taehyung, you are such a tease!" I shouted to nobody present there and chuckled a bit at my actions.

Then, I opened my door, closed it, and realized that nobody was home. Maybe they were at Jungkook's or Jimin's place. I was going to take off my shoes when I felt a ding on my phone. Thinking it might be Jungkook or Hoseok, I checked it, and that's when my world turned upside down, making me realize my actual place.

Unknown

Don't you think you are flying too much Kim Seokjin
Be in your limit orelse it wouldn't take much time for you to realise your place

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Hello lovelies ❤️❤️, I hope you all are doing good, first of all I am extremely sorry that I couldn't update my books last month because of some personal issues and above that my health too was not on my side. And secondly thank you for 5k reads, words are really not enough to thank you all 😭😭😭... Love you all a lot💖💖....