Ambivalence || TAEJIN

Confession

Heya lovelies, I hope so you all are doing good 😊.
I am really sorry that I couldn't give update about this book for some time being. My schedules been messed up for the past few days. But still I will try to update whenever I get time.
Next, I want to thank one of my closest friend for helping me in writing some of the parts in this chapter. Without her it would be really hard. So thank you my dear friend❤️❤️.

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Happy reading:⁠^⁠)

Warning ⚠️: Long ass chapter ahead 😪🥱

"What the fuck" Jin mumbled under his breath and rushed towards the door, now banging it hard and screaming for help.

On the other hand, Taehyung just stood still, processing the event which just happened. Him and Jin locked in a library. He glanced at Jin, the other seemed annoyed, obviously why would he like to stay in the same place as Taehyung, that also alone. A lump started forming in his throat but he gulped it down. If staying with him makes him uncomfortable then it's better he helps him. He knows it's Yoongi's doing, he is familiar with the university's security. But he shouldn't have done it, cause Taehyung can feel that him and Jin can never be in the same page again and it was proved soon.

Taehyung started approaching towards the door where Jin was standing, but as he was drunk he tripped in his own leg. Jin sensing someone behind him, turned back. And the next thing he knew his back hitting hard against the door, and a drunk man in his arms. Their eyes connected. The same eyes which once reflected hatred, and disgust is now replaced by a sense of guilt, sadness , sorrow and hopelessness. Jin doesn't know why he was holding Taehyung's arms tightly. He doesn't know why he is even allowing the male to touch him.

Taehyung's hand rested on Jin's waist securely. If not for Jin maybe the latter would have broken his face. Jin held him at the correct time, but in order to save Taehyung he has hurt himself. But when their eyes met for the first time after those months, he saw a look of concern in Jin's eyes. A sense of worry plastered.
'Is he worried for him?' Taehyung asked himself. And Taehyung just looking at Jin's eyes he fell more for Jin at that moment, staring deep in those eyes.

Both stayed the same way. Looking at each other closely after months trying to read what the other might have gone through. Seconds, minutes, hours passed, they don't know for how long were they standing, looking intently at each other, no exchange of words but just silence. But still it felt the two were interacting, because this time the silence didn't make them uncomfortable but helped them to understand each other a bit.

Suddenly Taehyung felt a certain urge to ask forgiveness to jin, so he decided to break the silence and whispered softly, " Jin I am sorry" saying that he tried to reach for Jin's hand. But he couldn't because the next thing that happened was that he was pushed hard by Jin, making Taehyung to almost fall. But he managed to balance himself. And glanced at Jin confusingly.

"Jin?"

" Don't Kim Taehyung. Don't."
The bubble in which Jin was just broke making him come back to reality. Making him realise his relation with Taehyung. Making him have a flashback of the night which he wanted to make special for both of them. But that night turned to a nightmare instead.

He glanced at Taehyung, he has sensed in his breath that he is drunk. Don't know why but he felt sympathetic for the latter. But still he cannot be so easy on him. He closed his eyes and breathed in. He cannot be so weak, he cannot fall for this guy again, who doesn't even know to trust the one he loves. He is no different from the ones who have hurt him in the past.

Taehyung just stood and noticed how Jin has pushed him again. When he thought he made a little step closer to Jin, he was dragged back to where he was before. He smiled bitterly and looked at the other, he was going to spell something but was cut off by Jin's sharp words,