Letters From the Lost

~Max~

TW: Smut

I stood in the bathroom staring into the mirror. My reflection disgusted me. I felt so disgusting, but Noah being so proud of me for eating just made up for it. I had gained fifteen pounds. I could feel tears burning my eyes. I looked away from the mirror, pulled my shirt back on, and walked back to my room. Noah was pulling on a pair of black skinny jeans. My cheeks started burning red. Noah turned around and smiled. "Oh, baby, what's wrong?" Sometimes it sucked that he could read my emotions so well.

I walked Noah, not saying anything. I tried to force away the memory of my shirtless body in the mirror. I smiled wider, "Nothing is wrong."

Noah put his hand on my cheek, "I think I know what's wrong." Noah grabbed my hand and pulled me to the bathroom. He pulled my shirt off and made me look at my reflection. His arms warped around my waist and held me close. "You're perfect," He whispered. "Your whole body is perfect, there is nothing wrong with gaining a little weight. You're healthy and that's all I care about, as long as you're healthy I don't care about you having a bit of meat on your bones. It's okay to eat, but it's not okay to starve yourself to death. You were getting physically sick, but I'm so proud of you for eating. I'm so proud of you for all of the progress you've made, I'm so proud of you!" Noah kissed the top of my head. I turned around and looked up at him.

Tears soaked my cheeks. He put his hand on my cheek and stared at me with hearts in his eyes. "I love you so much," I said. He smiled. My eyes couldn't help but dart down to his washboard six-pack.

He giggled, "Are you going to say that to my face or are you just going to keep talking to my abs?" My eyes darted back up to his sweet eyes.

"I love you," I said. He leaned down and kissed me. I held his head, not letting him break away. He smiled into the kiss. Noah grabbed the back of my thighs and lifted me to sit on the counter. He shoved his tongue between my lips.

Noah reached around my body and unbuckled my bra. It fell off my shoulders. I unbuttoned his black skinny jeans. He lifted my body off of the bathroom counter, I leaned against the ledge as Noah deepend the kiss.

Noah's hands snuck around my thighs, he pulled away and smiled. He stared into my eyes. "You're beautiful," He whispered.

I smiled and started kissing him again. He tankled his fingers in my hair then pulled my head back exposing my neck. He kissed my jaw softly. "You're perfect," He whispered, his mouth close to my ear. He kissed my neck and started sucking on my neck. I felt a moan build in my chest. I enlaced my fingers in his hair, not letting him move his head away.

His fingers wrapped around the waistband of my underwear. He slid them down little by little till they reached my ankles. I kicked them off and Noah stood back up. I grabbed the waistband of his boxers and pulled them down.

Noah started kissing me again. Without breaking our kiss, we shuffled to the shower. Noah turned the water on. It was an immediate rush of cold water on our bare bodies but it quickly started warming up. Noah pushed my back against the wall. His forehead pressed against mine, his eyes stared into mine pleadingly. His hands rolled over my hips and to the back of my thighs.

He lifted my body off of the floor, my legs wrapped around his waist. One of his hands pushed against the small of my back, causing our stomachs to touch. His mind was begging for permission. I answered his begs with a quiet whisper and a desperate nod, "Yes."

I wrapped my arms around Noah's neck and pushed my back against the wall harder in an attempt to take more weight off of his arms. I laid my head on the wall and stared into Noah's eyes. There was a darkness in his eyes now, it wasn't like what I was used to. His eyes were dark with seduction. He rolled his hips forward and I felt the pressure of him inside me.

I released the moans built up from my chest. Noah stared into my eyes, "Oh, I love your pretty little noises," He whispered. My cheeks started burning red. My legs are tight around Noah's waist but he thrusts against me hard enough for them to unlock at the ankles. My body slowly started sliding down the wall but Noah pulled me back up.

I allow another moan to escape from the depth of my chest. He rolls into me again, and again and again. Noah chuckles quietly as I become a screaming mess.

Noah's breathing accelerated as he continued rolling his hips into me. My mouth smothered against his shoulder, muffling my moans. I bit his shoulder causing him to groan. "Don't hide from me, darling," Noah whispered. I lifted my head and moaned into his ear loudly. He started to kiss the crook of my neck.

"Fuuuuuck," Noah let out before letting me slide down his body. My legs were shaking too much, I could hardly stand up.

I watched as Noah stood under the stream of hot water, letting it beat down his face. Damn, he looked hot. I stood in front of him, running my hands up his abs. He looked down at me smiling. He grabbed a bottle of shampoo and started washing my hair.

After he was done washing my body he turned the water off and pulled me out of the shower. He grabbed a towel and started gently drying every part of me starting with my hair. He quickly dried himself off. I grabbed his hand and pulled him to our bedroom. He pushed me on the bed and climbed on top of me. His lips pressed against mine gently, his hand resting on my cheek. He pulled away from our kiss and just stared into my eyes.

I could never say it enough. His eyes are gorgeous. His left eye was light brown, almost hazel, with flecks of beautiful gold. And his right eye was blue, but it was almost too blue to be real, it looked like a crystal. I could spend hours getting lost in his eyes and still feel like I haven't seen parts of them. I put my hand on his cheek, he leaned into my touch.