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111. Neil spots Mini's new diary.

They were chit-chatting and didn't realise it was late night. Arya was asleep, leaning on Mini's left side with her left arm around her. 

Neil picked her up and took her down to let her sleep comfortably.

Lala: Tu ab aaram kar Mini hum chalte hai... 

Geeta: Dhyaan rakhna apna... aaj haldi wala sek kiya hai to thakaan lagegi. 

Mini: Hmm... 

They went and Neil after closing the door, came upstairs.

Mini was yawning while rubbing her eyes.

Neil lifted her up and took her to her bed. She lied down comfortably and smiled at him. 

Mini: Good Night... Aaram se sona... Bina tension ke... Hmm?

Neil: Hmm... Good Night.

He patted on her head lightly and she slept.

He wasn't feeling sleepy and turned back to see the table behind was messy maybe because Arya took out the first aid box from the drawer and in the process of finding it she emptied other drawers too. 

He kept the things back to the drawers organising it in a way he thought maybe it would have been there. But a cool wind blew and Neil saw Mini's diary pages were rustling.

He picked the opened diary but the bookmark fell off. He picked up the bookmark and kept it on the page and turned the pages to close the diary properly as some pages were folded. 

The plane page, just before closing the hardcover face of the diary, got Neil's attention.

It was written.... Meri Family.... Arya + Mini + Neil = ArMiNeil.... A dream or reality.... followed a few dots and then title ended with a question mark. 

He got curious to read the diary now. 

So he sat there and opened the first page to read it.

"Dear Diary, Bahot time baad mil rahe hai na hum... Kitne saal ho gaye.... But you know why I purchased a new one.... because I feel to live again... A new life... A different life... A life where I can also be happy.... be free... be lively.... be myself.... and even be loved by someone.... loved by Neil... the person whom I love....."

Neil ran his fingers on the page of the diary and felt her emotions soothing, deep in his heart.

"Tujhe pata hai dear diary... main jab Neil ke saath hoti hu na to mujhe ek alag hi sukoon ka ehsaas hota hai... ek fulfilment feel hoti hai... Mujhe to yeh bhi nahi samajh aata ki main iss emotion ko kis tarah se define karu but I really feel happy around him.... Aur iss baar mujhe nahi lagta ki main tujhse kisi aur baare me baat karne waali hu... because vo sab baatein to main ab Neil se bhi keh sakti hu na... Main jo bhi feel karti hu... ups and downs.... main sab usko bata sakti hu... jaise kabhi main tujhe bataya karti thi... He is like a human diary for me... jo meri saari baatein sun ke bhi kabhi mujhe judge nahi karega...... But uske hi baare me usse baat thodi na karungi... varna chane ki jhaad pe chad gaya to... kaan pakad ke utaarna padega na.... isiliye uske baare me tujhse keh rahi hu.... He has made me live once again... he is only one reason for whom I have started believing in hope... I have started to hope once again.... the hope for a happy life... the hope for a cute sweet little family... the hope to have love in my life... Aaj jab Neil subah subah neend me badbada raha tha na to uska dar dikh raha tha uski baaton me par shaam ko jab Neil sapna dekhte hue bol raha tha na.... Apni feeling confess kar raha tha.... mujhe ekdum se aisa laga jaise mujhe ek contentment... ek fulfillment mil gayi ho... I felt complete from within.... Kisi aise se jisse aap pyaar karte ho.... usse proposal milne par kitni different feeling aati hai na... jisko shabdon me nahi bayaan kar paate par mehsoos karke bahot alag sukoon milta hai... uska neend me bola hua confession bhi itna pyaara hoga... maine to socha bhi nahi tha... uske ek ek shabd se aisa lag raha tha jaise mujhe kahin na kahin ek ajeeb si gudgudi feel ho rahi ho... sunne me bahot pachkaana lagta hai but aisa lag raha tha jaise vo pal wahi tham jaaye... ekdum se ruk jaaye aur main bas Neil ko dekhti rahu...Uski vo pyaari si hasi ko kahin apne andar basa lu... main uska aaj confess kiya hua ek ek shabd apni soul tak me feel kar paa rahi thi... Paagal ho gayi hu main sacchi me..."