Sometimes Love Isn't Enough

The Deeper The Love

After receiving the confirmation that Brendon is the father of Elise's baby, we have talked about what he wants to do, and he wants to be involved. He doesn't want to abandon his child, and in all honesty, I wouldn't expect him or want him to either. I fully support his decision, even though it's a bittersweet pill to swallow. He has tried to contact Elise, but she won't answer any of his calls.

The next leg of the tour starts in 3 days in Arizona. The guys are all due to head out tomorrow night. I can sense that Brendon is anxious as his mood is starting to dip.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I don't want to go, Carly. I don't want to be stuck on a tour bus all alone."
"You won't be alone Bren, you'll be with Dan, Nicole, and Mike on the bus plus Tyler & Josh."
"That's not what I mean. Plus Nicole and Mike are that new couple stage, and I'll have no one." By this time, he's pouting like a s child, and I can't help but stifle a smile. I look at him with a sad face,
"Awww, my poor baby. Is there anything I can do to make you feel better?"
"No! that makes me feel worse as I know it will be months before I can touch you again. It frustrates me...."
"Brendon..." I sigh.."Do you want to ask me something?" He looks at me puzzled.
"Anything at all?" I ask, raising an eyrbrow waiting for a response. When he doesn't answer, I leave him lying on the floor playing with Skai.
"Do you fancy ordering pizza for dinner? I don't feel like cooking."
"Sure, sounds good, then we can watch Netflix and chill."
"Thought that would just frustrate you?" I wink at him playfully.
"Ha, ha. No.....I literally mean Netflix and chill Carly."
"Oh well, you can't blame a girl for trying. I mean, with you being away. I'll b.e lonely as well. But hey-ho."
I can't believe he hasn't asked if myself and Skai want to come back on the road with him. What he doesn't know is that I have already packed our things ready to go tomorrow night. Should I just put him out of his misery and tell him or make the most of stringing him along? I must admit I am quite enjoying the latter.
Once dinner is finished and Skai has been fed, bathed, and ready for bed, Brendon takes her through to bed.
"Hey, baby girl. This will be the last night that Daddy puts you to bed .
"Da da..."
"Yes, princess, that's right. I'm your daddy. You see, I need to go back out on tour again. I'm going to miss you and mummy so much."
I can hear his conversation through the monitor. Now I feel bad for toying with him. I hear him start singing Northern Downpour, and I know Skai will soon be fast asleep. When he comes back into the lounge, he looks so sad.
"Brendon, I heard your conversation with Skai. Are you going to be ok?"
"I don't know, Babe. I know we FaceTime'd before, but it's not the same." he whines.
"Brendon, I can't do this."
He looks at me panic stricken..
"Do.....do what Carly?? I thought we were OK and you were supporting me!"
Oh my god, does he think I'm leaving him?
"Brendon! Calm down, babe. It's not what you're thinking. Skai and I are coming back on the road with you. I was keeping it as a surprise, but I can't take any more of your moping." I laugh. He looks like he could pass out.
"Seriously?? You really mean it, Carlyn?"
"Yes, seriously." He looks at me relieved.
"Fuck Carly, for a minute there I thought you had changed your mind and you were leaving".
"No....I was waiting to see if you were going to ask if we would join you. I've been dropping hints all day. Did you really not pick up on any of them?."
"No, I've been too preoccupied trying to figure out how to ask you after the last time. I didn't want you to feel obliged to because of Skai, and I also didn't want you to feel uncomfortable because of Elise and even more so now that we know that I'm the baby's father. I really didn't think you'd WANT to come."
"Brendon, you are going to need my support with Elise, hiven that she's still not answered any of your calks or texts, plus Skai needs to spend time with her daddy before her sibling comes along and she has to share him."
"Christ, how am I going to do this, Carly?"
"We, Bren, WE......we will manage this."
He smashes his lips onto mine. "How about we forget about Netflix and just Chill?" he says into the kiss.
"I thought you'd never ask." I laugh as he throws me over his shoulder racing towards our bedroom.