LOST LOVE || JIKOOK✅

40.Gardening

Two months had passed since I informed Mr. Kim about my debut.

My days usually involved going to school and then spending the rest of the time in bed. At night, my uncle would often get angry and take out his frustration on me, blaming me for my father's debt.

Getting hit by him became a regular thing, and the wounds on my body became a part of my life.

The more I cried, the lonelier I felt. It was like I was trapped in darkness, and every night spent with my uncle was a challenge. Some nights, I couldn't even sleep because I was afraid he might come and hurt me again. That fear consumed my thoughts, leaving me anxious and on edge.

One day, I decided I needed a distraction, something to take my mind off the constant fear and pain. Gardening seemed like a good idea. I remembered how my parents were farmers, so I knew a bit about planting.

I felt a glimmer of happiness at the thought. I decided to grow some plants on my balcony. It was a small space, but I was determined to make it green and alive.

I asked my driver uncle, to take me to buy plant saplings. I got what I needed and started arranging them on my balcony. The process of setting up the plants brought a sense of calm to my heart.

As I carefully planted each sapling, I felt a connection to my parents and their farming roots. It was as if I was carrying a piece of them with me in this new endeavor.

Speaking about Mr Kim,he got a National Award for his movie. And he became a brand ambassador for five more big brands.

And I must say, he had been a lifeline for me during this time. He helped cover my living expenses by sending people to restock our refrigerator every week. He also made sure I had pocket money, a luxury my uncle used to take from me which I don't care anymore.

I wondered how I could ever repay Mr Kim. And why he needs to take care of me just to cast with him. Was it his nature to help the poor? I don't know.

Then, three weeks ago, I received a call from Lisa informing me that they had been selected a script for me to debut.

Mixed emotions of happiness and apprehension washed over me. The world of acting wasn't as safe as it seemed, with numerous stories of people having to compromise to survive in the industry. Many top actors and actresses had come forward to share their experiences. And I did saw how few actress boldly said how they get haressed and abused by all those producers and directors. Also after the statement,I haven't seen them in any of the film. Which makes me even more uncomfortable.

Would I have to compromise my principles to secure a future? But I need money and I think only acting can make me stable.

I had to do it. I gave my approval to Lisa, even though I didn't know anything about the storyline.

All she told me was that my first scene would involve a rainy dance, and that it was a science fiction story of sorts.

Dance was the one thing that kept my excitement alive for the film. I was going to dance alongside the superstar, Kim Taehyung! It felt like a dream come true, and I believed it was the key to elevating my career.

Mr. Kim didn't send any directors to narrate the script to me, for which I am grateful. Typically, when selecting a movie, there's an interview along with a screen test. Fortunately, I didn't have to go through that process, as I was going to act directly.

As the time for the song rehearsal approached, I visited Mr. Kim's studio and dedicated a week to practicing the dance steps.

After school, I would often go to Mr. Kim's studio to practice. On weekends, I would dedicate my entire day to practicing there. Sometimes, Mr. Kim would stay and guide me, while other times I would practice on my own.

However, there were times when Mr. Kim wasn't around, and that's when things took a troubling turn. The choreographer, who was supposed to help me, started behaving inappropriately towards me. At first, I thought it might have been accidental, but as time passed, I realized his true intentions.

I felt afraid and confused about what to do. I didn't want to believe that this was happening to me. It was all so new and overwhelming. My parents had always kept me safe, and this experience was completely different.

I felt ashamed and embarrassed to speak up about what was happening to me. The silence felt like a shield for him, and he took advantage of it to touch me in ways that made me uncomfortable. Every time he crossed the line, I would just cry and run away from the dance studio, feeling helpless and scared.

I missed my parents terribly. Growing up without their protection was incredibly tough for me. Each day, I struggled with my emotions and the turmoil caused by this distressing situation.

I decided to hide this from Mr. Kim because he helps me with many things, and I don't want him to worry about my presence. The dance practice went well, and the day of my first shoot arrived.

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