Amuto: you or my broken life

What now?

[~•~Ikuto's view~•~]

"Don't...don't tell me....even at our first date...it was just because of the beat?" She asked.

Her face was mixed with shock ,sadness and a look in her eyes I never saw in her eyes before.

"I'm sorry, I didn-","get out!" Cut me Amu off "don't explain! just get out!".

"Amu! That has nothing to do with now anymore! I've got out of the beat" I said trying to calm her.

"Get out!! Get out!get out!get out!" She yelled at me.

"I want to explain it to you because I didn't want to hurt you! That's why I didn't sleep with you" I explained.

"You said yourself you can't stand it when I cry....so please...God heavens...just get out" I heard her sob.

She pushed her legs tightly against her chest and hugged them tightly.

"Amu..."

She didn't even response now, she completely ignored me.

I stood up from the bed and went out of her room. I signed frustrated before leaning against the wall.

I'm such an idiot....

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Frustrated I looked at my phone. Still no response from Amu.

It already had been a week since I've told her about the beat but she still didn't talk with me.

She didn't response to my texts, calls, emails or anything else. I Tried talking with personally but even thought I've got in the house she closed herself in her room. Talking with her at school also was impossible because she skiped the whole week.

She hates me...I was sure of it. I tried talking with her just a few days ago. Just trough the door thought.

I explained her everything from how the beat started until know and that my feeling for her were real.

She kept the door close and didn't speak with me.

I was on the edge of insanity....where we still a couple or not?

Would she hate me for the rest of our lives?

WHY THE FUCK DID I LISTEN TO KUKAI!?

"Hey...Ikuto? Do you need anything?" I heard my sister ask.

"No" i responded facing her "where are you going?" I asked.

"To Amu...she asked me to bring her peanut butter and ice cream" she explained "is something wrong between you two?" She asked.

I took a deep breath in before explaining Utau the whole situation. She looked at me dumbfounded before smacking me across the face.

"Ouch...okay...I deserved that...but I'd be happier if it was from Amu" I muttered rubbing my red cheek.

"You're a idiot!" She scolded me.

"I know"

"A jerk!"

"I know"

"Why the fuck did you tell her that!?"

"I didn't want her to find out after she did soldering she'd regret later....and it's better if she knows it from me then from anyone else" I explained.

"You're such an idiot!" She scolded me stomping out of my room.

"What are you going to do now?" I asked ,frightened that she'd but more salt in that wound.