My love

Changing rooms

I sit there, trying to catch my breath but I couldn't. I stand up and start hitting the walls, everything felt so intense. Tears were falling down my face and I couldn't breathe properly. I was struggling to keep my balance and I just felt dizzy. I sat down and rested my head in my hands.

Leah comes in and sits next to me "what's up?" She asks

"I think we should break up, I'm not good for you. I keep taking you out of training, seriously go back out there" I say
"No, we are not breaking up. You are good for me, your just not good yourself. Your recovering from something and that takes time, I'm patient, I can wait however long you want me to wait but I'm going to be by your side throughout it all"

"But you don't need to. You could find someone else, I'm just a mess. Everything I do turns into a mess, I'm a horrible person. I'm disgusting" I say

"Your not a mess, your not horrible. Your beautiful and kind, and friendly. You've get everything you need, you just need time to be back to how you were, your just scared and panicked"

"But no one wants me here, Jonas wants me gone"

"Everyone wants you here" she says

"He wants me out on loan, I don't want to leave, why can't I just stay" I ask

Rafa comes in, she comes straight to my side. "You alright" Rafa asks
"Is Gio" I ask
"She doesn't matter right now" Rafa replies

Teyah comes in on her crutches "what are you playing at? She's in fucking tears and you can't do one thing. Fuck off"
Leah says "Teyah, she's going through something please just don't take anything to heart"
"What could possibly be so bad. Ey? Want to share, your little secrets Ella" Teyah says
I look down at my hands. "Thought so" Teyah says

"I was nearly sexually assaulted yesterday, do you blame me for asking her to get off me, I'm scared so I recommend your the one to fuck off, don't get in other people's business before you know what's going on for real" I say and then walk back outside.

I hear Teyah say "yeah, she would never get assaulted so that's a lie"

Gio looks at me and I stand there in tears, all the girls look at me. They all look disgusted. "G can I talk to you" I say crying.

"Why, I didn't mean any of what I did. I don't get why your so sensitive today" she says

"Because, I just am" I say

"That's not an answer?" She shouts

"Well I can't say the real thing in front of everyone" I shout back

"Just say it" she says

"Fine but don't expect me to ever message you or even talk to you again, because this is all of your fault. I could of told you in private but instead you want me to out myself" I say

"Go on then" she shouts

"Because I was nearly sexually assaulted" I shout and run off.

I get in my car. I go on my phone and ring Melissa.

"Honey what's up"

"I can't do this" I shout and cry down the phone

"What's happened" she asks me

"My best friend just made me tell everyone what happened yesterday, she tried touching me and I just lost it"

"You'll be alright, is Leah there"

"No. She was shouting at Teyah, who's my best friends crush. I don't know if they go out, I never want to know if they go out. I never want to speak to them, or see them ever again" I say