My love

Secrets and lies

"Ella wait" I shout
She keeps walking, Gio runs in front of me and Ella starts crying in her arms, I catch up with them and they walk inside. Beth runs past me "do you blame her Leah!" She shouts at me.
I go back to training.

Ella's pov

Teyah tells me that Leah is pregnant, why hadn't she told me. Fair enough if she was a couple weeks, but 4 months! Leah comes over and I walk off, Gio comes up to me and stops me. She hugs me and I burst into tears, I hear Beth shout something and then she comes closer and we walk inside, I sit in the changing rooms.

I have tears rolling all down my face, I was just so angry and so mad. "You know, it's going to be okay. She will have her reasons" Gio says
"What reason is going to be good enough to keep from telling your wife your pregnant?" I say
"I don't-" Gio says
"Maybe she was scared because of your reaction?" Beth suggests
"My reaction to having another child, Leah knows I want children" I say
I hear footsteps, Teyah comes in, "I didn't mean for any of this" she says
"Teyah it's fine, thanks, if you didn't tell me she probably wouldn't of anyway" I say
I go over to her and hug her. "Let's go back to training, I don't want this to mess up everything" I say
We go back out. Beth hugs me from the side and we walk out, before we get to the girls I turn and look at Beth. "Does it look like I've been crying" I ask
"No your fine"she says

We go over to the group and Jonas says we need to get into pairs, I see Leah coming towards me. "Hey alessia can we be partners?" I ask
"Yeah" she says and comes towards me.

We start passing the ball too each other, "your English aren't you? How come you don't play for Sarina?" Alessia asks
"My mams Brazilian, so I play for the Brazil team" I explain
"Where did you grow up then?" She asks
"I lived in Brazil with my mam until I was 6, then I came to England to live with my dad. Then my sister was born and she moved in with us and yeah basically been England ever since then" I say
"So your sister is Brazilian as well?" She asks
"Nah, my dad is a dickhead, he had my three older brothers with someone. Harry, Johnny and Arthur they are all fully English. Then it was me who is half Brazilian, then my mam left him when she was pregnant with me. Then he got with a Dutch woman who had my sister, so she's half dutch" I say
We finish training and I walk inside talking to Alessia. I get my stuff from my usual spot and switch with Katie. I was next to Alessia now and we talk the full time. "G, can you give me a lift home. If you don't mind?" I ask Gio once basically everyone had gone, except Gio Teyah and Leah.

"Just come with me" Leah asks
"What! Why? So you can lie to me again. Or wait no, you didn't lie. You didn't even bother to tell me" I say sharply
"I wanted to" Leah says
"Why didn't you! What seriously stopped you from telling your wife. From telling me" I shout at her
"I didn't want to tell you in case I had a miscarriage. It's very high in women with endometriosis, it's not a high chance I even get pregnant" Leah shouts back
"And if you did? You were just going to process that by yourself" I ask
"I would of had to" she says
I roll my eyes at her and say "G, can you take me home?"

"No, Gio doesn't need to take you home. I can take you" Leah says
"I'll take walking then" I say
"Please, just let me talk to you" Leah says
I stay quiet. "I want you to be a part of this adventure so much, and I was wrong not telling you, but I couldn't, I was too scared if I did the worst would happen and not only me would go through that you would too. And that would kill me." Leah says
"Would you like it if I kept mase a secret?" I say
"No of course I wouldn't, I know how your feeling." Leah says
"No you don't, you don't get the hurt that's  going through me. My own wife can't tell me she's pregnant" I say
"I'm sorry" Leah says
"If you were a couple weeks fair enough. But four months!" I almost shout
"I want to go see Mason and then go home" I add. I get in the car with Leah and look out the window. I choke back the tears and Leah goes and gets Mason. She puts him in his car seat and we drive home.