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(SONG ABOVE!- CONSEQUENCES—CAMILA CABELLO)
JENNIE'S POV
"Lisa..." I tried to reach for her but she tightened her grip on the gun. I trembled as I move back, afraid that she might lose her mind and shoot me.
"I love you... Jennie.. why?" She whispered as her tears fell, she pursed her lips to control her sobs
"Lisa I can explain everything.. Lisa.. I'm here to help you.. to protect you.. I did—"
"Argh! shut up!" She said and pointed the gun to me much more.
"Lisa! Just let me—"
"You're a fucking liar! Is Seulgi with you too? huh!"
"I know.. but it's.. I am not! fuck how am I supposed to explain if you're holding that fucking gun! put it down Manoban! Do I look like someone who has something to kill you right now! and No! Seulgi doesn't know I'm one of them! She didn't saw me before" I bursted. I need to protect Seulgi, she's my only hope in this situation. She look at me up and down with a hesitant look. I was just wearing a fucking bathrobe for Christ sake!
I thought she would calm down but she didn't.
"No! I don't want to listen to your lies! How dare you play me?
"Lisa I didn't! If you'll just listen!"
"You did! You knew who I was right? You knew! and you didn't tell me who you are! You're helping me? by what? by those information?! or just luring me into you and your families trap!? Helping? so that's why Jisoo is there! struggling for her damn life! Well to let you know Jennie! I won't listen and fuck you for your lies! get out of my place before I could kill you.. I still want to do my job properly and arrest you in a right way and don't you dare hide from me because I swear I can find you and if that happens the next time I'll see you? I'll kill you! You just fucking use me! Now I'm regretting that I fell in love with you! You're just a fucking manipulative user who is a puppy of her own family, who even use herself! her body just to make sure their dirty business will still be in shape no matter what! and I regret loving someone like you!"
I was stunned by her words and didn't notice I slapped her until I heard it.
My tears run through my cheeks continuously. I love her.. I love her truthfully. How can she doubt that?
"You're doubting my love for you? Lisa I love you! I love you so much that I am doing this! I love you so much that I joined them even it can cost my life! I love you that's why I gave you my whole! I love you that's why I'm here! fucking crying in front of you wherein I can just snatch that damn gun in your hands and kill you! so that we won't have any problem! and sorry but fuck you too for doubting all the things I showed you just because you thought I really lied to you! I protected you! I needed to! but you're here accusing me! and doubting me! like you didn't feel how much I loved you!" I screamed out against her face and I fell down on my knees.
She stared at me blankly but in pity.
"Leave." She said and put her gun down before she passed by me and went to the living room.
I cried harder until I can't anymore and that's when I stood up, get dressed and packed my things. My eyes were puffy as I got out of her room, already missing the scent of it.
I don't know if I should get out through her window because I know she's still in the living room but then I allowed myself to see her once more, for the last time.
She was there sitting at the couch, holding a glass of whiskey, maybe getting drunk. She didn't flinch or even look at me as I passed by her. I felt my chest pang and with that I closed my eyes tightly trying to stop myself from kissing her a goodbye.
