Those In The Forest

Part 38: Iris

Two days later

This is absolutely fucking torture!

          Reagan has continued to ignore us for two days now, and Celia has made it very clear that if we go out of our way and bother her, talk to her, even fucking look at her, she will tie us to trees and leave us their for any little critter to bother us.

          Celia and Karina have been more... aggressive lately. They've been giving each other mean looks. Well, Celia has been giving Karina mean looks. I know the conversations happening in their head are heart-shattering, especially from all the pouting Karina has been doing.

          Celia has continued to make her sleep on the couch, and I know it's killing both of them because Reagan, being in a whole opposite room, is killing us.

          She continues to cry and whine all night, tossing and turning. I want to talk to her, or at least attempt to comfort her, but she has made it very clear that not only is she sad at us, but highly pissed.

           Two days ago, when she asked Avah to take her on a run, I thought it was just to get some space from us, but I was wrong.

          When we go for runs, we go out for about a mile and start running around the space of the cabin. She did no such thing. She went farther, and every day since then, she has gone even farther.

          It has been killing us, but Celia said it's our punishment. Reagan is... going to kill us, and I don't think she cares.

          She said she hates us. I wanted to believe that was just because she was angry at the moment, but she might actually hate us. I don't know what to do.

          We fucked up. We kept secrets from her that have hurt her to what seems like no return. It was a mistake, but we all decided not to tell her what the tonic would do. Our Elders and Alphas said it was for the best, and like the idiots we are, we agreed.

          My lovers and I were still lying in our bed. We got no sleep last night. I don't even think we tried to sleep. All we could do was listen to Reagan cry. She was crying for hours and hours until she was just knocked out. How she had the energy to run after not sleeping well is surprising, but I guess her wanting us to suffer is all that's fueling her.

            What confuses me is that doing all of this hurts her, too. Is she really so upset with us that she would punish herself to make us suffer?

          I frowned at the ceiling. Why isn't she mad at our Elders and Alphas? Why is she continuously going out on runs with our Alphas when they also knew what would happen?

          This is so fucking unfair!

          I snarled, and Hazel pulled me closer to her. "You, thinking this hard is making it really hard to attempt to sleep even a little bit." she kissed the back of my neck.

          Ivy was in front of me, with Rose holding her. She reached out, tracing her thumb over my chin.

           "There's nothing we can do," Ivy said sadly.

          I pouted. "We haven't even tried. Every time we do, our Elders and Alphas tell us no. Celia practically snaps at us when we even look like we are." I grumbled.

          "She's mad at us, but she doesn't hate us." Rose comforted us. "We just... have to be patient," she said really aggressively.

          Yeah, patience is something we haven't mastered all the way. At least with certain things, one big thing being us. When it comes to our bond or now mating, patience is hard.