After five long years of searching for Jennie, Kim Taehyung found nothing but a single letter she left behind-an enigmatic farewell that shattered his world. With no trace of her whereabouts, he had been left to navigate the void she left in his lif...
It's been 1026 days since you left Korea, the entertainment industry, your friends... since you left me. I miss you. I hope things are going well for you, and that you're happier now. You gave up so much for me—your career, your dreams—so that I could chase mine. And then, you left me too, just so I could keep going.
I still wonder why we were forced to choose between love and our careers. I know I sound selfish right now, but why couldn’t we have both?
Our story never reached its full ending, but you know what? Fans are getting better with dating scandals these days. They’re reacting more maturely, slowly accepting that their idols can love and be loved. Have you heard? Jisoo unnie is dating now, and the fans responded positively this time. Jin hyung and RM hyung too. It took some time for fans to adjust, but the atmosphere was much more stable compared to what we went through.
It makes me happy to hear idols are now able to date publicly, with their fans supporting them wholeheartedly. It’s the way it should be. I wish things had been like this when it was our turn. Maybe then, we could still be together. Maybe I could have stopped you from taking such a drastic step. I wish I could still hear your voice, see your smile... It’s been so long, Jen.
Where are you? No one knows. Not even your parents have heard from you. Blackpink isn't the same without you, and it hurts to know that you left everything behind, without a word to anyone.
We promised we'd face everything together. So why did you take it all on yourself? Why were you the one making all the sacrifices? Why didn’t I share the weight of it with you? If you ever think of me… just know that I haven’t forgotten. I never will. I miss you, Jen. Always.
It’s your special day today, Jen.
Happy Birthday. Even though I’m not there to celebrate with you, to make your day special like you deserve, I hope—no, I pray—that you’re happy, wherever you are.
I still remember that time you celebrated my birthday with me. You insisted on cooking the entire dinner yourself. You wouldn’t let anyone else help. It was one of those moments that made me fall for you even more—watching you move around the kitchen, determined to make everything perfect. That meal… it wasn’t just food, it was us. It’s still one of the most cherished memories I hold close to my heart.
The dimly lit room felt hollow as Taehyung sat at the dinner table, a small cake in front of him, a single candle flickering weakly, He wiped his flour-dusted hands on the apron, the one Jennie had once worn when she tried to make him that chaotic birthday dinner.
“See, I learned baking so I could make the perfect cake for you on your birthday,” he muttered quietly, Taehyung swallowed hard, the bittersweet memory lingering. He had spent hours practicing, determined to live up to her words, but she wasn’t here to taste it. He glanced at the cake in the oven and sighed, a hollow ache filling his chest. He had learned, but now the person he’d learned for wasn’t here to share in the moment.
The kitchen felt too quiet, too empty, and the weight of her absence hung heavy around him. "I finally got it right, Jennie," he whispered, his voice cracking. "But you're not here to see it."
The laughter that had once filled the room was now a distant memory, and the warmth that used to radiate from the kitchen was absent. The smell of soy sauce and oil, the chaotic mess of flour scattered across the counters—everything was etched in his mind as vividly as if it had happened yesterday.
He could almost hear Jennie’s playful scolding, her voice ringing in his ears: “Oppa, make a wish first!” He smiled to himself, the memory of her determined effort to make his birthday dinner flashing before his eyes. He could see her flustered face, the apron stained with ingredients, the chaos she had caused in the kitchen, and that terrible cake she had made—yet somehow, it was the best cake he had ever tasted.
Taehyung’s gaze drifted toward the empty chair across from him. He reached for the small fork, his hands trembling slightly as he cut a piece of cake. He took a bite, letting the sweetness melt in his mouth, and closed his eyes. For a brief moment, he could hear her soft humming, the clattering of pans, and her cheerful voice teasing him, just as she had done on that unforgettable birthday.
“Your wish is so easy to grant,” he whispered, remembering her mischievous grin as she had leaned in to kiss him that night. His heart clenched as he felt the overwhelming weight of her absence.
Sitting in the quiet, Taehyung stared at the flickering candle, his mind full of the memories they had shared. He made a silent wish, not for himself this time, but for her. He knew no matter where life took them, that promise she had made was still alive in his heart.
“We’ll always be together, no matter what,” she had said. And even though she wasn’t there to celebrate her own birthday, Taehyung still believed in that promise.
Brushing away a tear, he leaned forward and blew out the candle. The room went darker, but in his heart, Jennie’s presence still shined as brightly as ever.
"God, I wish I could make more of those moments with you. I wish I could be there with you today, by your side, making your birthday special, the way you made mine unforgettable. But I’m not. And I regret it so much, not being able to make you feel as loved, as important, as you made me feel that day. I hate that I can’t be there to laugh with you, to see your smile when you open your gifts, to share those quiet, sweet moments that only we understand.
I just hope that wherever you are, you’re happy. I hope you’re safe. I hope you’ve found some peace. I can’t be with you, but I want you to know, not a day goes by when I don’t think about you, when I don’t wish things could have been different.
Happy Birthday, Jen." He muttered to himself
I wish I could say it to you in person, hold you close and celebrate this day like we used to. But until then, just know that wherever you are, you’re always in my heart.
Happy birthday...
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