Don't mean to be a bother
But what the fuck just happened?
⁺ 𓂋 𓈒
I don't like it. This feeling that bubbled up inside of me as I pulled up to this familiar house.
The thoughts that roamed my head, the lingering feeling of his lips on mine. I had to get out of there. I didn't know what to say because I felt like I would say something wrong that I would later regret.
The passenger door opened but I didn't look at her as she got into the car. I stared ahead as my head pounded.
"Is everything okay?" I heard her voice that should have calmed me but it didn't. I was nowhere near calm—internally screaming at myself.
"Yeah, I just have a lot going on" That was partially true. I look at her finally and let out a small sigh, "Why do you care about me?" I ask her, starting to wonder what made her like me. What made anyone like me?
She turns to me "Because" She says "You're the first person that doesn't make me feel like I need to be perfect" I look away and I fight this horrible feeling that I felt.
"Nobody's perfect" I gaze at her and she leans over the center console, placing her small hand on my cheek.
Her eyes look between mine "But we're perfect for each other" I swallow harshly, "Aren't we?"
I licked my lips without thinking, my mind searching for that familiar taste but it wasn't there. My eyes went down to hers, mind racing.
"I just want to forget right now," I said without thinking, looking into her eyes.
Something flashes in her eyes as she nods slowly, leaning closer to each other as we capture each other's lips.
Teeth clashing and hands roaming, I just wanted to forget. Forget about the taste of my silver-haired friend's lips on mine.
I had a girlfriend, she was right in front of me. Kissing me.
But it was like one thing led to another, I needed much more than a kiss to simply forget about these feelings I pushed back.
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One thing led to another, as I said. This led to us in the back of my car, Maya on top of me as the sound of our skin meeting and her moans filled the space. Her hands were on my body as she called my name but only one roamed mine as I shamelessly fucked her.
It felt wrong even though she was my girlfriend. Everything felt wrong.
⁺ 𓂋 𓈒
Darkness surrounds me, literally.
I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling as the moon peaks through the window. The small breeze was welcomed in my room through the small crack I had left open.
I wished today was just a nightmare that I would soon wake up from, I knew that wouldn't happen. I seem to get myself into these situations way too often. Doing things in the moment but later regretting them.
Did I regret sleeping with her, Maya—my girlfriend, I had to remind myself. Do I regret kissing him, Minho—My best friend, my rock... I didn't know the answer.
I just knew that this darkness could swallow me up and I wouldn't seem to care. I wish nobody cared, that would make it easier for me. Less complicated and I wouldn't have to be this selfish.
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Fanfiction[COMPLETED] Jisung is straight, after failed attempts of being in a relationship-he decides it was time to go for what he really wanted. That was Maya Roberts, his childhood crush. Minho is openly bisexual, never getting into any serious relationshi...
